I hate Lydia.O and Makayla and marriane and Gracie and Ty is a jerk and Aprils mum is a fucking bitch coz she isn't letting me and April hang out and April should stop staring at me in class Cuz its creeping me out by the way still her mum is a bitch. :-( !!? 100% bitchy isn't she. 123&:-(+?!!= http://my life.com wiki

Today

It was much better than yesterday. The depression seemed to wander away for awhile, I don't feel so hopeless. I didn't think of ways to get rid of myself. I'm learning how to allow feelings in without letting them control me. Sometimes not being emotionless can feel good.

Update's & Crap

Health - Period came on Feb 24th to March 3rd. Irregular period acting very regular soooo that's fine. I noticed a major break out on my face when my period came so I now use Advantage Clean&Clear grape fruit face wash and my regular cheap bar of soap. It has cleared up my face tremendously. I'm drinking more water too. Right now..I have a light...

The Blame Game

My mom specializes in that. Blaming us for this and that. I can't wait to be successful, so I can stop playing games period. I'll be about my business. Just got to keep my head up and keep pushing. Through God, I'll become great. Not perfect, but great. I'm not afraid of tomorrow. I'll embrace, I don't need any living human on this earth. I need...

March 7

Today was my school's talent show. I'm on student council and was in charge of decorations so I had to stay after school and help with that, and then I had to practice with my pianist for solo and ensemble (I unfortunately play the trumpet). Me, my friends Allie and Mikayla and Carter are all in a "band" together called the Acathroats and we h...

I once thought it could have been so, as I myself am nothing like your dad and my father. But that didn't suffice for her.

A Kiss Is Just A Kiss

I grow weary, when I kiss some stranger im attracted to. For its just a kiss with out meaning. I find them boring. No spark no flame. Guy after guy date after date. And although 3 have declared they have fallen in love with me. I can not reply cause im empty inside. I dont long for you alex anymore u made that clear and im okay with that but y...

Can't I go one day without something bad happening? First fender bender today.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

I miss her smell. I miss the laughter. I miss the feel of her being close to me. Not necessarily touching me - just being near me. Like when we sat on the damp log eating breakfast. Nothing more intimate than being knee to knee. That time together felt wonderful. I miss her. I miss being in her space.

Burst

A simple walk on a trail of darkness, an unexpected assault on my secrets. You had no right to take it from me, my subtle innocence under the stars. It was not soft and beautiful as his, it felt like a piercing needle filled with iodine. There was no sweet release in its collide, nothing but panic was ensued. A crumbled sputter of "its okay" but...

boyss.

So, my crush asked me out. He said he broke up with his girlfriend so I of course said yes. Then that same night, at 11:11, he broke up with me. He said he still loved me whatever. But i asked why he broke up with me and he wouldnt say why. Then later I figured out that he didnt break of with her. ugh. boys.

Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage.

girl friend

Hey fabulous girl just hooked up with me and followed me I love you fabulous girl xoxo love from smacpac 14,

Im in love

OK I'm in love with fabulous girl I even followed her she is a great artist.

I hate my puny little life

I am so sick and tired of the bad stuff happening to me I am a target for the bully to grab at and suck on and it is so often, life's a bitch and Its getting on my nerves ATM. What did I do to be treated like crap maybe I'm suffering from depression or something. I wish I could name and shame the not so little ,terds who made me like this it mak...

“To most people, I can never do enough. To my dearest, I do way more than enough.” I can relate to the quote above. To Tom I can do no wrong even when I make mistakes, and to others I just can’t get it right. Well, to some others anyway, LOL. Like they say, someone somewhere is always going to have a problem with anything we say or do. If I wer...

I don't want to be here anymore. I want to be free. Free of the constant pain, free of the sadness, free of the endless guilt.

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.

Just push through it

Maybe I shouldn't give up. I can do this. I can live, I can be happy. I don't need to let other people influence my life. I'm going to be happy. I can do it. I just need to push threw through these next couple of months then when I see my grammy I can tell her everything that I'm feeling and hopefully she'll let me live with her.

I think i might cut again

Dear diary, since i have found out that my stepdad and my mom might date again i think i might cut again its just I cant believe she chose him over my trust!! idk if ii can ever trust her or him EVER again. i feel like since she obviously dosent care and shes the person that gave birth 2 me that maybe my life isnt worth living. At least for now ...

January 3

Just the beginning of becoming the best ME !!! Breakfast: egg white omelet, 2 toast, coffee