University open days

Schedule: this Sunday is Monash [with Levina, Tracy and Jenny]; Next Sunday is RMIT [most likely the boys and Nick]; 2 Sundays from now is Melbourne [either with Donny or the girls] and 3 Sundays from now is maybe La Trobe with Jimmy.

today i gathered a bit of courage (in the form of 2 shots of tia maria) and asked Kira if she still likes me.... she hasn't answered yet and i'm so nervous.

I dreamt last night that I was about to get married. I didn’t have a dress, I didn’t even WANT to get married and it just made no sense. When I got to the church to get ready for my wedding, which I was already running late to, I stopped in my tracks and said, “I’m not doing this. I don’t want to get married. I never wanted to get married.” Then...

My first proper Diary Entry

Alright, so this has been a pretty productive week; Paid a few bills, got to round 23 on Nazi Zombies and I'm due to start a new Job on Monday morning (Brown Trousers much?) =D It's about time we had some luck after the bollocks we had to put up with from the council this morning, it always seems like the only things I and most other blokes moa...

My first Diary ever!

So here we go, my first ever Diary. Now all I have to do is think of something to write...

I'm tired of this..

I'm tired of being told I'm never gonna be good enough. Who are they to say what I have to measure up to? Tired of trying to fit in with people who will never accept me. What do they have that I don't? Tired of telling myself that I'm not pretty enough or thin enough. I don't have a thigh gap and I'm proud of that! Tired of being a disappointme...

Bahahaha

Oh dear...i have a really embarrassing yet funny tale to tell. As my mother and I were driving down a rather busy road with a brand new box of purple converse shoes, THE love of my life, I made a joke about how it would be sooo funny if my shoes just dropped out of the window beside me. And to emphasize the hilariousness of the very idea of that...

Friday August 1st;

It's a new month and a new me. Someone asked me today how I was and for the first time in a long time I replied "I'm happy, thank you for asking!" It was actually pretty weird to say. haha I realized today that for 4 years I convinced myself that I loved someone that didn't know how to be loved or love back and I wasted so much emotion and time ...

Expectations.

“I’m not in this world to live up to your expectations and you’re not in this world to live up to mine.” - Bruce Lee

Confusion.

Never have I ever been so scared. I've been so lost for so long. I forgot what happiness is,but is this it? Am I lying to myself to convince myself that this is it. I wnat this,I think I want this. Talking to him makes me smile not talking to him,makes me feel empty...is this another dependence to someone. I'm scared I may be falling for someone...

True Neutral.

I consider myself True Neutral Leaning on Chaotic Neutral. I often speak of my indifference and apathy. It's in my name, Gray. But there is The other side of me which acts on impulse and values chaos. I love chaos, from my point of view chaos a necessary thing that goes unwanted. I often speak of these things. If everyone were happy, happy woul...

silent night...

I would type some more...but I'm too lazy. Good night.

boys suck no offense guys

So I had this boyfriend for a month and he finnally texts me one and says 'i want to break up.' I say 'it is fine I understand because we haven't talked or seen each other in a while.' He then say 'that didn't go as planed' My first thought was he wanted me to beg. Well news flash d**k I'm a teenage girl not a f**king dog so back the hell off an...

none

None of wat I post is true and if it is I will have a date in the title

7/31/2014 REGAT

I don't get how life can be fair when my life suck and my evil sister living my life and she took everything from me. Oh why she still gets to be happy. Like they say what goes around comes around. But nothing yet it been 15 years since she back stab me and nothing life's unfair to me. Boo hoo I hope I can be happy for once...

I sit and don't think.

I stare blankly at nothing. I forget how to speak, how to think, how to act. I sit there and there I am truly myself. Nothing but me. Just a blank, thoughtless, gray.

My stepmother.

Rant about to begin. I'm trying to collect my thoughts into an organized and somehow sequential manner, but most likely be a form of word vomit. I hate how much PDA she shows. She literally clings onto my dad all the damn time and kissed him obnoxiously at random moments like legit more than 15 times everyday. We'll just be walking around and sh...

<3 :) maybe <3

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.