Ups & Downs

In a way am kinda glad she is leaving, so I don't need to think about her or what she is doing. If all my career hunt doesn't work out then I guess it will be over. To be quite frank why not end it now? What is there to lose? Being treated like Grade A dirt, no respect.

Hi Guyys :)

So as you can see I am new to this. Googled where I could make a diary and this was the site I chose out of all the others so hello, here I am. I have no idea how this works, who can read it or what I am doing but I am trying. So for the next day Im going to browse some pages, find some interesting people and hope that I eventually learn how to ...

To my dearest friends,

I know I'm annoying and a pest, but I don't mean to be. It's just I don't want to be the one that's left out, abandoned when someone else that's better than me comes along and I guess by being a pest it's made you do it more. I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I was there when no one else was. I'm sorry that I was there to offer to pay for things , give ...

I'm not happy

In life right now. The place I am at mentally and physically does not make me happy

Our love needs no name We got a thing we can’t explain Don’t care what people say, let’s call it Whatever Whatever

THAT MOMENT WHEN YOUR DREAM TURNED OUT TO BE A DREAM

The internet is a great power everyday people have in their fingertips. You can communicate to others worldwide, change the world. Therefore, with this great power, will you use it for good or bad? I choose to use it for good, by bettering the lives of friends I have never met yet (you). The internet is, for many including me, for baring your he...

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today at school was nice I have done all of my home work so im just bored like really oh well right now im just going to read a book

Resolution #6 con't

For exercise, I have been speedwalking and jogging around my apartment to music. I can even incorporate some dancing to it since th songs vary in speed and rhythm. That's been really fun and I do it every day (Monday through Friday) after work for 30-45 minutes. Next week I'll do an hour!

Resolution #6: Eat healthier and exercise more

This resolution has actually been going well. Rather than totally trying to do a new diet overhaul, I have just been eating smaller portions (no seconds for me!) and I have been drinking more smoothies by using my Nutribullet. I have also cut out white rice and am eating quinoa.

Resolution #5: Procrastinate less

This is something that is DEFINITELY a lifelong resolution because I will be fighting this for a super long time. I always distract myself with tasks and activities that require less effort so I don't have to do work. That's why it took me so long to write my diary entries haha. I just started my second semester of graduate school and I can't co...

Resolution #4: Practice self-control with lust

Yeah I know. What's wrong with lusting and fantasizing about guys? It's natural right? Well yes it is natural and God created us to have those sexual desires but He wants His children to do this in the context of marriage.... I KNOW! How countercultural! But I want to please Him... It's still a struggle but after cutting out different TV shows a...

Resolution #3: Grow closer to God

For the longest time, I have gone up and down in my relationship with God. I swear it's been like I was on a roller coaster. Well I'm very happy to say that this past week has been very productive. I prayed and read my Bible and for the first time in ages I WANTED to spend time with Him. No rituals or legalism. Just spending quality time with my...

Resolution #1:Maintain healthy relationships

Well this is going slower than I thought but it's okay. I have taken the effort to contact a few people I care about. There are a few people I still haven't contacted but I'm still scared of rejection... Haha I'm working on it. One of my insecurities is that if people care about me, they have to reach out to ME first. However, what ends up happe...

Yeah... it's been a while

My year had a kinda rough start. I wasn't doing my resolutions but I realized that I needed to break my lifelong resolutions into smaller increments. I think that's why a lot of us fail at New Year's Resolutions or life improvement in general. We don't take baby steps...

sigh When i think i'm moving on and how i'm feeling better but then out of nowhere you pop in my head and it just hurts. I shouldn't care this much right? it's not normal is it? I don't know. I'm pretty sure its really not. god why am i like this

Sure, it's nice to be important. But it's more important to be nice.

Focus

Always keep your mind sharp. Do not let anyone slow you down because it will make you dumb. Concentrate on what is more important than anything else in the world. Be great at whatever you do and don't loose yourself. Bring yourself together and make a better person today

wtf?!?

Her mood has changed quite drastically from being moody to happy...As she departs to go away for a few days we been quite engaging with some chatter and she even kissed me on the way out! I really don't understand the reality of this!

wow

So am going out tomorrow night and I said don't worry am not going to be up to anything, she turned around and said I can't stop you - seriously?

The talk

When you tried gently on trying to get the other side to open up a little, why are is she being cold and shutting me out emotionally, like a detachment. This whole thing I have no wrong doing, am just having to let life flow but in this instance I don't know where this is taken me.

Patience

This past month has been really hard, for most people most would of lost the plot - I don't understand why I haven't yet. Relationship is probably the most difficult task a human can have, especially when we all have different personality, beliefs and differences.

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.