I worried I had no achieved enough yet this year. I think I give myself too much of a hard time , sometimes. But then it hit me. I have achieved lots in these last few months. Yoga has helped. I feel I am on a constant journey exploring myself. Sometimes I am introverted and sometimes I am extroverted. There are many sides to me, that many do...

The Future

The future is quite a scary thing to talk&think about. We never know how our cards might play out. I'm currently in a happy state but we all know that won't last... "no state, good or bad, lasts forever." I'm scared of what is yet to come. eh, whatever. I'm just enjoying "the now."

Empty beer cans, red lingerie, ash trays and my guitar litters my floor. I know there is no other girl like me for you. Who dreams, who works, who puts themselves out there, who will party until 6am with you and play with your hair until you fall asleep. I ask myself how often does this happen. Should you pass off one opportunity for another i...

Why must we put these barriers upon ourselves? If things were different, would it be different?

April 16, 2014

I just don't understand how someone can leave so quickly, so easily, as if nothing happened. As if nothing had ever mattered. Like promises were never made and walls were never broken down and secrets were never told and forever was never said. To just up and leave so readily, so willingly.

I find a piece of you in every song I listen to.

BEYONCÈ

All songs from Jealous just go iiiiinnnn!

dear diary i miss my dad and my dog my dog ran away and my dad died everyone thinks i attention seek when sometimes you have to cry its just not fair i have found out the boy i like might be kinda depressed but what do i do what do i say to him

my life is so crap i like this guy called harvey but he dusnt like me because im small and quite chubby he is the same age as me though i dont get it :-(

this is an introduction about me my name is Ellie and im 11 years old

Furthest I've gone...

The closest I've ever gotten to a kiss is a 5 minute hug with a guy i had a crush on. it was really sweet and he said "that was nice" and i blushed. Im actually not that close to him which is why we could never really have a relationship. I also realised that he is kind of a dick. Only likes girls who are really hot and he thinks i'm a stoner be...

My generation

You might think it's quite odd being quite concerned about my love life at such a young age. I think I'm mostly influenced to get kissed because so many people my age are already dating and have gone a lot further (Which i'm not planning to) but I feel like theres a lot of pressure to live up to these expectations. I actually hate my generation,...

About me

i'm not going to tell you much about myself because I want to keep this diary mostly anonymous but here are a few facts: My name is Sophie and I'm 14 years old. I've never been kissed before, unlike most people my age.

Hello there my lovelies!

Hello there my lovelies! here's a little introduction to my public diary. My main purpose is to share stories about my love life and to gather together all the girls out there who have never been kissed and to share stories.

Comparisons.

It's so difficult for me to stay away from negative comparisons. Comparisons aren't always harmful to oneself, but it really depends on the person. Many people, when comparing and contrasting themself to a different individual, better themself and only improve. We see this a lot in sports. Yet, I don't seem to do that. When this act of comparing...

(October 3rd 2009) Giving up but looking back

So I gave up on chasing after Matt. Although he has been my crush since the first day iv'e met him. I remember the first day like it was yesterday. Okay that sentence sounded pretty cheesy:/ Oh well. Well it was in the 6th grade and I had to transfer one of my classes due to lack of spaces available for me to be in the class. That screwed up my ...

(September 27th 2009) For Reals???

Today i'm just so MAD! Alyssa just thinks that she can dump Mathew like that and try to be my friend again. She hurt me by doing that to me and I told her that I couldn't be friends with her because of what she had done to me. I also bad for Mathew. He didn't deserve what she had done to him. She had absolutely no reason to be a b***h to him or ...

Thinking

So I thought that after they broke up it would be different. That he would go back to being the guy I used to know and like. HAA I was so wrong. He became a player and in the past three weeks he's switched at least 4 girls. He's hurt me so many times and I cant seem to get over him..I don't know if I still think he will change but at this point ...

Stuck

Have you ever just been stuck? Theres always that one guy that you should probably go for so you know your heart wont be broken at the end but no matter how hard you try you just cant seem to like him? And the guy who's broken your heart so many time you just cant seem to get over? I realized I KNOW that Ill be heartbroken but I end up still goi...

Essay 2, my final dream - detectives retire early

Running Header: PRACTICAL RISK ASSESSMENT TECHNIQUES 1 Practical Risk Assessment Techniques Monica Sandoval Kaplan University EM530-01 Dr. Bryan Taylor April 9, 2014 Practical Risk Assessment Techniques 2 In toda...

Vlogging

Do you guys like that? Cause I enjoy watching and making them but like I don't think there's a youtube channel that started with vlogging or only does vlogging O.o -cries- If diary.com allows videos in the future, I may result to that though. But for now, photo and text updates :)

the harsh truth

Ever get when you just think about one person for days on end, your thinking about what there doing & your future, and maybe your not an item and just friends? Well boys and girls should not be friends, one always ends up falling in love with the other and its going to hurt..

April april april

Time to digress and stay focused yet things get at me that I can explain. best way to put it down when the thoughts start flowing and you get kind of stuck writing/typing is sometimes the best thing, need to calm down and play things right because the way I'm thinking won't let me sleep at night, so this April as soon as you've came please pleas...

eggs

dear diary i hate my mum she keeps telling me off and YEA I ATE SOME FREAKING MINI EGGS IS THAT SUCH A PROBLEM i didnt do anything else

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

Just push through it

Maybe I shouldn't give up. I can do this. I can live, I can be happy. I don't need to let other people influence my life. I'm going to be happy. I can do it. I just need to push threw through these next couple of months then when I see my grammy I can tell her everything that I'm feeling and hopefully she'll let me live with her.

I think i might cut again

Dear diary, since i have found out that my stepdad and my mom might date again i think i might cut again its just I cant believe she chose him over my trust!! idk if ii can ever trust her or him EVER again. i feel like since she obviously dosent care and shes the person that gave birth 2 me that maybe my life isnt worth living. At least for now ...