A plan

So there's a plan now. We've finally decided on a date and her parents should be available that date. Meaning I can come over! But then again, I'm worried about 'her'. She doesn't seem extremely excited, doesn't show any interest in talking cute or romantic, or even talking. Perhaps she regrets the past. I'm unsure of my feelings as well. I just...

Ik ben een meisje die net dr beste vriendin is verloren omdat we om de 3 dagen ruzie hebben. Ik heb zoveel vriendschappen gehad en deze steeg er echt uit, daarom doet deze ruzie zo veel pijn. Gelukkig is het ook de laatste want ze heeft de laatste woorden gezegt:' ik wil je nooit meer spreken!' ik hoef haar nooit meer te spreken dus komt goed ui...

Good to be back

It's already january, I havent been on this site for ages. Im okay, a lot happened this half year. I got some new friends but I also lost a couple. My best friend isn't my best friend anymore. We don't speak each other often anymore, but we're still friends. She isn't a very good friend to me, but sometimes its like the good old times. Last year...

Today was sad. I hope tommorow gets better.

an update

It's been a while since I've written something. Partially because I'm really lazy and partially because this website's layout suck. The last month has been odd. We've started talking less and less to the point where were talked shortly like once a week. Yesterday we were able to talk again. Valentines day and all. After one and a half month of ...

Why is keeping a diary so hard?!

This is so hard. I know I should keep a diary for like every day, but my days aren't that exciting or fascinating. So maybe I'll write just the days when I have to many thoughts. Yesterday I went into the city to help my granny in her store. She told me that my aunt who traveled to India for a permanent stay at the end of June last year sent a p...

School Starts Again

As the title implies, school has started again. Time to study for tests and try to get along with classmates and friends. I've been more at ease and started playing video games again as well as a few other things I enjoy doing. Sadly I do feel like my connection with 'her' is getting less and less. It always feels like she doesn't really care or...

Me

I am feeling emty and i do not know how to change that. I m really unhappy, i feel like i am surving not living, it feels like im drowning and everyone is watching but no one helps me. It feels like i cant trust anyone and no one loves me.

A begin

Hi, my name is Merel and i'm from Holland. Im not going to tell my story here and now. This thing is quite new to me and i do not know what to write actually. I just need a way to express my feelings and i think that maybe, just maybe, this is a good way. I hope no one will judge me for whatever i write. Imma try to write from the deepest part o...

Better

I decided to take a leap of faith. I told 'her' about me cutting myself, and ofc she was shocked. But she didn't react the way I expected her to, which is a good thing. I haven't cut since talking to her and it's been going better. Found a new game to play, settled some problems and telling 'her' might have brought us a bit closer as well. Now...

Cutting

Who here is cutting or was cutting him/her self?

Me

So something about me. I'm 17, Male. I have lived quite the odd life and it would be too much write everything down. So I'll go over a few fundamental things about my life. I have been bullied for my entire childhood, only after I changed schools 3x did the bullying stop. The school that I attend now is nice compared to the previous ones and I ...

Hello

This is my first note that I put here. Some people enjoy reading stuff about other people's live, and I want to talk about it because there's no one else I can or want to tell it to.

First milky note.

Grew up wiv a diary. Kinda needed a diary as i couldn't express my feelings by emotions, just by words on paper. Reading back all the diaries makes me laugh. The change it gives just for you to be a couple years older & wiser. Now wiv my age, 24 years, you have the period to find yourself, friends & others. This is the time i have to be a gro...

Dear Diary,

It's been a while since I've posted anything. I've been busy with getting my life back on track. It wasn't easy but I got pretty far. I moved back into my parents place, temporarily. For now I'm searching for my own place, and a better job. It drives me crazy though. It's very thoughtful of my parents to take me in but it isn't ideal. I left thi...

24 september

Er hangt een soort spanning in de lucht bij Kinderopvang Meander. Er zijn vandaag sollicitaties voor de functie van locatiemanager. Op kantoor bij Zuidenveld komen telkens mensen binnen voor hun gesprek. Ik vind het ook wel erg interessant om te zien, want het lijken me allemaal geschikte kandidaten (ookal ken ik ze nog niet zo goed). Dit proces...

23 september

Het gesprek met Gea, Dineke en Dymphna was de highlight van vandaag. Die ging over mijn praktijkleerplan/tekenen van het definitieve stagecontract. Dymphna (stagebegeleidster NHL) had mij al gebeld de dag er voor om alvast te vertellen hoe het zou gaan. Hieruit bleek al wel dat er weinig mis was met mijn praktijkleerplan. Dit gaf een fijn gevoel...

How to live life

Hey guys, sometimes i wonder how you should live life, do you ever just want to crawl away in a corner and cry ? I think everybody had that feeling. I just got in a fight with my mom over food, I'm trying to get my mind straight and see who's fault it was but I can't remember it anymore, I just can't remember what happened, all I know is that ev...

Reading List

1. I Am Pilgrim by Terry Hayes

Well, hello there :)

At the first page of my diary I think it's a good plan to introduce myself. My name is Mariska, and i'm 18 years old. At the first of September i'm going to start college. I'm going to study social pedagogical assistance and this diary is to share my experiences as a fresh student in Amsterdam. Also I hope it will improve my English, because tha...

initium novum

Dear diary, the title that you see above, represents me.. I´m at a new begin of my life. I was depressed. I did all kinds of horrible things to myself. But then one day i decided to make a change. So i did. I made new hobby´s. like blogging, singing& dancing. a few (im)possible goals for myself. And i´m planning to make them all come true....

Hi

I'm not going to post here a lot ;)

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.