I Never Forgot

Its been a while now, but i haven't forgot. I think about it from time to time. He acts like i won't remember what he did. I'm not gonna say it didn't hurt a little bit when I found out. Because it did. But overall it didn't affect me much. I could forgive him and answer back to those sweet messages hidden deep in my phone. But I won't because...

Have you ever literally felt your heart break? It's like a bee's nest was just put in your chest and they're swarming around stinging every part of your upper body. It's like the way your stomach drops on the way down the roller coaster but it doesn't end after five seconds. It's a terrible pain and it leaves ugly scars. You were just another p...

4-23-14

Alright, I'm new to this so bare with me, heh. First things first, I go by Becky. I'm not gonna sit here and say I have the worst life ever because that's not true at all. I'm actually really blessed for many reasons. Life in the past 18 years of my existence has taught me so much and I continue to learn and grow as I get older. You know what f...

Wasting Time.

Every year of school prepares us for the next. All of the years spent in elementary school lead us into middle school and then onto high school.. college.. and finally we've ended the preparation process to begin our careers. We spend roughly seventeen years in school (if you continue on to do complete four years of college). It's all for what w...

mrs.chelse

She's tyler's grandma.I like her.She gives me candy and dog treats for kaly.I bring Kaly to her house.She plays with her dog.His name is Jonny.He's a husky.They run and play in her yard.Jonny is gray and white.I like him and mrs.Chelse

why do I put myself through the pain.

why do I put myself through the pain of looking at photo's of my cousin. Who's dead. But what makes it worse is that he wanted to die before he killed himself i was not seeing what was happening in the world around me. Then when he shot himself i started to feels sad and angry then when that past suicidal and mix that in with the pain he caused ...

It's hard to beat someone who never gives up. -Babe Ruth

Motivation for the lonely heart. I believe in you. I, a girl named squirrel, believe in you. I, a girl who has seen and understood so much in 14 years, believe in you. I, a stranger, believe in you.

I spend my days wondering -what my half sister is like -who my great grandpa is -what healthy is like -why my name is Squirrel -who I am -who I am meant to be -why they still like me.

If ever there is a time to believe, it is now.

One second is the difference between winning and losing. One cent is the difference between 99 cents and a dollar. One gene can change who you are. One inch is the difference from being done and still going. One minute is the difference between life and death. One person is you. Believe in the power of one.

Daily "wins"

Lunch = salad from whole foods, light dressing and tuna. Water to drink.

school

Monday the 21 of April 2014

A sunny day, the day I was finally going to go home. Yesterday my grandfather called me we told me that the family and him are going to come to seven mile beach. I was so excited when I heard that but after my aunt heard it she said " why do you have to go, your sisters are sick. Come back to fairfield cause we are having a bbq." I don't like ...

4-23-2014

small steps. Each small step takes me closer to my goal. Both in weight loss and in love. We shall see what the next few months will hold.

Worried Confused & Upset

So I'm a little upset because I went to my Patient Portal to review my results and it said no results. So I was a little disappointed that they weren't there because it had been over a week. So I just started looking through the tabs, and I came across the Tasks/Tools tab and clicked it out of curiosity. I came across an Ambulatory Summary of my...

Not sure what write. I tend to whin a lot and a lot not times I forget, so I find myself venting in my diary. I work in a restaurant so I meet a lot of diff ppl plus work with some stupid ppl. There parents should have killed them at birth.

So he's bae?

Okay, so ex-bae and I were on the phone the other night, and we were having a heart-to-heart moment. We've had these a million times, but none of them were serious, just bullshit.

Is Life Really Unfair? 4.22.14

Dear R- Is life really unfair? Well i dont know what do you think? Ive probably said the word unfair so many times that it comes out naturally. Were we chosen to be tortured, is it just me? Is it just you? Well that i can say, no. There are people in the world that are going through something similar to you. Once again you are never alone. Life ...

Tyler

Theres's a boy named Tyler.I meet him at st.judes.He's my freind.We play with are stuffed animals and it's fun.We play with the dinosours.They have them in the waiting rooms.We like to draw and make pictures together.We made a sail bout.With a little seaggle.he was flying.Are moms are freinds too.His moms name is Rebbaca .

my family

My mom's name is jenna.My dad's name is lucis.I have a baby brother named Kiloh.He's lazy.He sleeps all day and crys alot. And there's my wonderfull dog Kaly.My name is Hallie.

my name is hallie

i have rhabdomyosarcoma .It's a solid tumer of muscle cells.I'm 6 years old.I have a dog.She's 3.Her name is kaly.She's a yorkie.I love her so much.I can't run with her.It make's me feel bad.She does so much for me and we hired a dog walker.Kaly sleeps by my feet and wakes me up every day.She makes me laugh and loves to play.Kaly is hiper and j...

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

Just push through it

Maybe I shouldn't give up. I can do this. I can live, I can be happy. I don't need to let other people influence my life. I'm going to be happy. I can do it. I just need to push threw through these next couple of months then when I see my grammy I can tell her everything that I'm feeling and hopefully she'll let me live with her.