i had a lover black and white, black his body white his mind...beautiful and perfect as he was, leaving scars unbreakables in my heart. he was like the longer night full of mistery and realise, he was want i wanted and he left with not just a piece but all my heart, and forget him? hell no....i cant.

You are amazing. No matter what anyone else tries to make you think, you are amazing. You're a miraculous person and you can do anything you set your heart on. There are going to be disappointments in life, but you gotta keep your head up, because you're better than those disappointments. You're stronger than anything life throws at you. And tha...

Allie says, "You should date Jason. You two would be cute." Jason like the shyest kid in our grade. He doesn't talk and doesn't show much emotion. The most I talked to him was when I was opening a bag of skittles in 7th grade and they exploded in a mushroom cloud of skittles and he's like, " IT WAS LIKE A WALL OF SKITTLES COMING OVER ME." And Jo...

Everyone is like omfg your hair looks great. And I'm like I didn't change anything, bruh.

Is it odd that we're suddenly the old chums we were back in sixth grade? I think it is.

COLORS BOTHER ME BECAUSE THERES NO WAY TO DESCRIBE THEM AND I THINK LIFE WOULD BE FINE WITHOUT THEM. BUT THEN I REMEMBER I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO SEE THE GLOW IN YOUR EYES OR THE SPARKLE IN YOUR SMILE AND THEN I REMEMBER I CANT DESCRIBE MY FEELINGS FOR YOU, EITHER. BUT THAT DOESNT BOTHER ME AS MUCH. SO MAYBE, JUST MAYBE, WE DO NEED COLORS, AFTER ALL...

Feeling relieved

Finished my English SAC and methods SAC. Having a really bad feeling that I failed methods. And mum has to ruin my mood telling me not to argue when I point out I'm doing harder subjects than my older brothers did. Pmo!

pulling doubles this week. cramps. need coffee q:[ looks like no sleep for me qxP I got this!

In An Instant

Everything has changed so quickly. Feelings and situations shouldn't be able to do a 180 at the drop of a hat. 48 hours ago I was on cloud nine and life was great. But now I feel an ache in my chest and I cant stop crying. The high wasn't worth all this pain.

relational physics

PHYSICS:For two separate bodies to remain attached, either both needs to apply some force or one needs to apply enough force while other rests...if this one body is putting more than enough force for the required attachment, it starts pushing the other body away... Replace the word 'bodies' by 'persons' and the theory will fit well in a gene...

relation of PAIN & PLEASURE

How confusing it becomes sometimes.... wish to get some unachievable pleasure will only give you pain...there lies nothing more pleasant than that and no pain is bigger than pain of not getting it...interesting thing is, its only some real pain which can distract you and relieve you from pain of not achieving that pleasure

Chapter 15

I like trees and grass. They are so wide and tall and open that it seems like the world isn't so small and that there is so much left. I also really like beaches because they are sandy and salty and fun.

Chapter 14

I am afraid of a lot of things. My biggest fear is how I will die, but since I can't change that I am more afraid of heights. I get very scared on roller coasters and on high buildings. My stomach gets butterflies and I get very scared. I think fears are important to make who we are.

Chapter 13

I think that society does have a responsibility to children. Today's youth is tomorrow's adults. So I believe that people have a responsibility to keep children safe. I think people should have had more regard for the Vargas children and should have cared for them more. This I think would have made a change in the children's lives.

"If you love deeply, you're going to get hurt badly. But it's worth it." - C.S Lewis

I am beautiful no matter what they say. Words can't bring me down

Surrounded

I don't have any mortal enemies. I don't do things for attention and I'm not annoying. I don't mither people but I make the effort. I'm not a push over but I'm not a bitch. People seem to like me. Most people, anyway. I get smiled at by people my age. I get plenty of likes and appreciation via social media. My friends seem to appreciate my pres...

Le Sigh

So... I've been in a strange mood... Not really depressed. Probably more scared but it's coming off grouchy and angry and snappy. I know why.... I am terrified of being in a relationship that may last. It really does scare me. Soon (like in two days) I will be coming up on my 8 month anniversy and... well.. that's big... because I've never made...

DICISIONS, DICISIONS

Well, I have decided to do a day-by-day of events that happened in my life. I think is is a good way to help myself get rid of all my scars and heal. So even if it takes me months telling you my life story, I will. No one deserves to sit with built up anger and pain. It only brings hate into you heart and speaking of experience, hating the world...

Don't feel or think limited when you know you have full potential. random thoughts @ work aha.

"If your eyes could speak, what would they say?"

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Her name was Princess

Her name was Princess. I met her through my other friend. We became close by talking on the phone, frequently. At that time, I wasn't sure if either I like her or I just like talking with her. My friend and I sometimes visited her from San Francisco to Newark. There was a time that I tried to get hooked up with her friend, but she ended up with ...

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

ahhhh

the hardest thing to learn is how to be happy by yourself. i need people. i crave people. i hate people. and i rely on them for my happiness and i always always wind up getting crushed. i don't know how to find my own happiness.

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.