True Neutral.

I consider myself True Neutral Leaning on Chaotic Neutral. I often speak of my indifference and apathy. It's in my name, Gray. But there is The other side of me which acts on impulse and values chaos. I love chaos, from my point of view chaos a necessary thing that goes unwanted. I often speak of these things. If everyone were happy, happy woul...

silent night...

I would type some more...but I'm too lazy. Good night.

boys suck no offense guys

So I had this boyfriend for a month and he finnally texts me one and says 'i want to break up.' I say 'it is fine I understand because we haven't talked or seen each other in a while.' He then say 'that didn't go as planed' My first thought was he wanted me to beg. Well news flash d**k I'm a teenage girl not a f**king dog so back the hell off an...

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None of wat I post is true and if it is I will have a date in the title

7/31/2014 REGAT

I don't get how life can be fair when my life suck and my evil sister living my life and she took everything from me. Oh why she still gets to be happy. Like they say what goes around comes around. But nothing yet it been 15 years since she back stab me and nothing life's unfair to me. Boo hoo I hope I can be happy for once...

I sit and don't think.

I stare blankly at nothing. I forget how to speak, how to think, how to act. I sit there and there I am truly myself. Nothing but me. Just a blank, thoughtless, gray.

My stepmother.

Rant about to begin. I'm trying to collect my thoughts into an organized and somehow sequential manner, but most likely be a form of word vomit. I hate how much PDA she shows. She literally clings onto my dad all the damn time and kissed him obnoxiously at random moments like legit more than 15 times everyday. We'll just be walking around and sh...

<3 :) maybe <3

Wednesday July 30th;

I can say with all honesty, at this moment in time I'm happy. I'm legitimately happy. It was weird falling out of love.. I felt sad and relieved but ultimately I came to terms with it accepted it and moved on. So! The point of this is to express my excitement for what's happening and hopefully I'm not jinxing anything, but...IDK! He's different....

Why do girls fall for the bad guys?

is it because they are famous? cool to hang out with? an accessory to show everyone that you dominated him or you caught his heart? Why am I like this?

I don't want to be so rude to him, but I want to be rude in a good way. You see, this guy keeps on leaving me a message and contacting my old friend to get my number. I didn't want to talk to him, I ignored all his messages and told my friend not to give him my number. He is just so annoying! He never learns, he's not my type and I don't like hi...

All I want to hear from you is that you love me too .. you say it all the time but I want to believe what you say I want to feel like you really MEAN it ..

I'm tired of pretending.

What I look for

I want a guy who will: -Take me to the park when it's a beautiful day -Compliment me only when I look good -Tell me his likes and dislikes -Surprise me -Do anything for me no matter how cheesy it may be -Take me on drives when I need to clear my mind -Lay under the stars with me on a clear night -Show me off to his friends and family -Stay up...

How Do I Do This?

I never realized how hard it was to sit down and write about the joys and confusions of love when I am with you. How do I put into words the true happiness that you have given me all the while I explain the hurt ive had to bare too.

Looking Forward to a Blank Wall (2)

We just know there is no use of trying to achieve something when its already been determined impossible.

Looking Forward to A Blank Wall

Growing older to most means looking forward to an extended curfew and the ability to do things you werent able to do before. In my family we don't look forward to the "cool things" about growing up simply because we know that's not what we're going to get. Instead my siblings and I look forward to another year closer of being able to move out an...

My heart is heavy.

Disappointment: My day was supposed to be so much more than average. This let down has been bittersweet. I feel sadness in my bones and anger between my teeth as I bite my tongue. I regret even letting you in again, this was a mistake. Anger: The person inspiring this note should not even be entering my thoughts. I am appalled as to the lack of ...

Motor Mouth

Siblings! Have any? Then you will know how annoying they can be but even when they do, you make up. Sometimes. I went to a spa day today got nice and relaxed and little did she talk to me, instead her phone seemed a better go-to for conversation than an actual person! After this we got in the car and she wouldnt STOP TALKING, all day silence and...

I woke up at 10 am. I had to eat spring roll. Also some hot Cheetos with some water. What I did today was looking at buzzfeed,Instagram, and I had to do the laundry. On tv there was monk. I took a little nap at 4 pm. Yesterday I dreamt about living in a mansion with 5 room it was so big I didn't even find people to hand out with. I saw a new fam...

I'm Sorry

Religion. That's a scary subject. Personally, I don't believe in "religions". I believe in Christianity, which is more of a lifestyle. I wanna apologize to anyone reading this who has been hurt by someone of my faith. It was wrong what they did to you, if you felt unloved, unwanted, or judged. Please don't let them make you think that's what rea...

7/30/2014 6:11am

I'm tired but my cat won't let me sleep . Right now I am also crying from lack of sleep and stress. Such a odd thing isn't it? Everything is the same everyday. Nothing different... It's not that I wish for something bad to happen, it's that I'm just so tired.. I have no friends so my day is always the same. I'm broke so I can't go anywhere, and...

PJV

I feel so unwanted by the one person I want to make happy the most. He's shutting me out. He's pushing me away and I cant do anything. He says its because of money, but that's a lie. Its because of "Her". I know it is. I know thats why he's hurting. Why he's shutting himself off from the world. Damn, I love him but he's hurting me. Once again I'...

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.