Soo...

I went to the hardware store and they actually gave me the wrong type of ladder.

I feel like I don't know you anymore. The worst part is, thats probably because I don't. -G

Mood

Finally in the mood to update :D oh no my cable's in my room...never mind~

Forever Darling

I wrote this back in HS Sophomore year 2001. Forever Darling When we first met eye to eye, I knew our love could never die. I could see in your heart that you are so made of art. Never the less, I won't regain, you've got me trapped like a lion's prey. I'll never let go not even till death do us part, for one reason only, you've captured my h...

Today, I am watching Ted Talk, going on facebook, listening to Lana Del Rey and on AWS. I'm really bored right now. I hate to do anything that cause problem. Im not a troublemaker like that. I want to be innocent forever.

Killing me softly

The most beautiful lie that I have ever heard of was he still loves me. The lie that I know would shatter my heart slowly until it will never recover again and would never gain respect again.

Does a guy ever get heartbroken like a girl does? Do they feel twice or thrice the pain when they loose a girl? do they remember all those memories they had together back when everything where just rainbows and butterflies?

All for nothing..

He couldn't even meet me. He says that he still wants me, i don't know what he really wants. After giving everything to him I thought it was worth a shot. I made a huge mistake at sacrificing everything to him. I lost everything, I had no friends, no social life, nothing.. I was just like a dog waiting for him to come and play with me. I was tre...

Last Night & This Morning

Here I am once again to talk about my encounters with my ex. After he feel asleep texting me last night we both woke up around 3 something this this am and texted for an hour. This morning after falling asleep on each other again we started back texting. We said we missed each other and then he asked did I want to go to the movies with him. Of c...

Is it ok to despise a person. I can't stand him. Just wish he could leave me alone. I am everything he doesn't like so why doesn't he leave me alone instead of trying to change me. I hate him and I change for no one except me.

My fears

I have a fear of being hurt by Him. I have a fear of spending my life alone without a family, a companion, a child.

Sublife A Bit About Me

Few would ever guess what I am, how I live or the shit I am capable of. I am not afraid of much...except myself. I imagine Carl Jung was afraid, truly terrified at the infinite and unpredictable depths...bottomless depths of the human mind. The exploration of ones own mind is dangerous and messy work.

Dipped Back In The Cookie Jar

Soooo with being solo sexually frustrated since my ex and I broke up, I ended up hooking back up with him tonight! As much as I hated to do it, it felt soooo right! He knows exactly how to please me, and knows exactly what like, and his kisses just make me feel at home! He drives me crazy! As much as I wish I never did it now cause he's all I ca...

It's extremely hard to let go. I specialize in resisting any kind of change. But resisting change is a juvenile and unsophisticated act. Whether the change is positive or negative, I must make it because it is the only way to grow. I don't want to leave him, but I must. I know he may end up happier—there's a good chance he will—and I will be lef...

Abandoned

When you feel like you'd rather spend a Friday night alone than with your friends, that's when you know you feel betrayed. When you want to just be alone because you know nobody can hurt you, that's when you know something is wrong with your relationship. I'm a happy person, but not everybody out in the world is happy. I need to surround myself ...

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.