Can I Just Be Happy? ..

I just really want to be happy .. I want a guy who gives me GOOD amazing conversation and doesn't bring up sex. I don't want to plan to have sex , I just want the sex to just fucking happen. Just a nice simple getting to know someone , and going on a couple dates would be nice. NO SEX, NO TITTLES, NO NOTHING! Just casual dating. Like is that too...

I can't stand living in this house. I hate it here. It is disgusting. People don't clean around here. There is dust everywhere you look, and Tyler wonders why his allergies are so bad? I mean seriously of his mom wasn't such a lazy person, this place might be ok. Tyler is gross too. He doesn't smell good, he has excema and I know it's not his fa...

Damnit, Diary.com!

I'm excessively annoyed that none of my mobile entries synced to my account from my phone. This website has given me so many problems since day 1 which is why I haven't used it in so long. But in coming back I see there is not much changed. Still, I love the idea of Diary.com so I suppose I'll suffer through this. I had dream entries that we...

What lies beneath afterlife?

I don't know what to do anymore. This world is just so twisted and unfair, it makes me feel so small. I tried everything but it just doesn't makes sense that I don't get what I worked hard for it.

Me against the world

I tried battling you and winning both of you. But now I don't see how I am benefiting in all my efforts. I don't get what I want, why is the world so cruel to me?

No use.

There is no use at exerting effort in all this. I have put a lot of work in what I love but it seems that what I am trying to take care for years have just been colliding all at once.

New chapters

For the longest time, I wondered what it would be like to truly love someone. I wanted to feel the adoration and respect my partner had for me. For a lengths of days... Months, I let my mind race with thoughts about myself and my relationship. I was unsure of the person I was constantly reassuring myself. Should I have had to reassure myself? If...

still no progress..

I'm sitting my ass off here doing nothing but stare at the computer all night long. I haven't study yet!

It's Official;

I've given up. I'm broken. I'm done. It's time to disappear for a while.

Individualism vs. Collectivism

A competitive nature is exceptionally crucial to success. Whether it is attaining the greatest resume for college and jobs, winning the huge sports game, or being the most popular at school, competitiveness helps to rise us to the top. However, there is a plot twist that NEEDS to be remembered. Competitiveness surrenders ourselves to our environ...

Staying indoor for now, I'm trying to not get hurt. I want to go to Nebraska and meet Lili T Mac. She is the same race as me. Also she speak the same language as me. I want to meet her already. I'm her nice caring fan out here.

Staying indoor for now, I'm trying to not get hurt. I want to go to Nebraska and meet Lili T Mac. She is the same race as me. Also she speak the same language as me. I want to meet her already. I'm her nice caring fan out here.

Week 9, Term 2

i attended Outdoor education camp, then holidays although I was not able to do any work as I went away to Melbourne for modelling.

Week 8, Term 2

Term 2, week 8 In the first lesson of this week a student present his assessment 1. My group then and I decided to change our assignment two topic. We were doing 40 hour famine but decided it’s too far away in term 3 that we will need to be focuses on our next assignment by then. It was also a time consuming project as we had difficulties with t...

CRAVING!

I want waffles with bananas and peanut butter tonight! Too bad I don't have waffles :-/

cozy weather..

Today is the day that I should be in bed snuggling with my pillows and wearing saggy pajamas. But what bothers me today is that I have a test to study for tomorrow. DAMN!

I really want to see the ocean. Sleep til I see the ocean, Whatever what so good about the ocean? Then I want to go to Thailand, or Hawaii.

All The Small Things

So far so good. I mean lately I've been pretty content with how things are going in my life. I completely re-organized my room (it doesn't even look like mine anymore!), I was able to enjoy a simple conversation with a guy who for many reasons usually frustrates me to no end, I've been digging my heels into the things that I love and really impr...

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.