I'm forced to deal with what i feel.

its not society its us.

Meet Simon

Pretty close friend of mine. Recently was expelled from our school. He was having a bad day and an annoying prick egged him on. He managed to break tables, chairs and windows as well as punching a year 12 student. For this he got a suspension. Our school's nice that way. He showed up to a year 11 vs 12 soccer event our school has annually. He wa...

yes i may be a sarcastic asshole but that's because i don't want to show you the real me .if did you would be scared and im just not good showing my feelings especially not to you.

Replaceable

After having a new best friend every year and losing the closeness i had with all my former friends i've come to the conclusion that i am replaceable. that it is easy to replace me. so i have refrained from getting close to anyone lately. I feel like i try harder than others and all the effort taking out of me gets thrown back at me. so why both...

and maybe ill just keep being that girl

Disappointment 4.24.14

Dear R- Disappointment, disappointed, to disappoint. One's biggest fear, besides reptiles and insects of course. Disappointing others can be one of the scariest things, in your life. You want everything to be perfect, for those certain people, so they accept you and are proud of you. Disappointing your parents, in your grades, school, action, sp...

I wish I could care less...

I can never think straight. I worry about every little thing in life.

lacking love.

I was never any bodys first choice im always the second or third but still. I want a person to be there for me 24/7. well not that much. but still at least think of me. my heart hurts so much on how lonely iv been lately. I can be a good boyfriend. for any one. it breaks my heart that no one ever gives me chances. is it cause im not attractive e...

"guy" friends

earlier today I came home from dropping my brother off with his guy friends. I had one guy friend in my life and we use to do absolutely nothing. is it because I wasn't athletic enough that I didn't make guy friends. the only two guys I know in my life that could be considered my guy friends are my twin cousins. what makes that suck now is that ...

Gracefield is home to French Bulldogs of distinction. We have been in frenchies since 1978 and have held to the motto of "Quality over Quantity."

I Ran into a Bar in Bodybuilding Class

I might have a concussion. I've been getting hit in the head/face like this whole week, I'm such a klutz.

Social Security

~ My grandfather paid the balance in order for me to receive social security ~ They requested that he pay so many dollars and he cashed in one of his bonds and paid ~ My "family" use to beat me and then make me sleep with a conclusion ~ I cannot sleep now and this is only getting worse ~ I am having dreams that I do not think I should be having ...

You know what? It sucks. It really fucking sucks getting hurt like this. But you know what else? I've survived it before. There will be many sleepless nights, many lost tears, but I'll walk out alive. I'll have more scars like I said but I know I WILL be okay. I have to stop giving people the power to bring me down so easily.

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Day 2 (successfully posting)

First, I will recap last night. I ate a homemade burrito with black beans, easy ground beef, and light sour cream. I did indulge in 8-9 tortilla chips, but overall was pleased w my eats. I did not get much done in the "home" arena- only cleaning the kitchen and dining room. I got my quiz finished for class, but failed to complete my forum po...

Sometime's we d0n't realize h0w much s0me0ne mean's to us until we lose them c0mpletely.

This is quite strange to think, As this joyous night turns to be empty. This night seems to have been altered, Of massive clusters in the night sky. I knew that you're the missing piece, On this perfect moment of my life. I want to have you back again, But it was already too late, As I was caught in the middle of nothing. And when I gained back ...

Yet!

No updates recently, sorry, it's been pretty draining with school but it's ANZAC day tomorrow so public holiday. Definitely updating tomorrow.

Dear Heavenly Father, Please protect my mind, Guard my thoughts, And hold my soul. In the name of Jesus, Amen. -G

chirp chirp

I hear birds chirping at the most random times these days. Im like, wtf birds? Why are you hanging outside my bedroom window, at my bedtime? Or maybe theyre always there? And i only hear them when my mind settles down. My minds been settling down a lot lately. Tho everyone has been treating me like a super thin delicate piece of glass. As if im ...

Graffiti

I see the sun rise over this wall, I watch it break and slide, See my name See my name on the wall I tried to walk on this wall It fell right under my feet, Now I only lean Only lean on the wall I throw an egg at this wall I watch it break and slide, See my name See my name on the wall

I Never Forgot

Its been a while now, but i haven't forgot. I think about it from time to time. He acts like i won't remember what he did. I'm not gonna say it didn't hurt a little bit when I found out. Because it did. But overall it didn't affect me much. I could forgive him and answer back to those sweet messages hidden deep in my phone. But I won't because...

Have you ever literally felt your heart break? It's like a bee's nest was just put in your chest and they're swarming around stinging every part of your upper body. It's like the way your stomach drops on the way down the roller coaster but it doesn't end after five seconds. It's a terrible pain and it leaves ugly scars. You were just another p...

4-23-14

Alright, I'm new to this so bare with me, heh. First things first, I go by Becky. I'm not gonna sit here and say I have the worst life ever because that's not true at all. I'm actually really blessed for many reasons. Life in the past 18 years of my existence has taught me so much and I continue to learn and grow as I get older. You know what f...

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

Just push through it

Maybe I shouldn't give up. I can do this. I can live, I can be happy. I don't need to let other people influence my life. I'm going to be happy. I can do it. I just need to push threw through these next couple of months then when I see my grammy I can tell her everything that I'm feeling and hopefully she'll let me live with her.