I joined Diary.com! Got a long bank holiday shift at work. Havent done anything this week apart from order and wait for my camera to come. Going to go to Brock bottom today and test my boots out and have a play around with my camera. Might get pics developed that Raz bought round yesterday from sixth form days DONE

looking back at my life, there is so much shame. i dont think i can be a person. i know people can see the coldness in my plain brown eyes. i wish i had a beautiful life. but theres nothing to attest to that. my life will never matter to humans, my life is a joke. theres probably a million other people like me who spent most of their life feelin...

searching for meaning in a meaningless existence. anyways i never really stood a chance. there is so much nothingness about me. the only thing that makes sense now is to embrace humiliation. experience the "divine irresponsibility" of the condemned (Sartre). growing up, i never thought this would be me... the more i try to please myself, the mor...

"IS SILENCE ALWAYS EASY?"

"IS SILENCE ALWAYS EASY?" (Dark Thoughts of The Bullied) It's more than a vacant space or lack of expression on one's face It doesn't contain nothing, 'though it's not always solid beings Is silence easy? Really? Dark thoughts are stuck in the brain driving you insane It's equal to a silent scream, struggling to fix reality with a broken drea...

"THE FIRST DATE MENU AND THE (MIS)ASSUMPTION(S)"

At first, you may think this is another typical first date story. A guy takes a girl out on a date. They have a pleasant talk until it is time to order something to eat. The guy orders the main course. You know, carbs, protein (alias meat), and veggies. He even plans to have an ice cream for dessert. When the girl only orders chicken salad and w...

The life of a French Fry

Day 6- About 10 minuets of sliding left and right, I finally reached the end. And on the sad side the only thing that was at the end was somesort of waiting room. The waiting room actually got very packed with other items along with me. And it seemed that Once it wa full all of us items feel into this white pull that had some sort of clear liqui...

The life of a French Fry

Day 5- I was swing left and right at what felt like full speed. And I could only see my tiny little vitamin friend getting pick off left and right.It was then that I realized the cold hearted person that was eating my vitamin friends was called the VILLI aka the villian. After about 2 minuets of watching my vitamin friends die, all that was left...

The life of a French Fry

Day 4- While I was getting pushed through a very tiny hole, I started to swing up and down just like a waterside.But after being picked off of for about 5 minuets, I started to turn into sugar due to Enzymes. And then all of my fat just started to look like a skinny piece of fried potato. Right after this, was when I started to feel sick.

Learning to Let Go

This week has been tough for me. I've been at my job for almost 7 years and one of the things that I set out to do was move up. While I have, it has only been in the recent years that I have done this. There is still a big part of me that wants other things in my life and it has nothing to do with my current position. However, I have a boss that...

10.1.17 - פגישה טלפונית

לאחר תהליך למידה עצמית ארוך ולא פשוט שבו למדתי כיצד לעבוד עם MATLAB וקראתי מאמרים על עיבודי תמונה ניסיתי לשחזר את האלגוריתם בכתבה שוחחתי עם כדי לקבל הכוון להמשך הפרויקט ולקבל עצה מהי הדרך הטובה ביותר לעשות זאת. החלטתי שהשלב הראשון שאעשה בחלק המעשי של הפרויקט הוא את ה Image-based-attack שבו אנסה לזהות זיוף בין שני פריימים עוקבים, ולאחר שאסיים א...

פגישה מספר 1 - 29.8.16 מודיעין

הפגישה התקיימה בקניון מודיעין לפני תחילת השנה הרביעית, החלטתי להקדים לפני תחילת השנה כדי ליצר יתרון של זמן. גיא הסביר לי על הפרוייקט הגדול ומה חלקי בפרוייקט, כמו כן גיא נתן לי מאמר לקרוא וביקש שנקבע שוב בעוד כשבועיים.

4.12.16 פגישה מספר 3 - מודיעין

במפגש הצגתי בפני גיא את המאמר שתרגמתי , גיא נתן לי לעבור על חומר של שני ספרים מהטכניון העוסקים בעיבודי תמונה. במקביל אתחיל להכיר וללמוד את סביבת הפיתוח MATLAB , בהמשך אנסה לשחזר את האלגוריתם שהוצע בכתבה.

22.11.16 - פגישה מספר 2 -פגישה טלפונית

בשיחה גיא ביקש ממני לחזור על המאמר (נקרא לפני כחודשיים) ולחכות את השלבים של המאמר על סלפי וידאו שאצלם בעצמי. את הפעולה אעשה באמצעות התוכנה MatLab. גיא ביקש שאצור עימו קשר בשבוע הבא.

The life of a French Fry

Day 3- After falling for what seemed like ages I finally landed in some sort of pool.Then all of a sudden this pool started to move me up and down until I was mush. I was being broke down even more than I was before from the face hole.After I was mush, I was pushed down into this hole.

The life of a French Fry

Day 2- Once I was placed on the table, then the human picked me up and placed me in his put me in his face hole. During my time in this slimy wet hole, I was crushed into many small pieces than I soon turned into this liquid substance. I look like my grand parents {mashed potatoes}. But I researched up why i turned into my parents and it was bec...

The life of a French Fry

Day 1- Everything was normal, I was just sitting on Walmart's shelf with all of my brothers and sisters.Then BAM!! I was picked up and placed right into a a shopping cart. After that Everything went blank. Once I woke, I was In this strange hot boily substance. About 10 minuets after I was placed on a plate and headed toward a person.

Sparks- See Me

"You don't care what other people think about you?" "To a certain extent I do. Everyone does. But if you're going to make a judgment about me, then you need to know who I really am, not just the part I decide to tell you."

YOU WHO KNOWS THAT LIFE IS TOO SHORT TOO HATE

just say word of du'a/affirmation everytime you encounter people that you hate or angered at and people that you feel uncomfortable with.

I am definitely sure that i'm going to be in a really huge predicament by the time i started my work life...but i just can't stop enjoying my unemployed period. So. i've just gone through pinterest and found this quote "NOT ACTIVELY SURVIVING IS PASSIVELY DYING" and thought that i would just dropping a quote for my future self. p/s: currently, ...

"GETTING TO KNOW YOU..."

Perhaps I'm just jaded This chaotic reality always gets to me a lifetime war between worlds where all pacifists long to break free Maybe I need something new a possibility, something true What if it happens to be you? That thought alone scares me too Throughout this loud, crazy world I find myself passing by your door silently praying for the ...

"NOT ALL MY WRITING STUFF ARE GOOD, BUT THERE'S ALWAYS A ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT"

I'm not trying to be modest here (because I already am, ha-ha. Nah, kidding. I try to be, though.) Still, let me be the first to say this: Not all my writing stuff are good. I love writing. Sometimes, it feels more like an addiction I refuse to cure. There are always thoughts in my head, feelings in my heart - just like everybody else. I some...

Ughh

Too many fucking thoughts.

I Have A Secret I Cant Tell

I have a secret I cant tell. Not even on here. It runs so deep I want to cry. I was sworn to never tell. Something taken from me that I was subconsciously aware of yet never knew. A family secret. A secret I must take to my grave. A dear, beautiful, deep, and dark. I long to meet this deep and dark secret but I know I never will. This poor secre...

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Sometimes I get quiet all of a sudden.That's when there's a million and one things going through my mind.

To many questions

Have you ever had so many questions in mind but less answers. Believe me i have been there,

Why are we here?

Do you ever wonder why are we here? I mean sometimes life just feels like too much effort and my days just seem like chores...

I want all of these...

So, this is my first time writing here in this online diary. I am so excited to share all of my experiences and other such things what's going on in my life. Anyways, Hello everyone. :) I want all of these...to my future boyfriend * God-fearing * a Man not a boy * Kind * lovable * Cute * has a sense of humor * can cheer me up when I am feelin...

"OH, YOU HAPPY PEOPLE!"

Oh, you happy people Ain't your lives wonderful? With clarity and a smooth, daily plot it seems you're lucky with all you've got Oh, you happy people wrinkling your noses at tragedies some foreign dimension you'd rather not be in perhaps even thinking: "Thank God, that ain't me!" Some happy people choose to only see what only brings them joy T...

rough day

i'm in a depressive mood where i can't do anything even though i really have to. i can't focus here in mississauga; i should've gone back to hamilton rather than stay here at my mom's request. especially when stakes are high - my grade for accounting is way too low for comfort and the past few days were supposed to be dedicated to studying for i...

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“Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy.”

This day has been a breakthrough. Well, maybe this entire week. A dear friend of mine passed away earlier this week, which was incredibly difficult. This was someone I cared for, and it was the first loss I've ever encountered for someone I truly knew. Ever since, I stopped allowing the barriers I held hold me back. I started to thrive. I was ho...

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I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

About me

I love the smell of candles burning... And the soft light they produce. I love the rain... The way the water caresses my body and drips down from me. I love the wind the way it gently kisses your face and whispers in your ears. I adore the smell of autumn... It brings excitement of adventure into my heart. The colors that the sunset and sunrise...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

Her name was Princess

Her name was Princess. I met her through my other friend. We became close by talking on the phone, frequently. At that time, I wasn't sure if either I like her or I just like talking with her. My friend and I sometimes visited her from San Francisco to Newark. There was a time that I tried to get hooked up with her friend, but she ended up with ...

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Thinking About Life. You Should Try It Sometime.

So i am sitting here..alone..thinking. What am i thinking you ask? Whelp...Life. I am thinking about Life. Whelp, Life and Death actually i guess. Because people say that death is peaceful, easy, and just uncomplicated. And so it is. Life, on the other hand, is the complete opposite. It's difficult, loud & obnoxious, and definitely difficult...

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.