New chapters

For the longest time, I wondered what it would be like to truly love someone. I wanted to feel the adoration and respect my partner had for me. For a lengths of days... Months, I let my mind race with thoughts about myself and my relationship. I was unsure of the person I was constantly reassuring myself. Should I have had to reassure myself? If...

still no progress..

I'm sitting my ass off here doing nothing but stare at the computer all night long. I haven't study yet!

It's Official;

I've given up. I'm broken. I'm done. It's time to disappear for a while.

Individualism vs. Collectivism

A competitive nature is exceptionally crucial to success. Whether it is attaining the greatest resume for college and jobs, winning the huge sports game, or being the most popular at school, competitiveness helps to rise us to the top. However, there is a plot twist that NEEDS to be remembered. Competitiveness surrenders ourselves to our environ...

Staying indoor for now, I'm trying to not get hurt. I want to go to Nebraska and meet Lili T Mac. She is the same race as me. Also she speak the same language as me. I want to meet her already. I'm her nice caring fan out here.

Staying indoor for now, I'm trying to not get hurt. I want to go to Nebraska and meet Lili T Mac. She is the same race as me. Also she speak the same language as me. I want to meet her already. I'm her nice caring fan out here.

Week 9, Term 2

i attended Outdoor education camp, then holidays although I was not able to do any work as I went away to Melbourne for modelling.

Week 8, Term 2

Term 2, week 8 In the first lesson of this week a student present his assessment 1. My group then and I decided to change our assignment two topic. We were doing 40 hour famine but decided it’s too far away in term 3 that we will need to be focuses on our next assignment by then. It was also a time consuming project as we had difficulties with t...

CRAVING!

I want waffles with bananas and peanut butter tonight! Too bad I don't have waffles :-/

cozy weather..

Today is the day that I should be in bed snuggling with my pillows and wearing saggy pajamas. But what bothers me today is that I have a test to study for tomorrow. DAMN!

I really want to see the ocean. Sleep til I see the ocean, Whatever what so good about the ocean? Then I want to go to Thailand, or Hawaii.

All The Small Things

So far so good. I mean lately I've been pretty content with how things are going in my life. I completely re-organized my room (it doesn't even look like mine anymore!), I was able to enjoy a simple conversation with a guy who for many reasons usually frustrates me to no end, I've been digging my heels into the things that I love and really impr...

financial advice as well as twitter buddies

Open a brokerage and Invest in vanguard vti/voo fund,,penny stocks when you buy vitesse semiconductor for 50cents and sell for$10, read "buffettology","reading financial statements for dummies, buy"stalwarts" and hold. sheknowit pinterest as well as website...tathiessen aka actress tiffani thiessen on pinterest....follow stilettsandskin,tashami...

fashion wishlist and travel bucketlist

labrancaro,peakblackness,chocolatehighhh on tumblr....armednyc,houseofsundy,mixedswim,mrforeverfly, shoproyaleast,shopmarkkit artnectar.com,moviemarket.com,stylist.com..papafragras beach in milos greece, blue caves in zakynthos greece....27 surreal places to visit before you...on buzzfeed...nastygal and asos and ashro are great sites...pool on t...

books wislist etc

books Their Eyes Were Watching God by Zora Neale Hurston The Mists of Avalon by Marion Zimmer Bradley The Time Quartet by Madeleine L’Engle (Wrinkle In Time, etc) A Taste of Power by Elaine Brown Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison The Awakening by Kate Chopin The Anne Shirley books by L.M. Montgomery Mufaro’s Beautiful Daughters by John Steptoe Hi...

favs

poeticchef1,omars_kitchen are great chefs.....thepoeticchef.com,poeticchef1@gmail.com, omarskitchenusa@gmail.com, omars-kitchen.com, camaraaunique is a great makeup artists,powerful-art.tumblr, vhs-80.tumblr.com, look up orysa,lifeoftheparty,bbs25 and in-my-closet,verabrabrasil,jacque-reid all on polyvore...brands****lipsy.co.uk has affordable d...

exercise...

i'm proud of myself that i am actually putting forth a real effort.

Vegas

meetup,grouper,class,girlfriendcircles,girlfriendsocial,socialjane,bookclub, (las vegas -ghostbar at thepalms,(rhumbar-spanish trampoline,pineapple chipotle margarita,scorpion bowl at mirage),lavo beer garden,voodoolounge,breathelasvegas,breathe the oxygen bar....Mermaid lounge,hyde bar,the peppermill,thebeautybar,fatburger open 24 hrs,stripburg...

6 pack abs..

Why is it so hard to achieve you? I have been trying to get you for the past 2 months and I only have the upper ab? That's not fair!

I got up at three am this morning. Well I woke up, I didn't mean to get up. One minutes I'm dreaming and then I started having more alert thoughts. After a bit it suddenly occurred to me that I'm awake. I tried to go back to sleep for a couple of hours but I gave up around five. It happens far to often.

Hungry!

Hungry for accomplishment. I need to keep going, I won't be like this forever. I better do good now! Everyone just stop bothering me.I'm happy being alone.

No time!

No time for social life these days. Engineering is keeping me busy all the time. I think it wants me to suffer a lot. Like get punched and kick 100 times before I get up and live a good life.

tuesday july 28 2014 1:40am

So apparently I like writing in my diary on tuesdays lol so ill try writing everyday on that day. Anyways, things are going pretty good. My back is kind of sore from work, I could really go for a massage right now. Special and I are taking the kids out to the beach on friday im so amped about that. Havent been to the beach in so long. We had a b...

Monday, July 21st;

So! I went on a first date for the first time in my life today. Yeah, I never had a "first date" with my last boyfriend of 4.5 years. haha crazy right? Whatever the point is, is that he was VERY sweet and paid for everything. He walked me to my car, and kissed my cheek when he said bye. I tried so hard to make conversation...he didn't really say...

So I two calls about jobs that are local to me. It's crazy to me that I'm looking for work anywhere but where I'm living yet all my job offers are coming from my immediate area. It's as if my resolve to move is being tested. I don't know if I should take a better job in Utah or keep looking untilled I find something in Tennessee. I don't curren...

I've discovered the worst possible feeling. It is the feeling induced by a lack of purpose; a lack of passion. I feel as though I'm in a battle against time, yet I don't know what it means to "live each day to the fullest." That's where I am right now. I'm lost, I need something new to excel at or else I drown in negative thoughts of hopelessnes...

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.