declustering my brain

i feel good. a sentence i havent heard myself say in a little while. but now i do. slowly but surrely im making better decisions and improving my health. the main issue was smoking weed. i have been actively using it as a coping mechanism for the last two ongoing three years of my life. it made me build walls in my brain that didnt let in realit...

What happened to the girl I used to be? I wouldn't recognize me. I don't know if I would even want to. But like..... Who Am I?!?!

I am running away from bad Decisions and into unanswered questions .

cleaning my room

when i feel like starting a new chapter of my life which occurs every now and then, i always start by cleaning my room. in this case, i want to be able to feel comfortable and organized in order to be productive. by cleaning i reduce my list of mental chores that cause me to be distracted. this morning i cleaned my sheets, set up new one's, cle...

personality traits i don't like about myself

i am clingy, i don't enjoy being alone or at least i havent learned to do so yet. i want to feel secured so i ask a lot of questions on the what where and how's. i am a failed comic in my eyes, i love laughing but overshare too much when i feel comfortable or when there's a silence. i ask a lot of questions to engage conversation , sometimes its...

sometimes it goes wrong again

what could I possibly say about the last diary entry on this page? it has been three years... the aspect of time really changes my perspective on my evolution. eventhough it feels like im still stuck in the same sand. i have been avoiding writing,music,movies and anything i used to enjoy in order to block out some parts of my thoughts. i feel l...

sad … now holding the pillow sad now my tears roll down my face sad no one is holding me sad to not know I'm enough sad is he even coming home sad am I going to find myself once again alone sad …...

4:08 AM Torshavn Faroe Islands

Some Random thoughts I am reading research methodology and learning about these academic terms. I am calm and relax,thinking about my past, and about my journey. in last few years i changed a lot.Now i don't care about many things

IT HURTS

So, I just watched a movie that made me feel so bad!! My tears won't stop falling and it's like breaking my heart into pieces! It made me remember all the buried memories and pain! It also made me remember the happy moments, and that made it even more painful!!! But I don't regret watching it, it's a slap in the face kind of movie, but it is ind...

А меня смерть поджидает/ За воротами твоего рая/ Там, где обрывается наша нить - страданья/ И я - выброшенный на берег дельфин/ Плавниками песок загребаю/ И высыхаю/ Без тебя. Без воды/ Повтори ещё раз моё имя/ Когда я порог преступаю/ Когда я нахожусь за гранью/ За стеной из бетона и ила/ Что нас разделяет/ Твои руки полны воды - / ...

Jaw tremor

do you need it to stop?

Friends

True friends speak painful truth about faults & mistakes through loving words to a person that they cannot bear to see a stain upon

आईना

हमने तो सिर्फ आईना दिखाया किसी को धूल नजर आई तो किसीने खुदको बिखरा हुआ पाया.

लफ़्ज़ों से दोस्ती

सीख रहा हूं लफ़्ज़ों से दोस्ती करना. दिल के ज़ख्मों को होंटों से छुपाये रखना. छुपा रखे हैं आंखों में सैलाब कई. बहोत मुश्किल है नमी को छुपाये रखना.

Neutral

We are living in a time when *Either U R with us or U R against us* People have *Forgotten a word Neutral* If you have an opinion which is not to someone's liking then U R asked *To Shut up* Transition from *GOD WORSHIP TO PERSONALITY WORSHIP*

Allah

लगता है किसी दोस्त की दुआ काम आ गई. After the accident on Pune Expressway today I realised that Allah is nearer to me than I am to myself; my existence depends on the nearness and the presence of Allah. I just took the name of Allah and Miraculously the wheel got entangled in wire and the car came to stand still. The car is damaged but we all a...

Hi.

hey guys.. so this is my diary. I am a 15teen years old girl from germany. i will write in german but also in englisch so excuse me if my school englisch is bad :D in this diary i will write my whole lifestory nad problems and thoughts and just everything thats going on in my life, because i have nobody i can talk to.maybe someone can help me or...

Wirklich?!

Hm mein Leben ist kompliziert und ganz im Ernst ich kapier mich selber nicht mehr.. Hab ich nun Gefühle für diesen einen Jungen?? Hm ich denke mal diese Frage stellen sich viele Leute... Stehe ich auf ihn/sie tut er/sie es auch? Das Problem ist dass man die Frage ob man wirklich in die Person verliebt ist nicht so leicht erklären kann.. naja sch...

First Entry

This is just a test :)

Awkward

Dieser Moment wenn du einen Film, Serie schaust und du nur anfängst zu weinen. Manchmal wünschte ich mir mein Leben wäre wie in so einen Film.. Perfektes Aussehen, Perfekten Charakter, einen Freund den man über alles und jeden liebt und der einen auch liebt, wahre Freunde gute Noten. Das wäre doch perfekt oder? Wie in einem Traum, du hast Schule...

For the first time questions were raised transplants in Japan in 1939, and already in the 60s. the last century have been carried out the first operation. Such operations have become a revolution in medicine and cosmetology, allowing millions of people around the world to fight the "shortcomings" of the appearance. Hair transplantation not only ...

A little thing from me <3

I see us getting married, moving in together, cuddling on the couch, waking up to good morning kisses, having arguments, making up after, cooking our favourite foods, smilling for no reasons, annoying each other when we're bored, having the cutest little babies, watching them grow up, nerver leave each other's side. I see us together. Forever. <3

Wohooooo ._.

Hm komischer Tag irgendwie.. heute begann ja wieder die Schule und kennt ihr das? In den Ferien macht ihr euch immer so Gedanken was ihr nach den Ferien macht anders macht! Hm ich meine vorallem im Bezug auf eine Person. Ihr nehmt euch vor mehr mit der Person zu machen, ihr wollt ihr zeigen dass ihr sie echt mögt. Und kaum steht sie vor euch sei...

'Freunde'

kennt ihr diese 'freunde'? eigentlich hab ich freunde aber schon seit längerer zeit bin ich nicht wirklich glücklich mit ihnen. klar, manchmal ist es echt lustig und so mit ihnen aber im grunde hab ich einfach nie das gefühl dass ich dazu gehöre. ich bin immer nur die, die zum glück da ist wenn kein anderer da ist. die ersatzfreudin.eine eit lan...