My Diary

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Easter 2014

~ I have made it this far. I have gathered all the necassary information and skills. What is stopping me. ~ I wonder if the graduate program will be just like what I was told it would be. ~ I wonder if the students that started under the Obama administration as students are still considered a part of his movement to promote education and globali...

ImThatGirl...

What do you do when you feel like your worlds all down? For years I never really spoke out, more like i always spoke but to myself if that makes any sense... I never knew why i did what i did as a young child and growing up I would do things most young children or teens would do and i would sometimes question it but never did i realize anything ...

I never have been very good at introductions, it's got to be one of the many things I find challenging including writing conclusions which, I guess, is inevitable when writing anything really so like most of the things that I find challenging I guess I must face up to the inevitable prospect of doing said challenge. I seem to have got rather di...

simply magical

Today when i was out tending my garden, a monarch butterfly flew down and alighted on my finger. i heard butterflies bring good luck. It was magical, for butterflies landing on fingers are rare. The butterfly stared at me for a moment. Then it dipped both wings and flew away.I was enchanted.

DO NOT TAKE GCSE ART!

Under absolutely no circumstances! Do not take Art! It sucks the happiness out of you.

Easter.

this whole Easter weekend as been shit and not once have I heard anything about God. only about the easter bunny and cracking eggs.

Tipico cuando me llaman para 'saber si estoy despierta' lo hacen porque es malo para mi dormir tanto pero si yo llamo lo hago por venganza hahaha

"us"

We finally did it, we made a commitment. You're mine and I'm yours. How reckless can we be? We are well aware that we won't see each other for months! Two of those months I'll be gone and we could only communicate through letters. We know this, and realize how hard it will be! Regardless, I hope we can get through it while everyone doubts us.

My First Post 4.18.14

Dear R- Sometimes in life you have to stop and look at where you are and where you were. Looking back, i thought that my life was great, I had the perfect "best" friend and i felt great but this year ive come to realize that i was never truly happy. I thought that i had to get rid of the problems in my life, so that best friend that i had became...

Not right

I give so much out "there" only to feel like crap as the outcome. I can't help my caring for everybody even when they're the most meanest and nastiest people the world unfortunately has the unpleasant pleasure of hosting. I don't ask for anything in return, but in a sense I do because that's how I feel humanity should be in dealing with GENUINE ...

The depression is getting bad again. I constantly find myself wanting to just be gone.

I just want you to chase me. Prove you want me, prove you can't lose me, ask me to come back to you. All I need is a little bit of emotion, why is that so hard for you?

You have the potential, To save some lives. So please be nice, I don't want him to go away He's the only sane one there is... You... Have the potential, To save some lives. Make a wish. -G

Life

Life is weird. How did we get here? why are we here? What do we live for?

Easter hunts?

I love chocolate I really do it's just now that I'm older i wish that Easter hunts involved finding booze and concert tickets :P If only...

Suicidal.

I'm so completely lost it isn't funny, if i were to cut right now i wouldn't stop till i couldn't cut anymore. I could rip up my skin and not give two shits. I just want to die. What the fuck is wrong with me??? ..... We spread my grandfathers ashes today.. i was fine till i got back to my mothers house and now I'm suicidal and listening to mus...

i think i came to conclusion

i tell myself i'm so content with life... that's total bullshit... if i was why would i be doing all these bad things? you're probably in a better place, better gf, and having a better life... but here i am same old.. When we will i realize... i still love you.. i almost crashed my friends car but it reminded me of u.. SO SAD LOL! -_-

I should sleep. Have class early tomorrow morning. Night

You are the shadows of lost dreams in a broken night. You are the drowning pool of black water in the deepest crevice. A once eternal fondness swifted away with the oceans of ambiguity. The rays of sun we once pondered and mirages to run now desiccated. Maybe its better now we don't know where we want to crawl up and flee. But the hours ceded to...

A certain growing hate, and an unwanted desire. With glowing cisterns carrying tampered poisons, washing away towards our memories. The morning rays light up the shadows, and secrets being made. The dizzy feeling of falling, flying within stars. The remaining pain lays within your castle.

And the world my child will start to conspire against you, and take everything you want away. but you have to carry that weight, that burden, just above that hill you're climbing. And it might hurt, and you will bleed, but that's the game we all play called life. Your body will hurt, and so will your heart, but without any risks, you'll never kn...

what good boy is out their

boys can be nice and also stupid I wish there was some good guy out there

Julio Ramirez.I met him in August during my first semester of college. My best friend. The person who understands me most. No one expected us to be friends. In many ways we are very different.He is conservative to my liberal.Latino to my white.Catholic to my protosent.He is 30 to my 18.We are friends anyways.You see we are misfits among misfits....

Es tarde para arrepentirme pero ahora sé que no debi haber desaparecido por tanto tiempo, cuando lo hice pensé que todo seguiría igual, fui una tonta.

todo comenzo con un 'te veo mañana chica vegetariana'. Te extraño chico carnivoro (:

I don't know you. But you're amazing. Not amazing like me. But amazing like you.

why me?

Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...

Hurt

This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...

Fuck It All

thats all i have to say. Fuck it.

New to this site.

I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?

Everyone starts somewhere. It's where you go from there that matters.

Cut

Why do I cut? I am not an old cutter; I would not quite say I am addicted; Last time I counted I had 25... I started in Dec- beginning of Jan. Only when I'm stressed I normally cut... Or when i'm lonely...which is always... I think I hate myself.

Just push through it

Maybe I shouldn't give up. I can do this. I can live, I can be happy. I don't need to let other people influence my life. I'm going to be happy. I can do it. I just need to push threw through these next couple of months then when I see my grammy I can tell her everything that I'm feeling and hopefully she'll let me live with her.