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said changes the outcome. A small change at a viewpoint, but it changes the bigger picture. If you said something you shouldnt have to someone, is that person going to be mad in the moment, will they understand? What happens when that moment is over though? How will they continue to think about you? Everything you do and say changes the greater outcome in life, diverts you to a new path in life. With that concept grasped, the only thing left to do is to take matters in your own hands. Make a

Everyone wants to rewind their lives at some point and start over. In that moment people believe that what happened wasn't meant to and shouldn't have. They want to take it all back and do it differently, do it the right way, but we don't know what is wrong until the after math. We wouldn't know in that split second that it was the wrong thing to say at the wrong time. In all actuality everyone knows continuously that things happen for a reason too. What we said compared to what we should have

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that you love them and why. Touch the person you care for and tell them things will be okay. Randomly inform someone that you are always there. Come out of your own loneliness to be that one person in the crowd that creates a chain of include(ation).

Sometimes we feel as if we are alone in this world. Even in the midst of the largest crowd, we still feel alone. We tend to do something stupid that we'll regret later to get some attention that we yearn for. Everyone needs attention. They need to be envied over, they need to be touched, they need to have someone make it obvious that they love them. Physical and emotional attention is needed in our everyday lives to feel accepted and to feel as if we're not alone. Tell the person you love

Hats off to you asshole

If I was to deal with what I am dealing with right now months ago I probably wouldn't be here to write about this. Does that mean I grew stronger? if it does, why do I hurt so bad and have no way to release it?

My life.

Destiny.

Ive always had the question about fate, destiny, luck, and so forth. I know for one thing that there is no such thing as luck, it is all coincidence that wasn't planned at all for a greater purpose. The difference between fate and destiny? I still don't know. I would want to guess that there is no difference for the sake of sanity. What is destiny? What is fate?

im tired of being tied down. I want to live. get into trouble. do things that put tht true smile of happiness on my face. I want you.

I hope you know I miss you. I hope you know I feel empty inside. I hope you know I feel so weak and unsupported. I hope you know I write to you everynight. I hope you know everyday Im wishing to talk to you. I hope you know how much I miss you. I hope you know how much you were to me. I hope you know I don't want you to walk away...

0-infinity still loosing

I just really really miss you... I cried the other night because I realized what you had said a long time ago, that we would eventually loose eachother. And now I see what you are saying. I just thought in our relationship promises would be kept no matter what...

0-infinity. Im still loosing.

I miss you, I miss you a lot. Just talking to you or your smile.. just you. We were always talking 24/7. Never forgetting to say goodmorning or goodnight. We'd stay up late till eachother fell asleep. We'd tell eachother anything and we became eachothers diaries. No matter if nobody knew, we knew about eachother and we knew everything that was going on in eachothers lives. Recently we've been just catching up after a couple days pass and we don't really get into detail.

Tangled.

Love is such a dangerous game. It's like the prey of a spider, trapped and tangled up in a web of trouble. The trap is tempting. I want to adventure to find and figure things out but I don't want to be trapped. So the web of my struggle begins with the bestfriend, boyfriend, and ex. Im tangled and caught, and soon ill be prey for the spider. Love is such an evil thing.

LOVE? (2)

I love bacon. Its just fucking delicious. I have loved alone Friday nights to drive and blare my music. I have loved someone affectionately and i was so everyday. I have loved someone in a carefree goofy way, where we can be bestfriends but more. I have said freely "i love you" in a sarcastic medal. And of course i have loved multiple people that i don't want to use love because it just doesn't add up...

LOVE?

So after responding to your post about mine it got me thinking, what is love? like seriously? One kind of love is the love for a desire, like food or sex. One kind of love is the love for fun, to just live freely. One kind of love is affectionate love. One kind of love is silly, goofy love. One kind of love is sarcastic and just a statement. One kind of love is sometimes just a word compared to how much you feel about someone.. but what's it overall?

Investing 2

you'll be with forever? There's no in between relationship then, it would just be one you'd have forever? What if you already invested and then found out you were meant to be with some one else? Would you let go now so you wouldn't have to wait for it to happen?

Investing.

So I have been thinking... if you knew that something wouldn't last forever would you still want it? I would venture to say yes, for the fact that friends come and go anyway and the time you do have with them is worth it. If something made me happy for a short time being, I would take it anyway. But what about love? What would you do if you knew it wouldn't last? If I knew that, I wouldn't invest and I would hold back. What would a relationship be then? Just a short test till you find the one

Ditto:)

"I can't really say you're my friend. You're not.. You're more than that. To me, you're above a friend. But i dont know what that would be. You do more for me than a friend would. I care more about you than I would a friend. You're more special to me than a friend is. You're above a friend. Which I never thought I could meet someone who's like that to me."

My friend (cont.)

I know we both moved on and we are both closer to being content, but don't you miss that comfort and company? I surely do.

My friend (cont.)

Its tough not being able to see you or be with you. At school im by myself usually finding myself in an awkward situation talking to someone different just to open my mouth. I just want to be able to relax and be able to be myself confidently. With you I am able to do that. Don't you miss when we would do nothing but sit and talk. Laugh the time away or just smile at each other hoping we're thinking the same thing...