My friend.

I really am missing you right now. Being in school is different, I feel like I lived a separate life every time I was with you. A happy fun filled life that I never thought would end. We spent every day we could together and we planned weeks and months in advance so we made sure we had something to look forward to. Now that the start of our friendship is stretching out and summer has ended, we never really see each other much and we prioritize other things.

17 September 2013, 01:49 AM
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Cinderella's Slipper (cont.)

people support you or not. The mold is still there but you are finally putting your foot down and doing what you like. You have the confidence because you are wearing and doing what you love. You have your friends that are just like you and you are happy. No "mold" matters. What matters is to be happy with who you are and find your own slipper to fit into.

13 September 2013, 03:13 AM
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Cinderella's Slipper.

In our everyday lives whether you want to realize it or not, people have this outline of perfection. Not everyone gets it right but there are always that few amount that do. That nostalgic mold that somehow becomes our goal, takes over who we are. We ignore the clothes we like or we ignore those people that are your true friends, just so you can fit in that mold. Fitting in isn't all that it seems and really, its not all that great. Nowadays you are encouraged to be yourself whether or not

13 September 2013, 03:12 AM
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I wish for once in my life that I could just go away, mentally or not. I just want to escape the everyday life and find new possibilities. New things that make me happy or new things that will enable me to better who I am. I just want to escape the nostalgic fit that everyone has to try to match. I want to my live, and live it freely.

13 September 2013, 03:05 AM
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My Goals

Those who write down their goals an remind themselves of them, have a greater chance to succeed. 1. I want to succeed in school and graduate with honors. 2. I want to move away for college. 3. I want to find a career I am passionate about and will enjoy everyday. 4. No matter what i'm doing, I will be happy. 5. I want to show people that I do things that make me happy, not to please others.

13 September 2013, 03:02 AM
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When are things going to look up again?

12 September 2013, 03:57 AM
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its just as simple as that

12 September 2013, 03:53 AM
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Dead end (cont)

... but its all toppling over and im tired of having problems. Life isn't my thing.

12 September 2013, 03:50 AM
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Dead end.

I can't do this anymore and im struggling to see what could come for me tomorrow. I lost my happiness and I lost my confidence. I cant be confident unless im happy it works hand in hand... Well I don't know what to do.In a talk with a close friend of mine tonight he said to never think of myself as a star looked at in space but a star looked at here where you belong... I was sure I would keep my promises and find a new way to sloppily glue my life back together

12 September 2013, 03:49 AM
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Truth (cont 3)

upside down and all I need is someone that will be by myside like a TRUE best friend...

11 September 2013, 01:55 AM
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Truth (cont 2)

my side. But that's all gone because you gave up and you found someone else. So yes my heart was hurt a little that you find no happiness from me anymore. My heart is broken. I feel like I cant share things with you and I cant be myself because the new way youll react to it. And I haven't been truthful about me because I have been depressed and pushed to the edge lately in my life. And I am done holding on. I have nothing to grasp onto. No true happiness I feel like I should keep. My lifes tu...

11 September 2013, 01:54 AM
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Truth (cont)

with these things. I wish this wasn't happening because I have a feeling I will loose you.. the time we had everything we shared will be gone.. and I cant have that happen for lifes sake. So to you ill be truthful. It is weird seeing you completely transform out of love for me just like that. And yes I liked being loved and I liked that someone cared so much and adored me so much because no one has done that for me. I felt good and I felt happy that I had that kind of person with those values...

11 September 2013, 01:54 AM
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Truth.

I hate that this is happening between us. After all of the things that we go through together I never saw something like this coming. The silent fights are the worst and they cut deeper than any other word or fight. I know I haven't been completely truthful or open.. but that's me and you know that. I have a hard time trusting no matter how long I have known you. I have a hard time sharing things about myself because of how youll react and judge. You know that and you know I still struggle

11 September 2013, 01:53 AM
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I am loosing who I am or who I have always wanted to be.. is there a difference? who am I? Im loosing touch with the world and im starting to peel my fingers off the limb for the final fall, should I do this?

11 September 2013, 01:44 AM
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School is not me.

Maybe im just not who I think I am. Maybe im a completely different person. When im around others sometimes im the funny outgoing one,sometimes im the timid one, sometimes im the one with the attitude and sometimes the one who gets taken advantage of. But no matter what they see, I feel insecure, I feel like a black thumb, im not comfortable, not accepted, and im not me...

11 September 2013, 12:23 AM
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To me personally I don't believe in hope. Hope Is something that you grab on before you actually fall. Hope is full of shit. Hope is like a Fantasy, It's Not real. Hope is just something to keep your mind off of reality. Hope is that little light in the darkness .. It's something you can't touch the only thing you can do is Believe that one day that little light will get brighter . But the reality is that, that little light won't get brighter, your just gonna have to deal with the light that ...

09 September 2013, 12:24 AM
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cont (3)

belong to no one - who belonged to everyone, Who had nothing, who wanted everything With a fire for every experience And an obsession for freedom That terrified me to the point I couldn't even talk about - And pushed me to a nomatic point Of madness that both dazzled and dizzied me

08 September 2013, 05:49 PM
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cont. (2)

But there's no use in talking to people who have a home, They have no idea what it's like to seek safety in other people, For home to be wherever you lie your head. I was always an unusual girl, My mother told me I had a chameleon soul. No morall compass positioning due north, no fixed personality. Just an inner indecisiveness That was as wide and as wavering as the ocean. And if I said that I didn't plan For it to turn out this was, I'd be lying - Because I was born to be the other woman. I

08 September 2013, 05:48 PM
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cont.

Who one had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet - But upon an unfortunate series of events Saw those dreams And divided like a millions stars in the night sky That I wished on over and over again - sparkling and broken. But I didn't really mind because I knew That it takes getting everything You ever wanted and then losing it To know what true freedom is. When the people I used to know Found out what I had been doing How I had been living - they asked me why.

08 September 2013, 05:48 PM
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I saw this from one of my followers and loved it, thought it was interesting and relatable, well in different ways of course. I was in the winter of my life And the men that I met along the road were my only summer. At night, I fell asleep with visions of myself Dancing and laughing and crying with tem. Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour And my memories of them were the only things that Substained me and my only real happy times. I was a singer, not very popular one,

08 September 2013, 05:47 PM
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