Signed LCM + JMJ

I hate cleaning my room. Opening old drawers. I dont want to look at my past like that. I dont want to relearn secrets that I have already forgotten. But today I opened the bottom drawer where I kept all my notes. I opened one. One that told me I was beautiful. My eyes, my voice, my smile, everything about me was beautiful to my admirer. As I realize who it was from, I crumbled it up and shoved it back. It was from an old friend who fell in love with me, but we have since moved on.

09 July 2013, 06:41 PM
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Handicap Sticker Part 2 (free poem)

some people understand now but not all you still get picked on and I blame my self for endearing this burden on you Today I saw that you kept a book of secrets and stories you wrote about life in a way no one would imagine you wrote about a girl too who made you smile and who stuck up for you

09 July 2013, 06:31 PM
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Handicap Sticker Part 1 (free poem)

Your skin is so new silky and smooth welcome little buddy the world is yours so new as you grew up you've discovered your differences school was a rough spot and so was the public your image was an eyesore to the ones who didn't understand you are so beautiful unique and daring you understand life better than I ever can

09 July 2013, 06:29 PM
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Word of a Mountain (poem/song)

Where do I even begin My story's not one to be told Its just my secret shouted from the mountains let it out words of bold. like being pushed off a cliff youre pressuring my words I didn't even tell you I suppose it was a lil bird Secrets secrets keep them from me cause when I find words I set them free don't trust me with your stories for I don't promise that i'll keep take your own words and set mountains free.

09 July 2013, 05:46 PM
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Sometimes I get stuck in the moment. I just hold on to it making it last longer than it should. Trying to grasp the moment of joy and pride or even the moment of sadness and weakness. But then, I have to remind myself. Moments are moments. 1 min or 10. Let it go, life goes on.

09 July 2013, 06:29 AM
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A message from a friend.. (cont.)

But love comes with other things and those other things are what upsets you. It's not loves fault. And it doesn't always have to be bad. You just need to find that one guy who won't treat you bad, and wont do anything to hurt you. When you find him, you'll believe in love again. And you'll know when you find him. I found that girl. And I'm talking to her right now. But don't give up on love. Don't hate it. Don't be mad at it. It's not loves fault.."

09 July 2013, 06:19 AM
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A message from a friend...

"And also, don't believe what you put in that blog. "Don't fall in a shitload of abuse. Don't fall into bullshit. Don't fall in love." Don't believe that. It's not all abuse. It's not all bullshit. The thing is, it's not love that's making you like that. It's other feelings. Blame the other feelings. Not love. Seriously love is the best thing in life. Without love you can't be happy.

09 July 2013, 06:17 AM
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To my best friend that is on vacation right now and reading my blog. I love and miss you so much!! Kisses<3

09 July 2013, 05:46 AM
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Does love happen by chance or fate? With you, it was the chance we became friends but it was fate that I would end up falling in love with you.

09 July 2013, 05:29 AM
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Whoops.

09 July 2013, 04:57 AM
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Relationships are complete bullshit. Getting into one is just jumping in a shitload of abuse. You fall in love with this amazing guy that makes you smile and want to show off to your friends. But as time ticks you unravel their mask and uncover this complete different human. They become some complete stranger to you and you question why you fell in love with them. Don't fall in a shitload of abuse. Don't fall into bullshit. Don't fall in love.

09 July 2013, 04:56 AM
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I just want someone who can treat me right, love me like they mean it, and understand me. All my relationships have always be so mentally and emotionally straining. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of doing things wrong. Love is complete bullshit isn't it?

09 July 2013, 04:48 AM
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A book cover.

Life is a struggle. So many ups and downs just like a rollercoaster. There's the family aspect, the friend aspect, the boy aspect.. but where does my aspect come in? I want to be independent. I don't want a difficult struggle or let people know I have one. I want them to know me as the happy, outgoing Josie they have always known. Rollercoasters are overrated, and frankly I hate them. So I am going to make my journey how I please. My beautiful journey of life.

08 July 2013, 06:14 AM
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Tonight as I was laying down looking at the stars I made a wish. Like a little girl that loves princesses, I made a wish. One ridiculously stupid wish that i'm not sure if I would take back or not. One silly wish that made me smile like a clown. I wished upon a shooting star that someone would take me away and show me what life is really about. Bring me to earth ya know? But now the star is gone and the moments over. Wishes don't come true. Wishes are fantasies..

08 July 2013, 06:10 AM
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As I lay here looking up at the stars I started thinking. Thinking about you really. It's strange that so many things remind me of you and not "him." I guess it's just how things work out. But no matter who I think about or what reminds me of someone, it all makes my day. Knowing I have someone by my side through anything is what means the most. So whether my thoughts are about you or my boyfriend, I am going to smile.

08 July 2013, 03:32 AM
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I'm stuck. Between two smiles and a laugh. One makes me enjoy life like a kid and one makes me enjoy life like an artist. Then there is the black thumb that even in serious moments lets me enjoy life by laughter. It sucks to be stuck but to be stuck in the middle of love is an experience I never want to let go. Then again, as time rolls on I want something serious. I want one something and I don't want to be stuck in it. I want to love what I am in.

07 July 2013, 06:25 AM
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