The boy that fixed me just to break me again

i love you yes i do, i fucking love you, how is it possible that i love you but you hurt me like no other. :'( which is why i also hate you, you are on my mind 24/7 , and you are just a player collecting your jar of hearts. Do you have any idea how much it hurt when you had just told me you didn't want to be in a relationship but then you start going out with her the next week and her locker was one over from mine, and you would walk her to class and go to her locker, and she cheated on you. ...

22 May 2014, 11:21 PM
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The cycle

I don't want to be stuck in a cycle. I don't want to go to work Monday through Friday always looking forward to the next weekend , coming home from work just to eat shower pay the bills and sleep. I don't want to survive I want to live

22 May 2014, 01:15 AM
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I don't deserve anything obviously

It's not fair, I'm so miserable, you are flying sky high and I'm dead, stuck in a living body just miserable.

20 May 2014, 11:53 PM
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You moved on. I am stuck

You cheer. I lose. You rise. I fall. You live. I drown. You smile. I frown. You laugh. I cry. You are cruel. I am a fool.

20 May 2014, 11:51 PM
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?

Are we free to make our own choices in life, or are our decisions always limited by the rules of society?

20 May 2014, 09:21 PM
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Wish i was Multilangual

I want to learn how to speak French, German, Russian, and Japanese.

19 May 2014, 03:27 AM
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Prove them Wrong

some say that you shouldn't have to prove yourself to others, but it's the only way for me to achieve something just so they can see me do what they said i couldn't.

19 May 2014, 03:21 AM
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Nerve Damage

i just now realized what the pain in my arm and hand is, i guess i damaged the nerves because of the cutting. :(

18 May 2014, 03:09 AM
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Teachers part 2

In 5th grade my teacher had to leave because she was having her baby, and she cried so much we all did and she still came back and visited thats how much she cared for her students. In 8th grade i had the best academic year ever my gpa was a 4.0 and when my grades started dropping my math teacher took the time to find out what was going on and he tried to encourage me. Another one of my teachers told me something i will never forget because its what keeps me going most of the time.... he was ...

17 May 2014, 03:01 AM
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Teachers

i've only had two teachers that i felt cared about me. in 5th grade and in 8th grade. Today i was in bodybuilding class and i was raising my arms, i have two bad cuts on my arm and i was trying to hide them from people but my teacher was right in front of me, he looked straight at the cuts and said nothing. i know some of my other teachers have seen my scars and they don't care. i taught teachers were caring i guess i was wrong again.

17 May 2014, 02:57 AM
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i want to help

i swear to you i want to help you i just don't know how...... i feel so fucking helpless and useless....... there is this girl that changes right behind me in the locker room and she is always so sad and one time i overheard her talking about her life, and i just wanted to hug her, but what the hell am i supposed to say, i can't say its going to be ok because what if its not ugh. stupid life

17 May 2014, 02:39 AM
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i Wish

i wish i had a dad. one that would make me feel safe, one that would hug me, one to call me his little princess, one that would kill any guy who would hurt me. But you can't make a wish like this come true. i've really needed a dad this whole time.

17 May 2014, 02:32 AM
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That One Guy

i used to have this guy "friend" that was like my "bestfriend", but i haven't talked to him in a while and i miss him so much, he was an ass ( i guess i just like surrounding myself with these kind of guys) but he was still there for me when i told him stuff. and now its just nothing.

16 May 2014, 11:11 PM
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2 loves: singlemommy,elissakayhicks
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Moving on

yeah its hard to move on but i have to force myself to do it

16 May 2014, 01:24 AM
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15 May 2014, 10:23 PM
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I can always count on you

to make me feel like shit

15 May 2014, 10:18 PM
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12 May 2014, 10:05 PM
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Could it possibly be me?

he was talking about some girl not texting him back, why would any girl not text HIM back, unless that girl didn't have her phone number that he has on his phone! which points to me. hahaha probably not, i wish it was me but at the same time i don't im just insane

12 May 2014, 09:55 PM
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Nothing

im nothing i have nothing [just my mom but i can only love her and i cant expect something back from giving love and she chose him over us even after i told her what he "tried to do" its crazy that ive been living under the same roof as him for 11 years. he stopped getting drunk all the time and he isn't as violent anymore, but its not something i can forget, when i told my mom he "tried to touch me" he denied it and blamed it on drugs, and he cried, his crying was how he always got my mom o...

12 May 2014, 09:44 PM
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Dying Slowly

the little things during the day that make it seem like time slows down just so you can feel the misery longer.

12 May 2014, 09:18 PM
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