i haven't wrote for u in a while! i know its been a while.. but i still miss you! yesterday i thot i saw u at TASTEA -_- got so sad.. and i still miss u a lot i drove by tastea and got kind of sad because remember we use to play ball in that arcade -_- LOL! <3 fucken shit we wasted so much money and didnt win shit!
Couldn't sleep before and was planning to talk to Johnny but he was busy. Played with my phone a bit then put it to charge. Text message, viber message, Gmail... What the hell is with you're timing people!?
So I have been a bit AWOL lately, don't know why to be honest. University is back and full on already~ going to be an interesting year. IF YOU ARE BORED YOU SHOULD FIND ME ON YOUTUBE - Arsh2411 I always appreciate any feedback! :)
I get a little annoyed when I'm looking at my past posts and it's like a huge block full of pictures, then notes, then pictures again. Seriously need to balance them out ^^"
Officially annoyed why coz I'm sick of people teasing me its not fair why do people treat me...so meanly like what did I do am I the only normal person at my school think I am like they had this lame performance with this old fart rapping I mean crapping coz it sucked. But I got an award.
Unabtainable love is the worst, it's a mixture of lost and unwanted feeling. The type that takes forever to forget. The depressing and lonely feeling of being rejected. Lost in the deep and thick forest of hatred.
The feel that flutter inside when you find out there actually someone out there that loves you with all their hearts and thinks youre the most beautiful out of anyone else in a big room, after being told tons of times that you ugly and stupid.
The feeling of being unwanted is just a small storm in your life there are big and harsher storm that is yet to come so stand on your feet an continue to head toward the sunlight that awaits you.
There's someone out there who loves you for who you are, yet you still fall head over heals for a guy who probably doesn't even truly love you back for the way you are.
Girls are confusing. Boys are confusing. Relationships are pointless. It seems as if nowadays, everyone cheats. Everyone lies. There is constant drama.
I don't mean to. I just don't have anywhere else to do it. I don't want everyone knowing that I think these things and feel this way. If people knew that every day, I wished I was no longer alive, what would they think? I will keep it hidden in my "diary."
I was having a perfectly fine day until you had to ruin it. Why do you have to make me feel like a problem? I'm not a bad child. Stop feeling like you failed, because you're making me feel like a failure. Good job, mom.
I'm just having some thoughts tonight so I thought I would talk about them. I feel awfully bad about my body all the time. Some days I go without even doing my hair, I take a shower, brush it and just let it naturally dry. Its sometimes wavy and frizzy. I've struggled since 5th grade with my weight and I used to be pretty hefty. In 7th grade I w...
I've had so much trouble finding someone who enjoys conversation. I always seem to interact with people who take opinions way too seriously and any deviation from their own immediately sends them into a rage at which point there is no reasoning with them and no reason to continue the conversation. I always thought the point of talking with peop...
Last night of had a dream of a that I was hang out with my sister Brenda. And for some reason I had to go out of town with her. But before I left had to go home and get some stuff then I saw you tall sexy short hair man I ever seen. And right when I was leaving you said you'll miss me and will be here waiting for me to come back then you kiss m...
They had a fight. That means I get radio silence. Go figure. Her mails are my only joy at the moment, so knowing I won't hear from her makes me feel lonely and frustrated. I can't be angry though as I know we are both having a rough ride at home. I have to keep focussing on the future. The vision we have created. We will get there.
Im so confused...hes not the guy you think he is hes different...he cares but in his own way and idk how to explain it but he does...and I wish he would drop everything and come to me...its my fault and now i have to pay the price i gave up the perfect guy and he went to a girl that doesnt even CARE about the cute things he does for her and im s...
This is my first note in my public diary. When you first see me, I would appear to be a happy, healthy, and fun-loving girl. I am very much into beauty, and love shopping and all that @!#$. I get comments all the time that, "Oh I wish I was happy like you!" or, "Oh, but you wouldn't understand, you are so innocent." These comments would not anno...
I don't even know why I got this account. I am exploring new ways to express myself, I guess?
Maybe I shouldn't give up. I can do this. I can live, I can be happy. I don't need to let other people influence my life. I'm going to be happy. I can do it. I just need to push threw through these next couple of months then when I see my grammy I can tell her everything that I'm feeling and hopefully she'll let me live with her.
Dear diary, since i have found out that my stepdad and my mom might date again i think i might cut again its just I cant believe she chose him over my trust!! idk if ii can ever trust her or him EVER again. i feel like since she obviously dosent care and shes the person that gave birth 2 me that maybe my life isnt worth living. At least for now ...
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