I can't take this anymore

I'm so overwhelmed with everything. The kids can be too much sometimes. Work is rough with the evil temporary supervisor. Some snitched on my countdown to my normal supervisor coming back. This bitch had the balls to bring up my job shadow for the department I want. Then I come home to find out the place my ex got my fridge and ps4 from need a payment or they come for the stuff. I call and tell them I will give them $100 but nope it's $203. I have the car payment coming out of the account for...

18 June 2015, 09:31 PM
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Just want to be loved

I had finally did it. I had left him. I told him to get his shit and leave. I was done. I was sick and tired of his drinking. It was months of mind games. Yet I was able to move on kind of. I found friends or at least I thought they were friends. I had found another guy, well a few actually. The main one was just a sweet talker. He gave me some much needed attention and I couldn't help wonder why this handsome man was giving me the time of day. Then I found out some interesting info but I ign...

14 June 2015, 03:44 AM
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Jealousy

Why can't I stop being jealous? I want him but I can't. I'm too afraid of the unknown. I want the strength I need to do what I want. Where can I find it?

27 July 2014, 05:37 PM
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Just another day

People all around me are saying happy Fourth of July to each other. All smiles and laughter so I force one on my face and repeat what they say. Yet to me it's just another day. Another holiday used as an excuse to drink and act stupid. I sit here starring off into nothing. Another day, another day of feeling nothing. Another day where I feel dead inside. I actually wish I had work today, then I could keep myself busy and not think of how dead I feel. Another day, another day of fighting. Anot...

04 July 2014, 06:03 PM
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Frozen window

Have you ever had a day where you felt like you were stuck inside looking out a frozen window? Watching everyone have fun playing in the snow and know you can't go outside. You try to stay warm with what rags you have to wear. You don't have a heater like everyone else and you just wish you had something to keep yourself warm. That's how I feel. Like I'm stuck in a cold place with every exit frozen shut, forever locked in this frozen cage.

27 June 2014, 09:10 PM
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Through the fog

I hold a little pink pill. I'm told it will help. It's supposed to be a light to my dark fog. I don't think it's going to help but I hope it does. I'm tired oh so tired of this fog. I thought I had escaped this fog years ago but now it's back, denser and colder. I know why I'm here. Years of being told I'm not good enough and that I need to change. Years of being told I'm wrong. Years of laying back while he did what he wanted. Years of watching him drink. Years of picking up the messes...

27 June 2014, 02:48 AM
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