"you're the only one"

probably the biggest lie of 2015. I don't understand how some one can look you in the eyes and tell them that. But its wasn't just one person it's a bunch of people. I don't understand how you can tell someone that and then go off and find another girl and tell her the exact same thing. For some reason I'm hoping he's doing this to get to me, to make me jealous. and honestly i think he is... but i'm not too sure. Idk i see the way they act and i see the way he looks at her and there is no con...

27 August 2015, 07:43 AM
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Thank you

Thank you to all the kind comments i've been receiving! it means the world to me that readers are taking the time to read my post and give me positive feed back.. It makes my day every time when i see a new-happy comment on my posts.

20 August 2015, 09:25 AM
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rejection

everyone is afraid of rejection. whether you're willing to admit it or not, everyone is afraid of it. I most certainly am. And that's become a problem. I'm afraid to speak my mind because i'm afraid of what people might think and i'm afraid of what they might say. Even the simplest thing, like if a teacher asks the class a question and i know the answer, i still can't answer them. even when i know i'm right i just can't speak my mind. I'm afraid to be myself because im scared society will rej...

20 August 2015, 09:23 AM
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"would it be wrong to say i missed you"

i miss you. an insane amount. when i saw your name pop up on my screen my heart skipped a beat. i just have a bad feeling. i admit, i'm not sure you mean the best. i'm really hoping you do though. because i haven't stopped thinking about you since day 1...

19 August 2015, 09:29 AM
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goodnight

ok, sorry for all my ranting, like i said im new to this. i just have a lot on my mind but this is definitely helping me

18 August 2015, 09:44 AM
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control

everyday i think about. you never leave my mind. i constantly check your instagram and snappchat to see how youre doing and what youre up to. but its torturing me. insanely and completely. i never knew one person can hold that much power of another persons head. i didnt know it was possible to make a person feel so vulnerable and sad.

18 August 2015, 09:43 AM
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you know, you were something else. i admit you were my first love. i admit you made me feel a certain way that every girl wants to feel. but the thing that i dont understand is why... why would you cheat. why would you even want to do that to someone who has been nothing but kind and understanding to you. i dont understand how you let me love you. i dont understand why you let me love you. i tried so hard with you, i admit sometimes i didn't give it my all but once i did, once i opened up to ...

18 August 2015, 09:36 AM
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i don't know what i did wrong. I fell so hard and so fast for him. he made me feel this certain way, but then one day "i think we should talk" the text that popped up on my phone. what happened to "you'll be my forever" "i'll always be here for you" what happened to all the promises you made? i dont understand. i get it, you just wanted sex and i wasn't giving that up to you but why keep leading me on and making me feel like i was someone who was important. i dont know sometimes i feel like i...

18 August 2015, 09:25 AM
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Mom

of course i love her. unconditionally and endlessly. but lately i feel so caught up in this whole divorce mess that i forgot what it was like to love. i forgot what it was like to feel loved. i feel lonely and sad and i feel like i've become so immune to all this crap that it doesn't even phase me anymore. i used to be so happy and bubbly, and i admit.. i still am but now it's just for show. i just smile so people don't ask me what's wrong.. not that they did anyways. i laugh at the things th...

18 August 2015, 09:14 AM
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Home

about 4 years ago, everything seemed so perfect, so fine. I never had to worry about which house I'd be spending my Christmas at or whose house im staying at for the week. I remember being a happy family. Divorce was never a part of the equation. Now its the whole problem.

18 August 2015, 09:09 AM
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New

Blogging is new to me... I don't usually write out my problems. But lately I feel like I have so many problems writing them all out is probably a good idea. I can track my transformation and record everyday life experiences and you all get to take a peak into my life.

18 August 2015, 09:03 AM
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