IT HURTS

So, I just watched a movie that made me feel so bad!! My tears won't stop falling and it's like breaking my heart into pieces! It made me remember all the buried memories and pain! It also made me remember the happy moments, and that made it even more painful!!! But I don't regret watching it, it's a slap in the face kind of movie, but it is indeed the reality.

24 September 2019, 06:32 PM
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Learning to Control my Temper.

I think I have been trying my best to control my temper my whole life, it's probably the most difficult thing for me to do. I don't even know where my anger issues came from, but I do know that both my parents are not the patient type as well. So I guess it's the genes? Hmm.. I'm just lucky I have those understanding people around me. I really thank them a lot for sticking around despite my uncontrollable behavior.

22 July 2019, 03:13 PM
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Stoicism

Stupidity is all over, people who are so full of themselves are always around, and manipulative bastards are just waiting out there to bite you. Harsh world. And I can only think of one thing to survive it. DO NOT CARE. Easy? Not. But, I want to live that way. I hate all of these emotions in me. I just want to live peacefully.

10 February 2019, 11:56 AM
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EXTRA.

300119: After a long while, my hidden spontaneity just came out of nowhere. And when I say spontaneous, it is not the normal kind of spontaneous, but the extreme kind.;) It was a surprise to most people around me, since they only knew me for a year or two, and I don't really reveal myself to people unless I feel like I could trust them. I know my friends go through a lot just to convince me to go out, and if I do go out, they also go through some trouble just to make me stay longer. When my f...

03 February 2019, 07:28 AM
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Why is it so easy for me to make someone else happy but not myself?

Isn't it nice to hear someone say that you make them happy? Making other people happy even though you're dying inside is really something, somehow it makes me kinda happy as well.

20 December 2018, 07:57 AM
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=D

12 December 2018, 03:33 PM
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12 December 2018, 03:31 PM
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Fuck!

And yet again, I am having this moment of pondering about my life. I feel like a mess! I'm so fucked up! This life is too damn worthless for me! I have a job which is suppose to be a noble one, but who cares?! People don't even bother seeing the importance of it. Even my own fucking parent don't even care. Like, what the hell is that kind of job? Is it even important?! I work til I feel like dying sometimes but still no one cares! No amount of encouragement can make me feel better now. I'd ra...

12 December 2018, 03:17 AM
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Happiness ☀

A lot of things happened, the fckng UPS and DOWNS, but one thing remained the same, that these guys are still the source of light in my life. I hope they keep on shining, so I can keep on moving.☻ ♡If we're together , even the desert becomes the sea♡

20 November 2018, 04:13 PM
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Let Go

It's almost been 4 months now, since I decided to just leave it all behind. No single word was given. I tried to just not give a fuck anymore, "again", and luckily...I guess I managed it now. It was so hard for me before but I thought to myself, I don't care anymore. I already accepted that I'm the bad one here and that set me free. I may be evil, but I surely don't regret it.

20 November 2018, 03:39 PM
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SORRY

Someone will love you, but someone isn't me.

20 November 2018, 03:32 PM
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Thank God there's BTS

I still have these moments when I feel sad, anxious, irritated, and worthless for no reason at all. But the existence of these guys, made my life manageable. As long as they are there, making music and entertainment, I know I can go on.^_^ ~euphoria

11 August 2018, 07:16 AM
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Orange

When I was a child, I remember being attracted to the color orange so much. It just looks so good to my eyes. Not a lot of people likes this color, maybe because it's too bright or something. As a child, I was a free spirit and I was always happy. When I was growing up, my color preference have changed. I liked pink, then after a while I hated it and I really dunno why. When I was a teenager up to my early 20's, I loved blue so much and also black. And now, in my late 20's, I began to love or...

17 January 2018, 05:12 AM
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It's nice that this is working again ^^

17 January 2018, 04:57 AM
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ATTACHMENT

I am not in love, I'm just attached because nobody ever made me feel this way but him. 11/17/2017

17 January 2018, 04:41 AM
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BECAUSE THIS IS MY FIRST LIFE

That is the title of the Korean drama I am watching right now. It's the most relatable drama I've ever seen so far. It conveys a roller coaster of emotions, emotions familiar to people like me. People who doesn't have much experience about love and people who thinks love is overrated. It's funny how I can relate to both characters, and it's funnier how I can relate those characters with what's happening/happened to me and the guy I like. Yes, I said it. I like him. No matter how hard I deny i...

17 January 2018, 04:36 AM
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BIRTHDAY

It was my birthday yesterday and I chose to go to work instead of relaxing at home, but I didn't regret it a single bit. I was happy, I rendered care and saw babies born at the same day with me. I was also with my friends at work who I know loves me. Although it was only the 3 of us, it was amazing! 10/20/2017

17 January 2018, 04:33 AM
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Friends

So I'm friendly with everyone at work but I'm also someone who ain't afraid to speak my mind when I find something wrong. I guess they see me as someone outgoing but also someone not to be messed with. I actually like that a lot. I think it's actually my goal to be branded that way at work. I don't like people having hard feelings on me but I also don't like it if they depend on me. That's why as much as possible I don't want close attachment from anyone at work, but I guess a few of them are...

17 January 2018, 04:31 AM
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Better

So I'm feeling more better now and I replied to him as well. I dunno why but still just can't let him go although I am already so done with him. I don't think I still love him tho. I think it's because no matter how much he disappoints me, I know he's still there, he's the one who will never ditch me for no reason, maybe he's not always available but I know I can always count on him. I know this has been going over and over for a year now and I also think I'm stupid, but what can I say, thing...

17 January 2018, 04:31 AM
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Reply

He's back, but I'm so done with him. I'll just leave it at that and shut my mouth before something bad happens, he knows I'm not well anyway. 10/06/2017

17 January 2018, 04:30 AM
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