And the funny thing is that, I am the one making a way for him to inflict the pain. Stupid isn't it? But that's my way of reminding myself that he's not worth it. A total waste of time.
My whole day is ruined! I thought I'll be okay but I'm still pissed off til now! I'm going to sleep this off and I hope tomorrow when I wake up, I'll be fine...>.<
I tried to hold on to you once but you'll never see me doing it again coz I'm not the type of girl to chase guys, never have been and never will be.
That "me" time, the "alone" time. That moment when I just don't care about the world and I'll just stay in my room, put my mobile phone in silent, listen to some good music, lay in my bed and stare at the ceiling for hours, browse whatever's on the internet or watch something random. I am having that moment right now, and it's one of the most wonderful feelings in the world.^_^
I really am a true INFJ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
So that's why when you've hurt me too much and I don't bother getting angry anymore, be afraid, be very afraid coz when I say it's over, it's really over, and there's no turning back.
I'm !@#$% TIRED!
Work was so exhausting today, my hand and feet hurts! But I don't feel bad though, I'm just tired..x____x
So...it's been what? Almost 8 months since I reached for that very thin thread...hmmm...there are moments where I still can't believe that I'm living this way right now. It feels like a dream sometimes. We definitely do have the strength within ourselves, it's just up to us if we'll use it or put it to waste. Let's all bear in mind that giving up is not an option!;)
I'm sorry for always doubting you.T^T Just like I told you earlier, I don't want you to change, so please don't ever change and don't get tired of me.T^T I'm amazed how you can feel my worries without me telling you, you're one of a kind, and I'm so lucky to have you. You always tell me not to leave you, and although I don't say it, I don't want you to leave me either.T^T ILY!♥
Lately I feel like I'm the one who gives too much effort for us. I hate this and it makes me miss you so bad, but I guess you got tired of me coz I know I'm really hard to deal with. Maybe I should treat you like before again, maybe you want that way better. From now on I won't give my all anymore, I'll just be here, so please just tell me if we can still be the same again.:(
Dafuq I didn't even know there's this thing called DUDEZONED o.0, so now I realized why he got so annoyed when I called him dude last time! Lol!