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For you crazy!♥ ❤ ❥ ❣ ❦ ❧

*04.24.2016

08 July 2016, 05:13 AM
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HAPPY!!!

I received a good news today and the first person I ran to, to share the news is my mom. The second one is my friend. I did share the news to my friend first but the truth is, you are the second person that came to my mind. I wanna tell you how happy I am right now, but I couldn't do it because of the lie I told you.:/ When I receive the final verdict, I'll definitely be proud to tell you what I really am. There will be no more lies. I'll be more open to you. I'll just don't care about the ot...

08 July 2016, 05:08 AM
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@_@

I think I'm falling for you but I don't know if you've realized it, I've been controlling myself so hard. I wanna be sweet to you and tell you how I adore you, but I know I shouldn't. If I tell you, you could be mine but that's going to be complicated and we could hurt each other, and worse, you'll forever be gone. I want you but I need to stop myself from needing you. You're one of a kind, a girl would be really lucky to have someone who's so loving like you. Your intelligence, child-like at...

08 July 2016, 05:06 AM
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Honestly...

I'll be honest with myself, I am lonely. I want to experience how to love and to be loved, but at the same time I don't want to. I hate the thought of it! I know I have a very complicated heart and an even more complicated mind. Surely, I am capable of loving but I just couldn't do it, my own self prevents me. I tend to push away those people who start to care, sometimes I also give them false hope. So when they eventually ditch me it's like I couldn't care less, I'm very good at pretending l...

08 July 2016, 05:04 AM
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The Messenger

These past few days I've been feeling low and kind of feeling bad for myself but then I met someone the other day and she made me realize some things. I already am lucky but I just couldn't embrace it that much. I guess lord really made me meet her so that I can think straight. She's been through a lot but she still got this beautiful smile on her face like she's so happy and satisfied. When I think of everything she told me it's like I hate myself for being so ungrateful. Now, I'll be more p...

08 July 2016, 05:04 AM
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*02.?.2016

08 July 2016, 05:03 AM
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*02.?.2016

08 July 2016, 05:00 AM
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I FUCKED UP!

So now I made you mad, I'm so stupid and you're too sensitive. I hate myself right now! I really feel like crying. You're so mean! *01.25.2016

08 July 2016, 04:54 AM
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FROM THE START

It wasn't really smooth sailing, we've already argued a lot since the first time we talked. Eventually we found out our differences and the things we both like, we accepted each other, but it has just been 3/4 months and we are already drifting apart. You say I'm weird but you are more weird, you just don't see it, and I don't wanna tell you coz you're insecure and you might get depressed. I'm trying my best to fit into your life, but now I'm just so tired, I'm letting go. Let's see if you ma...

08 July 2016, 04:53 AM
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LIES

I lied to him, covering my flaws, acting proud and confident. At times I make him feel insecure, but the truth is, I'm the one who's more insecure. As time pass, we become closer and it's harder to lie, but I still do it. I have to, just to feel fine. I'm just a stranger anyway, a girl from the other half of the world, he'll be under my lies, he will never know. But we'll never be, never ever be, real friends because of my lies. *01.08.2016

08 July 2016, 04:52 AM
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Was it really broken though? I guess it's too early for me to act that way.xD *01.?.2016

08 July 2016, 04:50 AM
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*01.?.2016

08 July 2016, 04:49 AM
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The moment I just want to quit...but still held on. *12.?.2015

08 July 2016, 04:48 AM
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*11.?.2015

08 July 2016, 04:46 AM
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*11.14.2015

08 July 2016, 04:42 AM
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OKAY

It's a state where one isn't happy nor sad, or one is happy yet at the same time sad. Quite confusing right? But that's how our emotions work, it is wondrously frightening. If I were to choose my emotions, I would never settle for okay. I'd rather be sad than okay, at least I am certain about how I really feel. Being okay is like being in a limbo, you actually don't know where you really are, what you are, and if it does really exist. Sometimes being okay is just the same as being blank, and ...

08 July 2016, 04:40 AM
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Yaaay!!!

I'm so happy it's been fixed! Got so much to post! ^___^

07 July 2016, 04:48 PM
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I DID IT!

STOP overthinking! STOP comparing yourself to others! STOP saying you can't! START counting your blessings! START loving yourself more! START following your heart! It was hard but I managed, I hope others can do it too!:)

03 September 2015, 05:07 PM
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OMG!!!

We had a close proximity earlier and I was able to touch his hand a bit. I just found out that he's got an enormous mole on his face or maybe it was a skin infection, no wonder he's always been wearing that mask lately even if it's not necessary!Lol.. He's still handsome for me though.^_^ #mymedtechcrush

03 September 2015, 04:46 PM
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#mymedtechcrush

Behind those mask is a handsome young man, but I didn't like him because of that... I liked him when I saw how dorky he is and for making me laugh!:3 Thank you for energizing my sleepless night at work! I'm hoping to know you better...

01 September 2015, 07:10 AM
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