One thing that I hate doing the most is WAITING, and yesterday I gathered all my patience and kept my calm even though it was really hard! I wasted my time... or let's say my fucking life for nothing!
Insecure and Depressed
Tomorrow will be a crucial day, I'm either going to live my life in a normal way again or fall into depression even further. All I can do now is hope for the best. Thy will be done!
I've been denying this for a very long time, but now I just can't take it anymore! The depression I've hidden inside is bursting and it's hard to control! I just want to scream, cry, and be alone right now! I guess that's the only way to make me feel better, but I don't think I can ever do those things so I'll just keep breathing and slowly rot in here...
I had a semi-serious conversation with two of my friends a few days ago and they unexpectedly gave me some words of wisdom, one of them told me that life is meant to be lived forward and the other one said that we should strive hard so that we can fend for ourselves. Although I still ponder about the path I will take, those words really did lift up my spirits and I'll forever thank them for it!^^
I really love gummy and jelly candies, they make me happy!(♥ω♥*) Luckily, this ain't Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans, so no vomit nor earwax flavor for me!lol..
BTS (Bangtan Boys/Bangtan Sonyeondan)
After hearing their song Boy In Luv, I couldn't help but fall in love!xD I've been fond of K-pop recently and I listen to a lot of songs from different groups, mainly boy groups since most girl groups have that cutesy style which I don't really find entertaining. I've listened to older K-pop groups before like Super Junior and others, but after several years I decided to take a peek on the newer one's, so there's Infinite, at first their songs didn't really have an impact to me but the more I...
I watched this drama after watching Running Man wherein the guest was Lee Jong-suk, I can see a really good leading man potential on him that's why I decided to try watching his drama. I didn't expect something spectacular since Park Shin-hye was his partner, and I'm used to seeing her doing a cutesy kind of role. I was so surprised this time because she's really tough in here and her acting was really great! And Jong-suk, damn this guy, every time his tears flow, my tears flow as well! Actua...
I won't come back!!!
...hopefully! Finally I was able to pay all my debts and now I'm free from it and I'm just so happy! I really hate having debts but what can I do my salary was not enough for the past few months so I needed help to keep on living! I just hope I could save up starting today and be able to accomplish the plans I made with my best friends.
Bruises! Rope Burns! Sore Muscles!
All because of a Rope Course! It was difficult, a bit scary, and tiring, but I'll definitely do it again!!!(๑>ᴗ<๑)
I know I messed up! I'm pretty sure I failed that ****ing interview earlier! I think I will be the luckiest person on earth if I happen to pass that one!ヾ(-_-;)
I don't have that cheerful spirit in me, the one who is always excited for Christmas and having that energy pumping through my veins. I was looking for it since last week, but meh...it never came.:/ Maybe it's because of my dog who just passed away or maybe it's because everyone surrounding me doesn't seem to have that spirit as well. I was kind of glad after seeing my cousins because we had some fun conversations, but then when it was all over, I'm back to my gloomy mood again. Hmmm...I don'...
This is one of the saddest days of my life. It's really painful, I can't explain how bad I feel. My dog died, she was an awesome dog, the most intelligent and the nicest among my five dogs. I can't seem to embrace the fact that she's gone now. I can't hear her voice beside me anymore, I can't see her and play with her. She won't be there to hug me and I can't cuddle her no more. I know I wasn't a good owner because if I was, she would still be here, but what I am sure of is that I love her so...