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Sometimes I Wish

Sometimes I wish we had done 'it' just to see what it would have felt like just to see how much love was in it. Also maybe you would have realized how much you did love me. I wanted to no what your body felt like all the touches and movement. How we would have worked together. Sometimes I wished I would have kissed you right then and there to let you know I care to let you see what I felt. Maybe you would have loved me more. Sometimes I wish I tried a little harder for us made a little more e...

22 June 2014, 11:30 PM
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I got so used to the pain you gave me. The pain that became normal that was what I though was love. This pain is how you proved you cared. This pain is what I craved from you maybe its why I still stick around even after everything. Please understand I still love you.

31 May 2014, 12:18 AM
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You Don't Care

Exactly you don't care because if you did care about me you wouldn't have left me the first time, and if you really did care you would listen to what I say and catch the hints I give you. The hints that I still love you that I still do things to myself to ease my pain. You ignore it I don't no if its you just don't want to think of me like that or you really just don't care anymore. I love you </3

29 May 2014, 04:19 AM
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Alone Again

You text me and talk to me asking why I don't want to talk to you any more. I say that its not me that doesn't want to talk to you its you that doesn't want to talk to me. Then you stop responding and I text you back again asking why you don't want to talk to me you say that your just falling asleep. In the end I'm sitting here saying ok I'll go. But what I really wanted to say to you was ok I'll go like I always do because you say you still love me then push me away and now I'm alone again b...

24 May 2014, 02:39 AM
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Falling In Love

I can still remember falling in love with you… we were in class and you were across the room. I looked at you and saw you had my book once again, but i wasn't annoyed and i don't no why i wasn't i just wasn't. I went over to you to get in back and you grabbed a hold of my hips and swung me around. I remember you touch sent shivers up my spine and i wanted to have that feeling again. Then i didn't realize what had happened. But now looking back on it i realize that that was the day i fell in l...

18 May 2014, 03:24 AM
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FUCKING LAIRS!

You want to know what I fucking hate LAIRS! Like what the fuck don't you have a fucking life! Isn't there something else you can do with your life OTHER than trying to fuck mine up? What made you this way? Did someone fuck u up? If they did YOU WENT THROUGH THIS KIND OF PAIN TOO! Why in the world would you want to watch some one else GO THROUGH THAT PAIN! Your just sick fucking sick in the head! Your a living breathing piece of fucking shit!!! UGH why the fuck do I have such bad fucking judge...

15 April 2014, 03:30 AM
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Love

Everything I have ever said about love was crap. I’m not afraid of rejection I can brush that off easy. It not that I don’t want to love I do. The truth is when I think of love I think of this is real this is going to last. I think that I’m not good enough for it and that I don’t deserve things that last. To me love is maybe not forever but some one that came into your life that you will never forget. And I want to be able to forget. I don’t want to remember things and feel the pain again.

15 March 2014, 02:07 PM
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I want

I want to be with you alone in your room. I want you to push me up again the wall and kiss me like I’m all you want and ever will want. I want to feel your breath on my neck and I brush of your lips against my skin. I want you to drive me mad and have me beg you to kiss me again. I want you to lift me off the ground and ill wrap my legs around your waist. I want you to push me hard against that wall and passionately kiss my lips. I want you to be aggressive with me and tell me I’m yours and o...

14 March 2014, 06:07 PM
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Not Easy

I’m an easy person to fall for but not easy to stay with.

14 March 2014, 05:14 AM
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Why Is This Me

Why is this world so cruel, or is it me that I am too weak to live in it? Being depressed and hurting the people I care about, because of one small thing that scares me. I’m clingy and I need constant attention to keep me satisfied. But I hate the attention I hate all eyes on me. When all the eyes are on me I feel as if everyone can see my scars and that everyone is judging me. I need to be reassured all the time that I’m not annoying you, but I know I am. I hate being clingy I hate being all...

10 March 2014, 03:23 PM
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Fucked Things Up

Wow did I fuck up this time. I don’t think I have even made things this bad before. All I can say is sorry man did I fuck shit up big time.

10 March 2014, 03:04 AM
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Sliver And Special Paper

I take the sliver and draw on my special paper It comes out red Dry your eyes What you wanna do is bad its suicide That sliver cold to the touch The red magic it’s sticky and smells of rust Here I am dancing to a song in my head The figure eights on skin Words worthless scream in my head Drying my eyes and taking a knife The sliver on my special paper The sliver is my knife The paper my skin The deep gashes carving in The sticky red magic that beads to the surface after each cut Show how ...

04 February 2014, 11:47 PM
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Ride Or Die

You and me- it’s a ride or die kinda thing I’m with you- and you… your with me We keep our eyes wide open to see what the world is made of We keep our hearts wide open to love who created us We fight- you and me We fight- because no one wants us together Divide and concur- that’s what they taught us Divide from our sisters, brothers Ride or die that’s how we live Off the roads we are just kids It true were different in so many ways Bad boy that’s smart on the streets- good girl that can be q...

04 February 2014, 09:06 PM
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Fight

I’m a fighter My past is this lighter All the burns and scars From nights not that far The cuts and bruises The nights that were useless All the pain in my heart from people that tore me apart The lies that were told to me synched my heart The high I get puts me to rest When I’m in pain on my body not my soul I feel my best The pills I take make me drift away If this pain in my heart was to end make it today Staring at the ceiling Crying out my feelings Rage is all I see Rage it fills my ...

03 February 2014, 10:22 PM
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3 loves: josi_campos13,LostSadShyGirl,secretgamershsh
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Never Take Me Back

I'm in love with a man I can't have.... And he will never take me back I just no it.

02 February 2014, 05:46 AM
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Why Love?

I have fallen in love many times over, but why did every damn time have to be with you?

01 February 2014, 11:57 PM
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Scars

I'm broken and confused. I fight this fight but I'm gonna just lose. Theirs a razor in my hand, and blood on the floor. Theirs a knock at my door. I jump up in a hurry. Put the razor in a box and throw a blanket across the floor. I pull down my black sleeves so no one see me bleed. I put on a happy face and greet who every with a soft smile. We talk then that person leaves. I make a be-line run for the bathroom locking the door and tossing the keys. Cleaning the blood up from my arm. Seeing t...

27 January 2014, 04:08 PM
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Tonight

Well tonight wasn’t a good one. I took the razor out again. I sat there and said I can’t do it. You have been doing so well. Then there was the bigger voice one yelling you’re a piece of shit just cut open your leg and watch the blood. I said it would be small and it was but still that means nothing. I cut two times one above the other both really small but both still really bleed. Why can’t I be normal? Why do I have to hurt myself to feel better? I can still feel the achy feeling in my leg ...

27 January 2014, 05:30 AM
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How I Feel

I tired of feeling worthless empty and confused. With everything I do I lose. I’m falling fast when you say what you do. My life is a mess these demons fighting in my head. The night is dark the black consumes. One drag across my skin and the blood ooze. Run from place to place no home I have. Living out of a fucking bag. I sleep on a couch I don’t have my own bed. No one would care about me in the end. Bruises cover my body and scars hold their stories. Always up past midnight cause my sou...

27 January 2014, 04:56 AM
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Numb

I have just realized that I am numb. I am numb to everything and everyone. Thinking about the boy I love, the boy I broke up with, and I'm just numb to everything. I'm not sad I'm not happy. It's just a dull feeling in my heart and I can't feel. I can’t cry anymore all my tears are gone. I just have a black hole where my heart once was. It’s covered in ice and locked away from everyone and everything. I don’t feel the sadness anymore. All I feel is raw anger. But there’s nothing I can do abou...

25 January 2014, 07:20 PM
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