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England

You know what sounds nice right now? England. Yes oh so very nice. I want to go to there. See Big Ben, the Eiffel Tower, Buckingham palace, Stonehenge, London bridge, and many, many more places. I wanna fall in love and then fall in love again. Pairs, France, London, all of them. live there, and dream there. Maybe get married. I don't know but it does sound fun. Maybe I can be a model, or photographer? Sounds fun. That's were I wanna be.

02 December 2013, 02:55 AM
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You Have To Be Kidding

So I guess it's my fault now?! You know what I don't fucking care anymore. Go get a hoe and get fucked up or locked up. Cause I'm all good here I'm having my fun and I got my friends! Unlike your friends mine are down for life. So you know what fuck your feeling cause I don't care. So lets be honest I'm better off now and you are not my problem anymore So it's all good it's all fine. I'm going to live my life and now I know I'm done I don't care about you anymore. :-)

01 December 2013, 07:28 PM
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Ex-....

I want you to meet my ex-best friend. He meant a lot to me. I would call him up crying and I could tell him anything. Some where along the line I feel in love with him. One night I told him that. I said remember all the times you told me I needed a boyfriend and asked me who I like? I would always tell you no and I didn't like anyone? That was a lie cause I loved you. Me and him started to date and we fell in love more and more, till one day he stopped trying. I always ask him to work things ...

30 November 2013, 03:00 AM
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Waiting

I'm still waiting for the guy that says I can't promise I won't hurt you because that would be a lie but what I will promise is that I'll do everything in my power to make you not hurt anymore and to see your smile again.

29 November 2013, 08:31 AM
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Trust

I'm careful with who I trust. The devil was once an angel too. If I trust you, you are lucky cause I don't just trust anyone. If I trust you it's with my whole heart, and once I trust you it takes a lot for that trust to go away, cause there was a reason in the first place that I trusted you. If you brake my trust I wont ever trust you again. I trust a small amount of people, few friends 3 to be exact and a ex-boyfriend of mine. I don't know why but I still do trust him. I'm very careful with...

28 November 2013, 06:29 AM
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Meaningless

The silence is piercing and the word meaningless.

27 November 2013, 01:08 AM
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Feary Tails

I think my heads so lost in fairy tails and dreams because all I really seem to ever do is read. I got these big ideas stuck in my head. Like princesses and pixies above my bed, coming in throw my window at night, and pirates having sword fights. You think I’m crazy and that’s quite alright. I’m different and running from the light. But I’m having my fun tonight.

27 November 2013, 01:00 AM
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You Lied

You lied, you said you would fight for me but where are you now? You lied, you said you love me but where’s the love now? You lied, you said you cared but I don't feel any care. You lied, trying to be my friend again no I won’t be yours. You lied, you were my everything but I know now I was your nothing. You lied, you said you would never let me leave. You lied, you said you would make me happy. You lied, you said we would make it. You lied! And now you’re the reason I’m gone! You lied, and y...

26 November 2013, 09:21 PM
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Only Once

I'll only try something once. If it didn't work out the first time why try it again? Why make your self suffer with the though of it could work again? It didn't work the first time it wont ever work. Cause once somethings gone it can never be the same way again.

24 November 2013, 05:59 PM
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What Are You Doing??

You made me feel like a fool so I left you. Now your talking to me like I'm your best friend again? What is wrong with you? I purred out my heart to you and let you in. You screwed up that's not my fault its yours. We're over your not my friend. You never will be again. You can't be friends with someone you love. I know I still love you so I can't be your best friend again, nor can you be mine.

24 November 2013, 07:10 AM
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You

All we have been throw all the trouble we got into all the lies we told to see each other you broke my heart and made me suffer.

24 November 2013, 03:35 AM
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Voices

Scared and confused. How do you run from the voices in your head? You don't there always there. You can turn your music up as high as it will go but once you unplug it they are back. The voices are in your head and there the dark parts of your mind. There the monsters in your head and there the ones always making you hurt yourself. You don't tell yourself your not pretty or smart, your not the one saying you should die that the world would keep moving on without you it might even be better. N...

17 November 2013, 05:52 AM
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I’m Me And Proud To Be!!

Hey you! Yea you, the one reading this. I’m me and proud to be!!!! I’m a 14-year-old girl. My favorite colors are purple, black, red, blue, and neon green. I’m awesome and crazy. I love my friends and my family. I wear band tees, jeans, and dark colors with some neon’s. I love animals and I want to fly. I love sleeping and reading. But most of all I’m a soccer girl. When I was young I never heard people talk about me. That’s probably because when kids we never notice those kind of things. But...

15 November 2013, 10:55 PM
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Tired Of It All

I'm tired. I'm just so tired of it all. Just tired. I want to leave. I'm just tired. Tired of it all. Tired of not being good enough. Tired of not being the perfect daughter. Tired of not being the perfect girlfriend. Tired of not being the smartest. Tired of not being the strongest. Tired of not being the Fastest. Tired of not being the prettiest. Tired of not being the wisest. Tired of people wanting me to be the perfect girl. I'm to tired for this. I'm to tired to keep pretending. I'm tire...

11 November 2013, 07:06 AM
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Hate

I hate when people forget about you until they want something. Like they never call you, hang out with you, or talk to you unless they are bored or want something from you. I hate that people I love do this to me all the time. I hate it. But I keep letting it happen over and over again. But everyone forgets about me until they need something.

09 November 2013, 06:49 PM
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Depression

Depression is hard. I'm not the type to cry, or get sad. I just get very mad. It's hard for me to be happy for long. Anger is my relief, and I take my anger out on myself. It's a bad habit I must brake. But honestly its the only thing that keeps me sane.

01 November 2013, 11:19 PM
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Supposed To Be This Way

I just kind of sit some times and think about life. About the wrongs I’ve done and the rights. I think about the achievements I’ve achievements and realize they really don’t mean anything to me because I’ve grown to learn to expect that from myself. So while everyone else is proud of me I’m like why are all you so proud? This is supposed to happen. I’m supposed to get these grades or behave this way, I’m supposed to be this smart or be healthy. I don’t understand why everyone thinks I’m smart...

26 October 2013, 01:57 AM
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Dreamer

I'm a girl. I can get emotional, and act strange, I can be rude one minute, and kind the next. My personality depends on who you are and how you treat me. I'm just like anyone else and then I'm also very different. I'm a dreamer. Just a girl trying to make it through this life. I make it through by dreaming. I dream for freedom, and hope, I dream of love and life, I dream just to dream. My life is what I make it. I'm just another girl, but the difference about me from all the other 'normal' g...

22 October 2013, 04:17 AM
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Losing

I don't know if you understand or if you every will. I may seen like the rock the one that can't be hurt but pushing my so far over the edge that im craving the pain and blood again? Pushing me so hard that I feel that the only thing that will keep me sane is the pain? There are so many marks on my body that I'm not ready for anyone to see yet. I don't know if you understand me I don't know if you have ever felt my pain. I don't know what to do anymore.

21 October 2013, 11:28 PM
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Family

If theirs one thing I love about my family it is that were not normal in the least bit. But that's the amazing part about it we all have our different personality's and ideas, but some how we still love each other unconditionally. But that's the best part about it because a normal family would bore me to tears, and this family is crazy different. This is the family I was born into, not the ones I picked, and honestly I couldn't have asked for a better one. Cause even though everything we have...

20 October 2013, 04:04 AM
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