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My Name Is...

My personality is stubborn, hard headed, and freedom seeking. I hate the word no. It’s just something I don’t like to hear, and you never tell me something is impossible because if you do I will try everything to make it possible if only for once. I have trust issues and have a commitment ship problem. I barely ever trust people and as for commitment, it’s not a strong point for me I need my ability to feel free. As a child my parents weren’t like all the others. Really most of my memories we...

20 October 2013, 02:05 AM
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Pretending

Tired of being looked down on and judged. Tired of people being so mean. Tired of pretending for people.

20 October 2013, 01:43 AM
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Lies

Lovely little lies. Something hidden deep inside. These dark thoughts in my head. Screaming things like EVERYONE WANTS YOU DEAD. But I'm still holding onto my hope.

16 October 2013, 05:15 AM
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Hope Is Gone

Hope is something I leave behind me in a time of need!

16 October 2013, 05:09 AM
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Gonna Leave This World

Try living in a new world!

16 October 2013, 05:07 AM
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All The Hate

My pen writes my feelings down tonight whats in my heart that I hide, and who I try to fight nothings ok. Nothings alright. I try to love but I can't fight. I cry every night a little more to let my mind sleep. I'm tired in my head but my body's always ready for a fight. I run to escape but I always have to come back. I hate you! I Hate You! My minds made up I'm leaving tonight. I'm leaving this life. I want to be with you but you don't want me too. I feel the love you give me. It's bull-crap...

16 October 2013, 05:03 AM
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Damned World

It's all in my head. I scream I yell no one listen anyways. Living in a damned world. Living with fear in your heart! It's all in your head they say well I yell back it's a DAMNED WORLD WE LIVE IN!!

14 October 2013, 03:38 AM
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My Past

You know what I hate the most? When people bring up my past. It’s my past and it belongs in the past. You don’t have a right to judge me unless you’re perfect. And the last time I checked you’re far from it. I understand that there are things I’ve done in my past that are horrible. I understand that I’ve done things that have hurt people badly and hurt myself. But I’ve shared this with you hoping you would understand that this is who I am. But you keep bring it up and stabbing me in the back ...

12 October 2013, 04:22 AM
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Friends

I don’t think my friends understand how much I do for them. I would drop anything for them. Stop and listen give up my own happiness so I can help them. I would put my needs aside and be there for them. I would give up the things I want the things I deserve for them. I would make sure there are happy before I even consider myself. My friends mean everything to me. And I would give up anything for them.

12 October 2013, 04:21 AM
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The Running

Torn jeans and a tank top black and red, was all she wore, her jet black hair flowing in the wind. She stood on the ledge of the cliff. Looking down into the water. There was a reflection of the full moon. She looked up into the air a gust of wind blew from her back side and her hair wiped this way and that. She looked up with a startled look on her face then pain. She looked down upon at me from the cliff. There looked to be envy in her eyes and a painful smile that only was in her eyes the ...

06 October 2013, 10:55 PM
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This is THE DARE!

This is the dare. I want all of you ever single last one to listen to it. Cause I have done it and I want you all to too. This is how it goes I DARE you to be 100% you today. If you are a girl and dress up every day to fit in, today I want you to wear your sweet pants or your comfortable jeans. I want you to eat as much food today as you want. To speak your mind about how you feel. I want you to laugh and smile and not care what other people think. Run around with friends, scream and cry. Sa...

04 October 2013, 12:07 AM
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Alone

When I’m alone I can be me. I don’t worry about being judged for my personality or scars. Both mentally and physically. When I’m alone no one talks down to me or look at me with disappointment. When I’m alone I can just be. When I’m alone everything is ok. When I’m with people I have to watch how I act or how I talk or how I express myself. I can wear what I want, dance how I want, talk how I want, write how I want, read how I want, and do what I want! When I’m alone… when I’m alone I can fin...

04 October 2013, 12:06 AM
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Same things?

I don't want you to turn out like all the others. I only keep a relationship going for about a month. I'm afraid because of what he did to me. I don't like to talk about it but maybe I should. He lied to my face, cheated behind my back, told stories that were not true, got all my friends to believe him, honestly if I were them I would believe him to, I trusted him with my heart but he just up and smashed it, laughed in my face one day and said you really though I loved a stupid fuck like you?...

30 September 2013, 04:15 AM
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Do you know?

You make me happy. You make me sad. You make me feel all types of ways. Some that are even bad. I can't help but love you, you mean so much to me. I wonder if you were to read this you would understand what I mean. Your my moon light when my nights are dark, and the puddles I get to play in when my days rain, your the cool breeze in a hot summer day, and you are the hope in me. I stop to think about what I do now, the stuff that can hurt me, I stop cause I know you wouldn't want me to hurt my...

29 September 2013, 04:09 AM
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I Am The Way I Am

Sometimes I just sit down and cry. I shed a tear or two that’s in my eye. I fake a smile just to get by. There’s more to me than what meets the eye. My life’s not a horror story nor a princess’s life and all her glory. People don’t understand why I’m the way I am.

20 September 2013, 09:20 PM
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Fight

I can’t seem to fight. I can’t seem to win all I seem like I do now a days is stay in bed. What if there is so much more just outside my door. But like I said all I seem to do is stay in bed. I gotta get up I gotta go. There is so much more in this life for me than what I see. This world won’t wait for me why should I wait for it to bring some good to me. Chances are nothing good will come if I don’t get up and go off on my own.

20 September 2013, 09:18 PM
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Decisions

We all make the stupid decisions. We all take the wrong chose. We never the ones to care. When we should have been the ones all along. Maybe just maybe you know I won’t care. You know I never will you can see it in my eyes. That are so cold. You can’t seem to care. Don’t want to either. You never took a minute to think. Never took a second to care. Couldn’t even if you tried.

20 September 2013, 09:11 PM
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Life

Ever wonder how it would be if you were dead? Have you ever wonder how it is when you’re not there? Have you ever wonder why you are hear, why you are alive, why you are put into problems you have? Why you live the life you have?

20 September 2013, 09:10 PM
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Scars

The broken heals but leaves scars that will never leave.

20 September 2013, 09:08 PM
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Be You

If you stop dreaming you stop fighting for it. If you stop living you’re downed for death. If your heart is full of ice you will never open up to anyone. If you stop dreaming and fighting, if you stop living and start dyeing, if your heart is full of ice and never lets anyone in, you are not yourself. If this happened you die not trying. But that will never happen to me I won’t let it.

20 September 2013, 09:04 PM
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