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Music

Music is my escape. From the life I live here and the reality of fear. Music stops my brain from thinking. The screaming of lyrics in my ears helps me to stop worrying about my life. The music is like a shield. When it’s on nothing is wrong. When the music is off my mind wonders. When my mind wonders it becomes a very dangerous place. I think about life and where I plan on going. Love and the boy I’m falling for more each day. Family and how they all hate me. School where I fight to stay aliv...

20 September 2013, 09:01 PM
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Fucked Over

I was fucked over too many damn times. But you need to be broken to be fixed, and if something isn’t badly broke why fix it? Only when you’re on the dead line of falling apart and leaving and I’m not talking about leaving the state, I’m talking about leaving the earth. Only then will you realize you don’t give a damn anymore and let it all go. Find out who’s really there for you, and only then will you find that person that you will love, and who will love you. I’m still falling apart but tha...

20 September 2013, 08:56 PM
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Cry

My pillow is soaked with tears. My eyes are burning because of the salt. I’ve cried way too many times over the same damn things. You’re always on my mind. I promise to never leave. But damn I need to do something for me. I love you. But I’ve never cried about the same person as I have about you. Maybe it’s just me and because of how broken I am. Maybe it’s my fault normally is. It’s always my fault always has been always is always will be. I’m broken and you know this. You said I could be fi...

15 September 2013, 02:39 AM
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London

Hi, I’m 14 but in 3 months and 8 days I’m going to be 15. In 5 years I’ll be 20 and I plan to be gone! I want to live in London away from everything I know here. I think the change would be nice. Something new something different and I need something different. I want to be by myself. I don’t want anyone to come with me. I just going to pack up my stuff one night tell no one and leave. Then when I get to London I’ll call every one and tell them that I’m gone and I’ll come visit them but I’m g...

15 September 2013, 12:10 AM
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Outcasts

We were a group outcasts of the world One by one are believes were striped They didn’t come after our body’s, or tried to kill us What they wanted was for us to be like them Marching one by one in a line All too much the same from the rest no originality Our skin was inked and our hair was dyed Our ears pierced and clothes ripped We never fitted in and nor did we try During the day we will sleep That’s when they would come Take as out one by one At night we would fight See our brothers and s...

08 September 2013, 12:04 AM
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Piano Pains

The piano plays a lovely tune. Too bad that the one that I love to listen to is dead. I sit here and play. Alone and my hearts bleeding with fear of what will happen next. The deep and disturbing melody comes out. I didn’t know I was so dark inside till I was left alone. The song is slow and rhythm. The rain pours and the rope hangs just outside the window. The dress of pure black slick fans around me like a ravens wings. The piano is so dark without the right love and songs to be played. To ...

03 September 2013, 05:18 AM
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Dream

Deep in the valley there plays a little girl dressed in all gray. The color taken from her life at a very young age. She only 8 years old. Down by the creek she cries silently. Hoping for a better life. Crying for her family. In a tree at the top of a mountain she plays with her dolls that are broken. The arms gone and legs missing. She thinks that it’s like her heart that’s gone. Her dolls are alike her. She cries and holds them tight saying than when she grows up she will make a better life...

03 September 2013, 05:12 AM
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Night Sky

The forest full of live as the rain pours over head. I look up with my feet planted on the ground. The water hitting my face one drop at a time. My clothes are soaked through and my hair drips wet the trees so tall towering over my head. My world begins to spin. The sun’s setting and the skies a purple glowing. The stars are showing and the moon has risen the world is turning. Life is growing. Older we get with every second minute hour day week month year.

03 September 2013, 05:10 AM
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Breakaway

A black dress that pools at my feet. Sleeves that are longer than my arms. Lacy that’s old and strings that are tight. Pull at my waist and a veil is placed over my face. The black is blurred. The routine is old. Speak when spoken to and never muddier a word. Give thanks and wear a smile. But I look in the mirror and see the girl that I’m supposed to be but not the girl that is me. The nail polish is black and so is my hair. The life I live is a lie. Can’t they see? Now there trying to marry ...

03 September 2013, 05:07 AM
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All The Same Just Different

Run in to the blood. My arms are red and the razor is thrown aside. The water so inviting. The rooms black the tub a crystal white. I draw a baths and slide in full clothed. My arms pour blood and the clear water turns crimson red. I lay my head back and know this is the end. That worst is yet to come. In the room I am one. I’m alone. Forever this is how I end. Can’t stop it now. I’ve lost too much blood. I can see your face. It’s so clear I reach and touch you. And it feels as if you’re real.

03 September 2013, 05:00 AM
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Love

Love it’s written in many ways. Said in all languages. Felt by people. And showed by caring. Love it’s difficult but amazing. And its compassion. Love its showing and giving. It’s not taking and being selfish. Love its kisses and hugs cuddling and being yourself with each other. Love it’s something you share. Love is love and love is never go to change.

02 September 2013, 06:38 AM
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That girl

I’m that girl that keeps a smile on her face but has cried so much that the tears just don’t come out any more. I’m that girl who helps everyone with the most stupid things in the world but is the one that needs the most help. I’m that girl that can’t stand talking to people about what is wrong with her. I’m that girl that feels that people will judge her. I’m that girl that pretends that what people say about her doesn’t bother her. I’m that girl that pretends that she likes being called al...

02 September 2013, 02:38 AM
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Everything and Opposites

I’m everything and it’s opposite. I’m not jealous but don’t touch what’s mine. I’m not angry but don’t talk to me or ill kick your ass. I’m not sad but if you ask me what’s wrong one more time I’m going to bust out in tears. I can be as nice as they come and I can be as cruel as the devil. I’m perfectly good at being bad. I’m all kinds of extremes. I’m the black and white of the real world sometimes I’m the colorfulness of the rainbow and the shades of gray in-between. Once you have figured m...

30 August 2013, 06:13 AM
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Free

Want to know what I have always wanted to do? I’ve wanted to leave. I want to forget my name. I want to get a passport and some money together and go to France, Pairs, London, New York, Las Vegas, Italy, Sicily, Egypt, and everywhere else. I want to be just me and run! I want to run and see the word! I can’t stay here!! I need to explore. I want to see new cultures and learn new langues. I want to dress different and meet different people. I want to leave this place I need to get free. I want...

30 August 2013, 03:28 AM
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Real

I'm a real girl not a barbie doll. My makeup smears and some times I frown. I cry and I laugh. I'm never gonna be perfect, and if perfect is what you want then I'll have to let you down. I'm a real girl I'm strong and never fake but if you choose to pass me up well that's your mistake. I'm not a barbie girl and I stand proud of that girl I came to be, and I'll keep standing outside the crowd.

29 August 2013, 04:41 AM
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<3<3<3<3<3

The scary thing about dating is that you are either going to marry that person or break up but you keep on trying anyways

28 August 2013, 04:00 AM
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Maybe?

Maybe I'm done with u? Maybe I'm done with life? Maybe I'm done with family? Maybe I'm done with friends? Maybe I found out who really cares? Maybe I realize not a lot if not any of you do? Maybe I told who's suppose to be my best friend that I'm looking at bus schedules and said I was leaving? Maybe all she did was laugh and say yea right? Maybe all this is true? Maybe it's not? Maybe I am leaving? Maybe I'm not? Maybe I already did? Maybe I'm crying? Maybe I'm not? Maybe, may be yes and thi...

25 August 2013, 05:57 AM
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I'm......

I'm not even sad, depressed, angry, mad, or disappointed. I'm just tired. I've been though it all before. Everything it so predictable now. Everyone is. It's sad when someone can be so mean, horrible, and cruel but yet your like yea I'm used to it I've seen and heard it all before; wanna tell me something new?? I got to, want to, no NEED to find that one thing that will make me feel protected. No one in my family make me feel that way. I have to protect them same for my friends. I need some s...

23 August 2013, 04:09 AM
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Done!!!

I've came to the conclusion that I'm done! With people! Everyone! I'm so done with being told what to do! I'm so done being sad! Cause now I'm pissed! I'm done being the quite one! I'm done being the one that holds what shes gotta say! It's my turn now! You better all watch out cause I'm coming out! I'm coming out loud! Cause im DONE!!!!

22 August 2013, 06:28 AM
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Life

The jump was easy, the fall is fast, the landing hurts, the pain will pass.

22 August 2013, 12:21 AM
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