My baby pup is so sick. I've been so distraught all day long. She already has mouth cancer and she drank diet dr. pepper the other day that was left out and has been puking and lethargic ever since. We took her to the vet today and I just can't. I can't handle her not being okay. I can't live without her. Please be better, Brody :/

Mother's day

This time of year always makes me anxious. I wish I could take my mom to dinner, and talk about life with her. But she's gone. Forever..

Rum confession

I would give anything and everything to talk to my mom. I just want to talk to her about life and hear her snort laugh. Please..

Can i just rip your phone out of your hands and throw it into traffic or..

Rum Confession #2

I REALLY wish I was allowed to talk to my family. Or anyone. You get to have another girlfriend. Talk to whoever you want. Do whatever you want. But, the slightest mention of my brother having a baby, you get all upset. Make me feel like shit for even considering talking to him and me being an aunt..I literally can't do anything except go to work, come home, sit with you, grab some sort of alcohol, while you do whatever the fuck you want.. Why? Is this how love is supposed to be? I'm not sure...

Rum confession #1

I'd kill for some coke right meow.

vodka confession #4

I work all day and it kills me knowing she's talking to her other girl all day. She greets me when I come home with happy smiles and I'm just like where's the vodka?

vodka confession #4

I would give it all for just one friend to talk to. One who would really listen.

vodka confession #3

My girlfriend hasn't touched me in months because she's in love with another girl..

Vodka confession #2

I grew up in foster care because my parents were alcoholics. And now I Am an alcoholic.

Vodka confession #1

My mom committed suicide when I was 16. I still to this day don't know if it was her who pulled the trigger, or her abusive boyfriend..

Love is hard but,

At least I have my pups and a big ass bottle of vodka.

Why can't I be enough for you?

I wish I had someone to talk to. I don't understand why I can't even use my phone when my girlfriend can not only use her phone, but also talk to her other girl all day/all night whenever she pleases. These stupid double standard rules that I have to live by make me so confused. I can't even talk to my brother without her getting pissed off at me. I just don't understand these control issues. I need a friend.

I hate that my soulmate has another girlfriend. I can't express it to her because she just says "this is who I am." I don't want to change her. I love her for who she is. I just wish that I was enough for her.. I hate that everytime I see her on her phone, I know she's talking all sweetly to her other girl. I just feel so alone and angry. We haven't had sex since she's been with this other girl because I just feel so disconnected from her these days. Which sucks because she has always been th...

Happy 21!

My 90's birthday party was the shit! Everyone showed up and we all got super trashed. I did stupidly did meth and couldn't sleep for 40 something hours. It was a fun experience though. I went to my first bar earlier with the moose and bear. The bayou. My first drink was a Hurricane. Delish! I had a blackened salmon burger. Yummm. Also, my first trip to the liqour store! yay! I bought mango vodka. Which im drinking now with sprite. :) happy birthday to me!

Yay for no hangover

I don't feel like shit. Which is always great. I wish I could go a whole month without getting wasted. That would be kewl. It's not that I don't have fun. Because I usually do once i'm drunk. But It gets old doing it night after night after night....I wish I was good at anything so I could do that instead..

It's our three year anniversary and I am of course drunk.. It's finally getting warm so sitting outside in our hammock chairs listening to Jessie J is amazing. :)