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Then there were wedding bells

I can't even describe the feeling, my partner of almost eight years through our ups and downs got down on one knee and asked the question almost every girl dreams about. My response was..... (hold for suspense) If this is a joke i will punch you in the face. Followed closely by YES!!!!!!! I think you would have to know our relationship to see the funny side to it. We aren't lovey dovey but we love each other immensely, we aren't clingy but in our dyer need we have each other to cling onto, w...

15 February 2017, 02:54 AM
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Beautiful old people are works of art

On the 21st of March I said Goodbye to you Grandpa, You were taken from us very quickly, Taking with you a little bit of each of our hearts There will be no filling that hole that you left, but we will in time learn to live with a piece of us missing that belonged to you. I can’t imagine a life without you but I sure am going to live it like you’re there every step of the way. I’m going to miss that cheeky grin of yours that told us you were up to something, that grin was so contagious it was...

13 April 2015, 08:07 AM
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A Beautiful Life

Hey all if you enjoyed reading 50 Shades of Grey you will most definitely love these books Christina Laurens Beautiful series, it's a mixture of Sassy and Sexy. With some of the greatest relationships created on pages mixed with some of your wildest fantasies.I was never much of a book reader i have the shortest attention span and i could never understand how people could just read for hours and have that feeling that they couldn't put the book down until i grabbed myself Beautiful Bastard t...

09 February 2015, 07:11 AM
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Easy A

earlier this year i decided i would do 365 days of happiness, so im going to fill my page with things i love for example movie reviewing. so here goes..... Easy A... Nathanial Hawthorn once wrote a book the scarlet letter, basically the movie is based around the book in the book Hester was forced to wear the scarlet letter "A" for adultry it was a shaming from her community. In the movie Olive has done a social experiment, she has started out with a lie but turned it into something extravaga...

30 November 2014, 11:05 AM
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Easy A

earlier this year i decided i would do 365 days of happiness, so im going to fill my page with things i love for example movie reviewing. so here goes..... Easy A... Nathanial Hawthorn once wrote a book the scarlet letter, basically the movie is based around the book in the book Hester was forced to wear the scarlet letter "A" for adultry it was a shaming from her community. In the movie Olive has done a social experiment, she has started out with a lie but turned it into something extravaga...

30 November 2014, 11:05 AM
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Girl Who Wrecked Herself

Hey ya'll haven't posted in a while but i've been good. Haven't felt really down in a while trying to turn my negatives into positives, i finally found that i have a good bunch of friends around me that put me in a good mood all the time i look forward to actually leaving the house. it sounds silly but it is a huge step for me. Writing in this online diary has truly helped i feel like i am putting my feelings out there for the world to see and i don't have the fear of being judged or bullied....

15 October 2014, 10:07 AM
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The light at the end of the tunnel

My aim 365 days of happiness, i know it's a stretch from crying everyday to nothing but happiness but i refuse to get that low again. I am not saying a won't have a sad thought for that whole year i am just not going to let the sadness consume me. The more i focus on running towards the light at the end of the tunnel the more i will feel like i will never reach it. I need to believe that instead of there being light at the end of the tunnel, that i am the light a the end of the tunnel and i w...

25 August 2014, 04:47 AM
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Because I'm Happy

I need a new lease on life, i need positivity and smiles. I need people around me to lift me up and not bring me back down. I need adventure and excitement. I want to be able to say i can't remember the last time i was sad. I need to be able to leave the house and not see my house as a safety net. I need brightness and music and laughs. I need spontaneity. I need fresh air, I need to be happy!

21 August 2014, 02:47 AM
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DIY

So my last few entries have been a bit gloomy so i though i would change it up to give a wide range topics to talk about. I now own my own home and before i bought it. i use to spend my time in clothes shops, bag shops shoes etc.. now i live for going to hardware, home decor places it's all so exciting. i also go onto Pinterest which gives me great decorating idea's. I am a big movie buff so when i saw this made from pallets and cushions i absolutely fell in love. I want to do a similar thi...

13 August 2014, 03:11 AM
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Yep...

So we bought a house both working full time locked ourselves into contracts etc, bought a car, bought a dog. Now he has quite his job to go to Tafe and only working part time, so now i bring in the money to pay for our mortgage which my pay covers with a couple hundread to spare but then we have car payments, phone, electricy,gas,internet,life cover,home and contents, car insurances, Roadside assistance, private health,water, ect now tafe fee's plus shopping for food and everything else and i...

12 August 2014, 06:36 AM
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Separate the Dream from Reality

As i am getting older I'm worried more now about my mind, my memory. I don't remember much I'm constantly writing notes on my arm or my hand to try and remind myself but then i forget it's there. I could honestly watch a movie one night and by the following night i might be able to tell you the tiniest detail about what happened. It's worse when i try and think what i did last weekend. I just scare myself. Now sometimes I'm finding it hard to separate dreams from reality. Obviously the really...

10 August 2014, 01:30 AM
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He is Mine and I am His

I'm sure there are people in this world that are made for each other, not just in a way that they are Ying and Yang but i feel that some people are made to find a person that brings out the best possible person in yourself. I have found my person, he is not just my soulmate, my bestfriend, the love of my life. He is a person i depend on, i needed to find him to be able to find myself. I have been through a couple of relationships, one mainly that lead me down a dark path not in a sense that i...

24 July 2014, 01:37 AM
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Thoughts of my Thoughts

Anxiety brings a lot to the table including the peak hour traffic of thoughts that never clears. Sometimes it makes me soo emotional my mum or my boyfriend asks me why i am upset but what they don't get is that i can't even explain what is happening, they are in a perfect mind where there is a reason for everything. My mind works differently where i feel pain that can't be explained and everything i see is turned into a negative like i have to see the worst case scenario so anything better th...

22 July 2014, 12:58 AM
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Expectation vs reality

I expect to get off my fat ass and lose some weight, reality there is always an excuse to do it another day. Expectation to look good when out and about, reality wear as much black as possible to hide my fat. I can't keep doing this to myself i have no motivation at all, i hate myself and my body and i always expect myself to fail. I hope that soon i will be getting married but i don't think i could get married or let my partner marry me until i have lost this weight. I don't want to look bac...

07 July 2014, 08:29 AM
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Hope for an extraordinary life

Last night i saw The Fault In Our Stars and i have never been so upset at the movies before, it was beyond sad and it really makes you think about your life and what you plan to do with it. Whether to follow a path that is expected- save up buy a house, get married, have children or to break the rules, go of road find your own path. I have already started on the path and i am not much of a GO GETTER i like to have things planned and not really a person to spontaneously get out there and explo...

02 July 2014, 12:15 AM
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Head Explosion

The feeling you get when you feel like banging your head against a brick wall might actually give you some relief. Anxiety levels are through the roof , when someone tells you to do something a certain way then comes back 2 years later and tells you to do it another way then comes back 2 weeks later and gets you to explain why you are doing it the second way they showed you only ONLY 2 weeks ago. I feel like recording all conversations is a must if you want to last. Time to invest in one of ...

18 June 2014, 06:05 AM
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Last first resort

I need to find a way to get rid of the mess of thoughts in my head. I wish there was some sort of filing system i could organize thoughts, reminders, memories i just feel overwhelmed all of the time in constant fear that i had forgotten something important. Sometimes its only that i have forgotten something off the shopping list but it still feels like my memory is letting me down. So where do i start?? To start filing i usually overload on coloured sticky notes but not real sure that this wi...

18 June 2014, 04:12 AM
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