Frustration...

In my dilemma of living like a zombie or to give up on life I often experience frustration that makes me want to quit living altogether. I know this is not the way to give up on life so easily... but tell me what can someone do when all seems meaningless... Yesterday I went shopping with my mom and I was delighted to get her all that she wanted. .... she kept asking me about what I will purchase... believe me I just didn't felt even a remote urge to purchase anything... nothing seems to charm...

30 July 2014, 10:35 AM
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Alter-Reality!

Often I feel as though I am living and am a part of an alter-reality... that is to say different from the one that we all perceive from our senses. This is as much real as anyone would experience and claim living it. I know I might sound a bit off the track here but believe me.... there is something that would keep me on track towards that which I desire to achieve. I cannot explain it to anyone but thankfully I do have some very close friends who are helping me realize and accept all that...

24 July 2014, 10:12 AM
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My Intuition

I have always heard a soft voice, an inner urge to do something or to drop something. This happens with me often and then I realized it is my intuition speaking to me that surprisingly always comes true no matter what the given circumstances are. This time too when I was going through doldrums of emotional turmoil I felt it speak to me when I was centered. As told to me: Do not give up this is just a bend not the end. What seems to be the end is actually a new beginning and a test that you ...

22 July 2014, 08:28 AM
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Puzzle!!!

Today I stumbled upon the fact that has long been hidden from my eyes. It seems more like this time of my life is all about revelations that had been long kept under veil. Now all that was hidden is right in front of my eyes. I came to know that how someone who has malicious intent does everything to destroy happiness of another but then God sends a person who can overthrow it all. God works in ways that no one can ever understand. She did what she could but his feelings cannot be ruled out ...

22 July 2014, 08:14 AM
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Madness= Love

I know that I might be a bit obsessed or mad about the one but it is not at all justified that someone else would snatch away that is rightfully mine. Hate it that I invested all my self without any doubt or any condition and this is what I get. Now it is no longer a matter of why or why not ... now it is more about ... I deserve it. Don't know what any one else would think about it but this is how I perceive... I get what I deserve and I know what I do... I have been through a lot alread...

21 July 2014, 06:40 AM
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Feeling Abandoned...

Never in my life felt the way I am feeling right now. This pain of Abandonment pinches me each second reminding me about how my life drastically changed within 3 days that bought me nothing but immense pain. I felt the ground beneath disappear and the foundation shattered. Now even though it has been weeks I still am not on acceptance level ... I feel a part of me died... I feel sooo much abandoned by love itself.... Why? Why when we truly love with all our heart and soul that we go through...

18 July 2014, 08:59 AM
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Death...

I don't know how to put it.... death is not when someone dies it is when your dream dies while you are still alive... This piercing pain of broken shards of dream keep reminding me of the pain that I experience after my dream died. I wish I knew it .... I just cannot stand to see him with another this way... It is my place my man that the evil woman stole from me... It is hard to say or explain anyone ever how much it all meant to me and still means to me... Often I feel like a walking dead...

17 July 2014, 07:22 AM
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What Keeps Me Alive...

Dreaming and hoping for some miracle to take place in my life is what keeps me alive. Each day I get up with a renewed energy that something would happen to turn it all around in my favor. I don't know if this is what is suppose to be or what? Often I keep asking myself who's life am I living ... this is not how it was suppose to turn out at all.... who stole my dream... who took it away from me... I have no idea any longer about what is next or what might happen. Never in my life have ever ...

16 July 2014, 06:40 AM
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Just for Today

Don't know how to say this.... blessings, prayers, love & support of friends, healings by an Angel ... but today when I woke up I felt LOVE in my heart chakra... feeling of happiness and blessings flooding my entire being... as if... someone just provided that missing link to my puzzle... I am an Astral Traveler.... I often visit places, see people at distance (my loved onse and friends far away) and often I travel to distant future event... maybe it is because I saw something and felt it wit...

14 July 2014, 07:24 AM
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Dying Each Moment

Although it seems to be easy to say to another ... move on... but only the one suffering with the pain of separation knows what actually is going within them.... each moment for me seems to be a burden of memories ... hate it that my mind keeps recalling these... no matter what I do... where I go... whatever I am suppose to do... it is just there... as if reminding me ... stop living.. all is gone... I hate to admit it but the truth is that I have stopped feeling anything other than pain in m...

11 July 2014, 11:55 AM
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Crying Out Loud

Every day I try to maintain my equilibrium but my tumultuous journey to achieve my true love is what keeps me from being at peace. After years of guidance and soul search when you find The One who stirs your soul and vibrates your being you know it is true. After being continuously shown in each and every way that pointed to it, I won't let it all go waste. Either it is this that is true that I have been shown several times or I might as well end up taking therapy for it. Then it would only m...

11 July 2014, 07:15 AM
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Moral or Immoral

There is nothing that I would say is wrong when it comes to trying to get back your love. She stole him but I am not going to give up. I am still getting messages from The Universe to try and this time I will succeed. No matter what... I will do whatever it takes to fulfill and achieve my desire. I know it might sound like being desperate but dire conditions need actions that will lead to success... moral or immoral... right or wrong... I don't know... my heart is stabbed by a dagger of not f...

10 July 2014, 07:01 AM
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Heart Breaking Pain

Often we would like our life to be like a fairytale... we girls do think about it and want it that way. The part where the Princess should unite with the Prince is missing in mine. Hate it completely. This heart breaking pain is eating me up from inside... each second of my life is like a prison of painful thoughts and sweet memories. Wish I had never embarked on the journey of true love at all... not that there is no love at all or it is false but the evil witch seems to have snatched away M...

09 July 2014, 06:57 AM
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