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I think i cannot stay friends with someone for too long,. i get bored easily and i start underestimate them. Once i feel that i am not the center of the attention i just don not care about a shit of what happens with you. I don't give friends little details of my daily life unless it is so important that i want you to share it with me, So, i don't really care about yours. I hate this about me! why do i do that? I shouldn't be jealous or careless .. But i guess, I get bored of people so ...

07 June 2013, 08:24 PM
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What hurts the most for someone who never asks for anything is not having the only thing he asked for.. I have never asked for something in years! and now when i asked for it i can't have it! why?? just simply because no one care! no one care for me, foe what i want, for what makes me happy..

13 May 2013, 05:09 PM
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when he said that ...

He broke my heart, acting as Mr. know it all. why do i have to explain so much just so u can understand me!! what if i can't? Make an effort and try to feel, observe and understand ... and again, i don't need all this.

13 May 2013, 12:48 AM
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PLEASE PLEASE!

I want happiness! only happiness in my heart! i do not want those dark cloud thoughts! i do not want these negative nasty thoughts to play my ease and my mind!!! aaaah i am tired of all this reverses! and over over over thinking ;(

29 March 2013, 07:35 PM
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Back to doubting my self....

21 March 2013, 10:41 PM
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Unexpected

Dear diary,.. I'm the worst when it comes to expecting the unexpected! i always fail in having second guesses, or looking at sth from a widen point of view. that's why i keep telling myself not to expect anything at all so that o protect my self from disappointment. I really need a life guidance, telling me how to react, respond and act. I don't have the ability to lead my whole life all by my self, it's being too much for me to handle. I have sat high standards for me in future, i wouldn...

26 January 2013, 01:04 AM
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ALTHOUGH I AM TRYING TO LIVE THE DAY AND SEIZE THE MOMENT. BUT ACTUALLY I HAVEN'T FIGURED OUT HOW YET!

15 November 2012, 08:07 PM
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Dear Diary ...

I HAVE ALWAYS BELIEVED THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. REFLECTING UPON MY LIFE, I SEE THE CHOICES I MADE. I REGRET NOTHING, CUZ DEEP DOWN I KNOW THAT THIS IS THE BEST FOR ME, I BELIEVE THAT GOD PUT ME IN THIS PATH CUZ IT'S RIGHT.

15 November 2012, 08:06 PM
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Dear diary..

i am so fragile, i cry so fast and so sensitive.. i cant bear anything could hurt my feelings.. and what i most fear and try to avoid is facing things on my own! couple f days ago i needed to go to the dentist,, i went alone, but deep down i wished if mum or one of my sisters could come with me! what am i seven?! then i realized that i am not used to go and run errands by myself ,, i hate going all by myself, i want someone with me all the time,

09 November 2012, 07:03 PM
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Fear..

I fear the time when i have to face life all alone. I fear the time when i have to leave home. I fear the time when i have to live upon my decision!. I fear the moment when i am left with no real friends. I fear the next time when i get heart broken!. I fear the time when i regret not giving enough. I fear the time when i realize that i have been fighting for what i want and not what i need. I fear the day when i am being led by my daydreams thoughts!. I fear Confrontation!. I fear being a...

10 October 2012, 01:24 PM
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hey

Hey to the confuse me, yet so confident.

10 October 2012, 01:14 PM
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i gotta stop waiting

waiting will waste my life! thats what i came out with,, im always waiting, to finish school! the finish exams! and in the end i find my self with nothing ,, working while waiting is the best way to get achievements .,, this years of youth will never get back again if they are gone!

01 October 2012, 10:42 PM
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changing

I'm facing difficulties and challenging changing.. i am not the same as i were nor i can define myself but in between! So i am afraid of changing ...

21 September 2012, 02:57 PM
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Wednesday Syndrom

Dear Diary.. here we go again, the Wed. Syn. is back with the very beginning of school.. no matter where we go, do or plan is gonna be affected by this weird Syndrome in our house ..

05 September 2012, 07:19 PM
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This silence sound of fear is what i fear the most ..

05 September 2012, 04:34 AM
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I am afraid that I might be locking up myself a prisoner in my own mind madness ..

05 September 2012, 04:29 AM
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Hello there

welcome to my page where i share my thoughts with yall

03 September 2012, 01:32 AM
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