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Thank you!

Appreciation is something not often given but it is also something so necessary we wouldn't be able to live without it. So why don't we just sing it out loud, it will be the most heavenly harmony ever sang. Let repeat it and it will be the one thing that will never get old or boring. Write and write so your words may fill a room. Make it a solidarity of human emotion and human revelation. Appreciation isn't a present, one has to earn this gift. And if you do, don't let it slip away but guard ...

29 March 2015, 09:07 PM
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The flower within: let it bloom

We seem to have it all figured out: our live, our future and the past. But haven't you ever stopped and wondered... What if? We aren't perfect, yet we are so emphasised on being this flawless creature. But where are our morals? Where is the chapter of mistakes and sins? And how can we be completely and utterly faultless when we have never made a mistake? But what if I told you that you are in charge of changing your own destiny. To welcome what you want and to decline the rest. What if I to...

25 March 2015, 06:07 PM
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Explosive exhaustion!

Exhaustions doesn't even begin to describe how I feel these days. I am whiny, pitiful and other things I don't want to be. Because I hate it when people are complaining or sobbing about things so small we can't see them with our eyes. We will need microscopes to discover the problem. I am not trying to be funny, because I know I am not. Also a harsh lesson I've learned over the years. Never mind. Babbling and babbling about nonsense and putting words together like a mad man. Giving my describ...

21 January 2015, 05:39 PM
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Due to recent events

I don't know what I am thinking about, I don't know how to think about... How do you. I know I can't process a lot if things in my life and knowing that there are still many strangers to pass... How do you learn to move on and forgive, is it like learning to walk? How do you speak your thoughts when you haven't made up you mind? Should I be strong? Or am I expected to be weak? I am sinking deeper and deeper in my pit of exploding fires. Make me look like a whole new me, maybe a better descri...

18 January 2015, 06:06 PM
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Bone tired and hurt to the heart.

Making mistakes over and over again, making my world a personal hell. So demons may role and angels may fall. Monsters will scare us all. I don't know why I surround myself with darkness . This love seams to turn me in to twisted ways which I would never take when I were single. How come I take them now? Why am I acting so weird? Is the answer inside my soul or my crushing bones? Let the angels rise again and smite this person I became. Because living to hurt people I love: with the tired lif...

12 January 2015, 07:10 PM
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Deceiving perfection.

Love is about sacrifice, we devote our liberty to the one we hold most dearly. But do you really distribute everything with them? Or do you withdraw a dark heart to appear like a Saint to human kind. So one day your demons dance on that once holy creature, amusing oneself in the tears of the person he deceived. Humans are not perfect, so why is my boyfriend? I want to discover a slice of demonic cruelty inward my angel. So I don't feel like the only one making mistakes. When he strides down f...

06 January 2015, 06:32 PM
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The dying virgin

I have longed for the moment when my virtue would be stolen, or when my hymen would melt by the slight movement of two bodies colliding. But now I am not so sure if I want to, maybe I am just scared. Or maybe its because I am not with the right person who should take it. Silly young thing I am! He is perfect, everyone knows it and yet I feel like this. Like he... is not good enough for me... To satisfy my needs and yearns. While I am the suburbanite. Maybe I am not ready because I have always...

21 December 2014, 06:03 PM
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If love was as easy as saying the word it wouldn't exist.

We all know that being in love hurts when someone doesn't love you back. Or the hurt you inflict on someone because you don't care for them anymore. But how about the pain you feel when you are not enough for the person most important to you. If he is an angel you would feel like the devil. And the hurt of not being able to open up to that loved one, have you ever experienced that? I see myself as scared and there are just to many scares on my body to tell someone about them. Knowing that th...

15 December 2014, 10:10 AM
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Losing myself in shadows of darkness

I am feeling lost. In life and in the past, I know that this probably sounds ridiculous. Even I think it is laughable, because I don't know how to express the emptiness. I am feeling weak, alone even abandoned. Even though nobody is stepping away. I feel like my shadow is entering my body making a void and leaving nothing but darkness. Zombielike is the best way to describe myself these days. I've got puffy eyes, my skin is filled with pimples and i feel like the only way for blood to enter m...

12 December 2014, 04:17 PM
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Talking about my deamons with an angel

Wether we are lost or not, we always seem to have diabolic thoughts and wishes. Even though we can not engage them, we habitually end up dreaming about them. Day dreams, when eyes are wide open, descrying every moment and capturing fragments of that day. The power of sight deceives us yet again, because we are blind to everything omit the impression that we desire to see. Dreams: nightly ambitions with passionate fires that consumes your breath. Making the next morning and reality an apocalyp...

07 December 2014, 12:04 PM
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Old habits now but a faint memory

Lately I have been thinking about two years ago, when my world was exceptional but normal, to me. Occasionally wishing I could go back to relive the past, wondering what I could have done differently. Even though I have to stay realistic and open my eyes before I will close them for ever. Trying to concentrate on the sovereign future, partially depending on your decisions and surprises yet to come by the resolutions of your surroundings. But let's for a moment look back to realise what riches...

06 December 2014, 01:08 PM
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Christmas: a pecial atmosphere!

Well we all know christmas as THE holiday of the year. When everyone that matters to you comes together, having royal meals, opening presents and most of all an abundance of smiles and laughter. But have you ever considered that christmas isn't just a day, it's longer! It takes several weeks for us to open up, so the moth before the fest day people are unlatching their usual habits to let the peace and the joy in their daily habits so that spark of light can enter their hearts! You can compar...

03 December 2014, 03:41 PM
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EXAMS' SPECIAL!!

*Encouragement *X and Y, mathematic blablabla *A is overrated *Moody and choclateless *enjoy your exams everybody, I sure won't! J.W.

02 December 2014, 11:35 AM
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Vivid line between hate and perfection.

How come all of us strive to perfection? This world is so damaged that we can't even embrace the thought that normal or perfect is surreal. We can never be flawless but why do we still try to be the one thing we can never be? Because of our surroundings. Bullying is a prime example. Bullies point out the things they hate about us and doing so they cross the boundaries of any human being. Which is why we think we are so different and strange, blindly believing the words these monsters lay in f...

30 November 2014, 08:53 PM
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Building a wall of crying helps

I can get that you want to be alone for a minute but does it mean that you have to block me out? Going mad here, is it just me and if so, what did I don wrong? You know I am just 2 meters away and an open door if you need to talk, so why does it feel like you are at the other side of the world? You can come to me if you need any help like last year, when we could still talk. Has this gone away with you changing, because of my recent changes or maybe we both... I need you to talk to me, hell s...

29 November 2014, 08:58 AM
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Seeking closure with the wind

I always felt comfortable in the water and I have always connected my character with the flow of water. I know this must sound silly but, I have alway thought that when I was angry I'd be like a waterfall. Or when I were happy I would be like snowflakes in the winter. But lately I can not stop noticing that maybe I am more like the wind. Always on the move never settling down to relax, making hurricanes if you wish to stay in one place. This is because I didn't had a stable life for the last ...

28 November 2014, 04:08 PM
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The beggining of a new era

Hey there, I will from now and ever on (or as long as I want to) write everyday a little piece of my corrupted and shattered soul. And this won't be just some sob-story because we have got enough reality-shows on TV now a days. The reason why I want to write everyday some stuff down is for one: to psychologically help me with problems or feelings. Secondly, I don't want to rely on a person whom can step away just as easily as you can count to ten. You get the concept. Well, so now you know wh...

27 November 2014, 07:47 PM
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