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Check Out This YOUTUBE Vlogg!

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16 November 2016, 01:55 AM
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For the Love of God

When yo see someone who appears to be in need, 10 times out of 10 most people want to help. Years ago I had a bad experience where my kindness was abused. For whatever reason, a stranger was able to hurt me and I could not understand why I was so upset. I mean, I did what Jesus would have done by giving what I had to give, right?? I guess that question is rhetorical...Anyway, after that I stopped helping. I would just look and feel badly. I did this because I was afraid of be lied to again an...

28 September 2016, 03:13 AM
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Can't Surf A Tsunami

02 August 2014, 05:30 PM
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Saying Sorry

Although it may not be a quick fix, saying sorry is the start of the healing process. If and when you care, you say you're sorry. Things may not ever go back to the way that they were, but then you get to start again...in a new way...in a new place. We do what we can. We try. We grow. We say sorry & then we start to heal.

31 July 2014, 05:14 PM
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3 loves: kristindelima2014,carlreese11,simona
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No Good Very Bad Day

I would love to see my recent poor judgement as a bad day except there were several days...Like a month's worth of bad decisions. I hate feeling like I'm in so far I don't know what to do. Did this bad stuff tarnish a good relationship or just expose the cracks that were already there? My own weaknesses and insecurities have been laid bare & out in the open. I hurt myself trying to repair myself. Go freaking figure. Some things ...there is just no coming back from. And trust issues, no matter...

28 July 2014, 04:25 PM
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It's Time

Now is when I pick up the pieces of what has been previously broken inside. Not every day will be easy or beautiful, but each day will be a step towards the life I want for myself. No matter what has happened before, I will keep in mind that I'm awesome!! No arrogance intended, but I AM AWESOME!! I HOPE YOU ALL KNOW HOW AWESOME YOU ARE TOO :))

20 June 2014, 06:07 PM
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My Back-Side

When you decided you didn't want to be involved anymore...instead of telling me, you gave me your back-side. I knew not of your plan to pick me up, play with me for a bit, only to let me go 2 seconds later like I meant nothing at all. So, whenever you decide that you no longer wanna be estranged...well, you can kiss my back-side.

12 June 2014, 12:32 AM
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Just Don't Tell Me That

You can say it's real But I know where's it's at. Just don't tell me that You were gonna love me. I don't wanna hear it, baby.You don't gotta tell me that It's gonna be your last lie. No baby, I won't go for that. Even if you did say you were gonna be there, I don't want you back. Cause it's not about love. Just don't tell me that.

04 June 2014, 05:21 AM
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New Person

Meeting a new person can be exciting for about 2 min until realization and understanding sets in. New person is just a reminder that what is really desired cannot be duplicated nor fabricated. New person is just another person that causes a fear and panic so real its chilling. New person wants love so bad, they are willing to be anybody for anyone. Its crazy though...The goal has never been "anybody" or "somebody"...The goal now is certainly not new person. I know this. I just wish that the g...

02 June 2014, 05:23 PM
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A penny for my thoughts...

If I could, I would tell you how much I miss you. If I could, I would let you know how I think of you always. If I could, I'd let you see the way I carry you wherever I am. But that just is not possible. I can't let you hear the longing in my voice when I speak your name. Again, these are things I just can't do. For these are the things that make me weak to you and I am not your prey. Because I can't share with you the best part of me, I won't share anything. If I don't move on though, my lif...

28 May 2014, 07:12 PM
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Just A Reminder

When you start to feel bad for unkind things you may have said....Remember what a huge ASSHOLE he is. Nothing else. Just That.

22 May 2014, 03:32 AM
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Where Are You?

You built me up You made me believe That I was the only one That you'd ever need But now I'm sitting here And nobody cares but me Stop bringing me down You got me on my knees The first time around You were so good to me But now I'm out here in the cold With just MY OWN HANDS TO HOLD..... Where Are You...?

10 May 2014, 08:14 PM
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Who Cares?!!

Who cares who is watching, listening, or waiting? Now is the time that I stop censoring myself and tailoring how I express myself based on who may have something to say about it. Really, who gives a f*ck what people feel about what I do, write, say, or how I live? If you can't handle my truth then go away. I don't care what they think. Pretending or hiding won't change who I really am. In fact, I could be attracting all the wrong people by censoring myself. The truth is that I fell in love on...

10 May 2014, 07:44 PM
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Loving Whats Not Mine

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again I'll breathe again Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart And my burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breat...

08 May 2014, 07:59 PM
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Heart Chronicles of 2

I wanted you to matter. I wanted us to be real. I was hoping you were after more than just a thrill. To cheapen what we had was the worst of sins, but I guess it doesn't matter if you always planned to leave in the end.

06 May 2014, 11:20 PM
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Being Sunflowers

Like a sunflower, you're beautiful and fascinating. You're as soft as satin, just like petals of a flower to me. To some, you're a commonality...just another thing; But the light you emit is so easy for me to see. I can't imagine ever taking such a jewel for granted; Thats why I believe so much in second chances. If I left this earth today & reappeared tomorrow, then I'd want to return as the seed of a sunflower. Plant me next to you, and I'd love to watch you grow. An immaculate sight, as we...

24 April 2014, 12:58 AM
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Day In and Day Out

My first thought in the morning and my last wish at night....I'm beginning to think you're my obsession. Now that's laughable. More like a very bad habit that needs breaking. It's crazy to me how I could have let myself get to this shit again. Being conscious of the fact that I'm in the "anger" stage makes me feel a little nuts. The roller coaster ride of emotions, I'd like to pass on. Day In and Day Out. MutherF this crap!

21 April 2014, 02:02 PM
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Try Harder

I have had the damnedest time letting go of things and people of my past. On this Easter Sunday, I pray that I allow this Sunrise to embody my growing potential & capacity for embracing all that is new, beautiful, and (most of all) good for me.

20 April 2014, 04:38 PM
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