Loved and lost vs never loved

I've always wondered what it would be like if I just never said yes. If I just was smart enough to say no, dude your friendzoned. But I didn't. Everytime I think I'll just be one of those girls who don't give a fuck and then realise I'm the girl who's into him more than he's into me. Why does this happen? Anyway, so the argument is, "Is it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved?" We'll I'd like to believe it is but it's not. I feel sorry for all those people who have never fel...

08 May 2014, 08:04 AM
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DICTATOR

In some time of your life you'll definitely feel that you have lost control over your life and that someone else is controlling it. Nine times out of ten it'll be your mom or atleast in my case it is. I used to be a rebel, I would be the person who would ask for permission for courtesy sake and if she'd say no, get into an argument which would lead her into saying "do what you want" because I guess she wanted to feel like she had some authority. But over the last 2 years, something happened a...

01 February 2014, 02:01 PM
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Cruela de Society

In India, one major thing that is on every regular house wives mind is what their image is portrayed as among the society. Now I'm just 17 but whatever I do reflects back to my parents and thus I have to be aware of every move I take. There's so much in this cruel society that just won't do. I am not used to being told what to do and no fake bylaws are going to tell me what to do. I love my guy friends, if it makes me look like hoe then so be it. I like being able to expressive, if you defin...

20 January 2014, 05:05 PM
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Face No.2

When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot, he's really funny and makes you laugh and he has perfect hair. - Taylor Swif...

20 January 2014, 04:50 PM
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Hold on, We're going home.

It's time for the holidays, it's Christmas day for God's sake but here I am at home - physically. Mentally, I'm lost. I'm far from home. I can't explain why it's so, maybe because I was always at home or maybe because this isn't my definition of home. I don't know, what I do know is that I'm out of the zone this Christmas. My friend has placed a wager with me stating that he'll make this Christmas memorable but I bet him 100:1 that it's not going to happen. One thing that is still in me about...

25 December 2013, 07:03 AM
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Happy Holidays?

It's the month of December, more specifically it's Christmas Eve. Every year my house is decorated in and out with Christmas goodies and it would look like a typical Christian home despite us not being Christian. This year it's a bit different, I don't see any of the decorations up, I don't smell freshly baked cookies and it's just not the usual christmasy feeling. Nobody is talking about it but I guess I know the reason why, earlier this year my grandfather passed away and my grandmother was...

24 December 2013, 02:10 PM
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The Impossible Wish

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't You fall deeper with each passing day But try to hide it in every possible way He's only a friend, and nothing else That's the lie you keeping telling yourself You keep on saying he's just a bud But deep inside, you're falling in love You get so giddy when you meet his eyes But keep reminding yourself it isn't right A simple glance turns into a stare But you pretend that you just don't...

30 November 2013, 02:05 PM
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Candystore

Have you ever just been with a person for oh so long that you feel that you're way in over your head? I mean come on, you're only in your teens and you've been dating for over 2 years and the excitement has died. The thrill of trying new things, the feeling you'd get after seeing their face. It's been 2 years and now you're tired, you're tired of sucking the same old tootsie pop and now are ready to pick up the next yummy thing you find in the candystore. Finding love is tough but maintaining...

30 November 2013, 01:47 PM
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STRESSED.

Everybody gets stressed time to time. That's fine but with me it's neverending! I have a trillion reasons to be stressed. Starts with how my SAT scores got back and it was 1480 and I was so rooting for 1900. I just registered myself for the TOEFL and SATs in December because in Novemeber, I'll be too busy writing my first prelims. AND above all of this I have my rotaract work to keep a track of with my field event practices. How will I ever manage? I have less than a week to hand in my eco pr...

06 November 2013, 08:17 AM
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iNSPiRATiON

Inspiration is a word with different meanings for different people. For an artist, he is inspired by his muse. For a parent, their inspiration comes from their children. For a person like me, my grandfather inspired me. Inspiration is not only triggered by people but by goals, songs, artwork, just about anything. Inspiration is basically a word that coincides with motivation. You want inspiration for many things. Inspiration lights a fire within you to complete or atleast start to complete a ...

22 October 2013, 05:02 PM
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Stood Up.

I've grown to believe that everybody thinks that it's alright to just let people wait and wait till the plan to show up. Umm excuse me but last I checked you weren't the worlds busiest person and for no good reason should I have to be the victim of your anger when I decide to walk on and not waste my precious time by just waiting and waiting. Today, the most annoying thing happened. I arranged a meeting at 7:15 pm and I asked if it was okay and I confirmed whether they'd be there, they said y...

22 October 2013, 04:38 PM
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No Po Day

Okay, so you know how incomplete school is without your best friend? Well, school was incomplete for me today. Po and I discussed how we didn't want to go to college today but she didn't tell me she wasn't coming till the last moment and by then I had showered and everything so I went. And once I got there I sat and just felt bored. Like really bored but whatever, I went with the flow. Diky came and sat next to me and I wasn't quite fond of until today. She's the type of girl that just buts i...

22 October 2013, 01:14 PM
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Song of the Day

BEAUTIFUL SOUL I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul I know that you are something special To you I'd be always faithful I want to be what you always needed Then I hope you'll see the heart in me I don't want another pretty face I don't want just anyone to hold I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul You're the one I wanna chase You're the one I wanna hold I won...

22 October 2013, 12:53 PM
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A lil bout Me

Hi! Besides my name, I'll share everything with you guys. I'm 17.5 and 12 days old. I am of Indian origin. I've lived bout 11 years in the US. I have ample of friends. I love numbers. I'm an Arian and yes I do read my horoscope from time to time. I love to play sports despite not liking to sit and watch them on TV. My favorite animal is a Siberian Tiger. I have too many favorite everything else's. I'm a huge fan of iisuperwomanii and jennamarbles (youtube). I love to dress up. I like writing ...

22 October 2013, 12:51 PM
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Down in the Dumps

If you've read my past few notes you'd know by now that I spend most of my day feeling down. The reason behind that is EVERY FUCKING THING. I go to college, I see my ex ignoring me and talking to every other person there cause apparently he's shy. I go to classes I see the chick who may or may not be smarter than me but for some Godly reason she's able to ace everything like EVERY Fucking thing! I go home and there my mom is, ready with her daily lecture on how it's time to get serious and m...

21 October 2013, 04:33 PM
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Shopping Stops Sorrow

S cube. It's a known fact that men die before women mostly due to heart issues because men have a problem with suppressing their feelings. Simple solution to a longer life. Be sad and just shop till you drop. I'd rather buy a pair of Jimmy Choos instead of going through a box of Kleenax and at the rate that my life keeps going down in the dumps, I ought to be Kleenax's number one consumer. Ugh. How I wish tears could be replaced with money and I could just feel better by spending that and no...

21 October 2013, 04:25 PM
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Baba (Grandfather)

Nights pass And days don't last like they used to Tears roll And water flows down my cheeks Can't forget The way the pain just set through my body Was paralyzed By the time I realized he was no more... RIP Baba Aug 18, 2013

21 October 2013, 04:19 PM
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Exhaustion

Exhaustion is something caused by over exertion of your energy and that's exactly what I did today. I went to school and the accounts class and then math class and that my friend had been 12 straight hours of sitting and studying with not a minute of dilly dallying. Besides me being exhausted thanks to studying, I'm exhausted of seeing HIM, not God but my ex. I personally don't have a problem with him but why does he keep ignoring me. I'm just waiting for senior year to get over cause I need ...

21 October 2013, 04:11 PM
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