12.13.16 So JJ went to visit me again, its ok.. It was nice to see him, I was surprise really but then he ask me to go out and i think I allergic to going out dating IDK. So the other day I was with one of my girlfriend and then I learned that PR and I was on the same town, I actually feel weird about the place he'd been cu'z I feel dejavou. Place were my life was almost in danger but was miraculously saved by a saint. So this month is a bussy month i dont expect it blessing keep pouring sin...

13 December 2016, 01:31 PM
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Awakening: New Beginning; Old Memories

November 28. New moon. I'm flooding with memories again and i can't control it, Its late and I can even sleep because my mind seeing pictures. The last time i was trying to recall things i can't. Nothing. Its like a blank slate even him right there on my face asking me if i can remember anything... I can't recognize, just puzzled. Why hes talking about things like he knows me. I feel even weird like he can read my mind but I can't even grasp a single memory of him. I'm wearing this shirt fro...

29 November 2016, 04:11 PM
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11..25.16

Its thanks giving. only a month before Christmas... Why am I not excited this is my favorite season? First week of November I've done shopping for some stuff its nearer this time but i feel depressed like the weather. What am i thinking right now? I wanted to go out go somewhere quite. That's ironic I'm the only one here, Maybe I want to talk to someone even for chat. I have no one to talk to. I don't know. No friends no siblings. Well yeah, JJ called me he said he wanted to see me I didn't...

25 November 2016, 05:34 AM
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Soil

The cross road after a long year. He saw her in town with her worst hair cut... Question that would break her heart. Are you dying?

24 November 2016, 02:51 PM
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Zombie

One time before our training he approached me.. He told me that i was the reason he and his girl friend broke up. I can't understand why he said that. Im not flirting with him or anything.. He said he's being cheated but she loves her but I was the reason he and her broke up. I told him if he loves her he will forgive her for her shortcomings. And then the girl was approaching. He said to me if we can make her jealous he comb my hair. I don't like my hair being touched. The girl was quite i d...

24 November 2016, 02:29 PM
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Phase of the Moon

I was looking forward to see the magnificent light of the moon (Super Moon last 11.14.16) but its quite rainy. I had some unexpected gift and met new friends. Its 11.24.16 my motivation is crippled and i was discourage about my work, I'm still looking forward though for good things to come. Haiz, Im quite tired thinking things. Im just writing so i can reread what I'm thinking today. So i spend the day at Gana alone the other day before i accompanied my uncle yesterday. I walked the street ne...

24 November 2016, 02:09 PM
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November Rain

Its rainy season, its quite cold and dark most of the time . The sun took a peek yesterday though I went to Gana to assist my uncle for physical check-up he's in pain lately. Anyways, October fest No activity. Halloween was no festivity. All soul's day that's traditional so you do not have an excuse visiting your dead relatives at the cemetery. He came to visit and second, to see me. I actually was disappointed because the last time he visted me he was hiding something. Ok, i went to see him ...

24 November 2016, 01:55 PM
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What's More Painful?

When a person whom you trusted, hurts you or The person whom you hurt, still trust you? .............. write here................

07 November 2016, 02:18 PM
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The Mantra of Red in Music

I'm listening to a power ballad collection and music is so magical and it seems like i traveled back in time. The mantra of red in music, Lady in Red, sang by Chris De Burgh. I remembered he ask me to be his date at a farewell party and he said you should be in red. Sometimes I see him and if his music is available he would play this to me.

27 October 2016, 02:22 PM
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Random thoughts

I told my self that i will not spend too much on the computer this time because of my big day tomorrow but it seems that i find it hard to go to sleep again as usual plus I'm a night owl. So what i have to say? Sometimes I feel like I wanted to be you. So easy to love and so ready to take that pain. (JJ) I once found love but I'm so afraid to take it - all is left is pain. (DV) If I got to see you at those random places and if you will hold my hand will that spark still ignite? (PV) I'm so ...

23 October 2016, 03:34 PM
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Familiar Scent & Devotion

I’m still processing this thoughts and feelings from the past couple of days since his vacation. So I learned that he came home with his ex all expenses paid by him. We scheduled to unwind with my friend he said he wanted to come along. I said ok, but then it’s hard for me to wake up at the scheduled time, he texted and call me but I wasn’t able to noticed since I’ve fallen into a deep slumber which is good for me. He waited for me but i wasn't able to come so, he made the effort to come by t...

23 October 2016, 01:58 PM
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Quarter Moon

I can't think of a good title for this journal but its quarter moon last night. maybe third or first I'm not aware. Anyways, I went to go with JJ last night night its almost 9:00 PM I don't usually go out at that time but i know him somehow. We didn't went to a special place for just the two of us so as usual i ask him to bring me to a friend so its a group date. First impression for a long time? He smells good, nice ride. We didn't talk much about personal matters or feelings so its just ab...

22 October 2016, 11:04 PM
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Dear PR

I have already forgotten about you. somehow you keep on coming back to my memory. It's Bullshit because every time I remember there's no chance for us. Whenever your there I'm lost somewhere else. So you visited me here in my hometown once I guess the event was FD I hugged you and kissed you(a friendly greeting) but really I've missed you. You asked me if how is it with me and SB. I didn't tell you the truth that we are no longer together. We didn't talk that much. I'm not aware that you ...

16 October 2016, 04:55 PM
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I Did Hurt Him Anyway

21st century dating and courtship is a slave to technology. Most of the relationship doesn't survive without text messages, calls, internet connection such as fb and the likes. So he courted me thru txt and calls for about eight months. Our eight months courship is a regular txt and call situation since It's a long distance courtship he visited me and we became friends and he proposed to be my boyfriend since we are friends for quite sometime and so finally i decided that he can be that perso...

10 October 2016, 06:27 PM
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Spark

I saw him went online today. I feel really weird when he's online. We don't talk to each other that much but just seeing him online feels different. I remember him now. I feel his love. I remember when he cried to me when he just wanted to kiss me the music was so loud that evening and we found each other again. My love for him is awakened but hes with someone else now. I had a chance to build our relationship together hes ready to leave her because she cheated on him but i was with someone ...

10 October 2016, 06:14 PM
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Void

I can't help but link the situation to my memory. -The pills -food bite -faith -hair cut -blood -the music -the song -dozen red roses -Saxophone- I don't even know what is real anymore. I've lost so much and i know, even if I will remember things it will not be the same, I will not have the same. Everything's changed and change is constant and we can hold on to our memories to the feelings of love if we are lucky to remember them, to feel them. We are lucky if we still have the person we shar...

09 October 2016, 06:12 PM
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Spin Doctors- Two Princes

The result when someone told you that your definitely HR. The next thing you knew he sends you this song and while your still running through the lyrics he's right behind you, the one that will definitely react to the other end of the magnet or electrify you. It was too long for us to see each other again. yet, it was too soon. We found each other but I can't. You may say its sour grapping. But i can't do anything about it.. its too overwhelming. (way back 2012) And now I miss you. (PR)

07 October 2016, 03:13 PM
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The Proclaimers - 500 miles (I gonna be)

For this comment i should just live it in you tube but i prefer to write it down in this diary. Someone commented that he hope there's someone who can walk with him 500 miles and he will love her for the rest of his life. Well, that didn't apply to me. I'm a person who can walk with my love 500 miles but nothing happens. At the end of the day its all just about muscle pain, calluses and heart ache. (Trying to love and beloved) (M8K)

07 October 2016, 01:05 PM
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Rebirth 10-7-16

I always keep a journal to write every experience and thought I had for the day or maybe a week. The bad, the good and everything in between. Somehow I stopped at writing anything and burned all my journals some memories are still fresh, some its hard to keep even it feels beautiful to remember and its painful not to remember anything. I don't share much in social media unlike before, no pictures, no updates in a long time doing this I've lost contact with some friends and feels like I've lo...

07 October 2016, 09:42 AM
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Amnesia Girl (Goodbye Without Saying Goodbye)

Yes, this is my story from the past. So the next work day I brought the matchbox car. one of my supervisor saw it and ask me why i have a toy I'm too old for it. I said, i might find some comfort. Its lunch time again, and i went to the same spot as I always do during lunch break. He was there. I still can't remember he said its his matchbox. I can't remember how i got it and how he got my Taj. But he said he's about to be marry. I've said as much as i want to remember you I can't. Sometimes ...

06 October 2016, 11:23 PM
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