Everytime I drive away, it becomes clear to me that you are my perfection. Not because I took you for granted, but because I feel like I am giving up. The "what if" question plays in my head like a broken record. When we are together, everyone else disappears. I know you love me. I know you were trying. Every ounce of me is attached to you. Music makes me think of you, fireflies make me think of you, shooting stars make me think of you. So much of my environment and surroundings make me think...
A trigger happens that throws my mind back... my head, limbs, senses all disappear. The only sense I have is feeling my stomach knotted and a ball lodged in my throat. I feel as though I am floating but the only thing keeping me grounded is how heavy my throat and stomach feel. Driving on the highway, I can only go 100 km or slower. I can't turn my head either direction because my mind is focused on finding the edge of the earth to fall off of. Negative vibes overwhelm me without being able t...
Happiness, for me, is when you invest so much of yourself in learning special characteristics of another. To find out they have been investing themselves in learning you. It is one of the best unintentional compliments.
True love is someone who couldn't stand to sleep a moment when they know they could be with you in a second... or is true love someone who is so content in the relationship that they know you will be there when they wake up. Is it being comfortable in the relationship? Or taking your partner for granted?
It is raw. It is what it is. Two people completely in tune with each other. We don't need to say a word. We pick up each others vibes when no one else knows we are even sending any out. I only need to hear his voice. There are no extras or loopholes. The love is completely raw.
To Be Unattached
To love freely is to love without being attached. It is a practice that seems to be difficult and extremely challenging. People become addicted to being needed and needing someone. The practice is deciphering whether or not you are becoming healthily unattached or pulling away with too much force. Also deciphering whether or not your partner no longer has a connection with you, or is in fact, becoming healthily unattached as well. To need someone and be needed is an uncontrollably passionate ...
Show me, Don't tell me
When those three words roll off someones tongue as soon as they open their eyes and see you. How is it possible that they can also make you feel heavy hearted, used, and unwanted. Where is the line? When is it not considered 'giving up'? When do the sorrows of love truly fade? Is it only when you fall out of love?
Do people really change? Or do enough fragments of that person change to deceive us into thinking their entirety has changed... for the better.
Flowers vs. Seeds
It's almost as though they know you as well as you know yourself. But they are able to put it into perspective for you to show you that you're individuality makes you more admirable to them. One of my fondest memories is sitting at a restaurant on the patio enjoying the weather, drinks, and company. My mind was completely present and relaxed while the excitement and hustle surrounded me. It did not absorb me, but only surrounded me. I believe that it truly had something to do with my company...