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Chores!

So, I have a boyfriend moving into my house... I have always been the one to move into my man's house, not the other way around, so this has not been the smoothest transition ever. I have way too much crap in way too little of a space, and bringing his stuff here would be comparative to throwing a truck-full of personal belongings right into an active tornado. Probably not the smartest idea. So after a slight blow-up, I packed up all my stuff.. Like, everything.. so that he can get all his st...

31 March 2014, 08:31 PM
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There is something about

the way that life is that confuses me.. Things can be so up and down at the same time. I am so far down financially.. like I am not surviving here. But in other ways, I am excelling. My patience with my kids has dramatically began to change. I don't have any idea where that came from, but I'll take it. Lance and I are fantastic. I have never been treated like this. I have never been communicated with like this. It's ridiculous. We have had a couple struggles already, but the way that they we...

18 February 2014, 10:18 PM
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Sick

Blech! I just cant stop coughing for the last two days. Cough til I hack.. awesome! I posted this Marley photo because it's that kind of day. I need some damn serenity.. One Love :)

28 January 2014, 04:12 PM
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The Seattle Seahawks

are going to the Superbowl!! I swear, this is my last post for the morning, but I couldn't leave out my team! I am so FUCKING excited I could scream.. oh, wait.. I have been screaming! This is the second year that we have gone, and this time, we are going to WIN!!

22 January 2014, 08:35 PM
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Ages Twenty Four to Twenty Seven

After leaving Brock, the girls and I moved in with my mom. My sister bought a house for us to rent from her. I also lived with my now bestie, Beth, who not only introduced me to the greatest band ever, Muse, but also to this website! (Thanks Bethaniel) Beth moved out to be in the big world on her own, and after my mom tried to screw me into being completely homeless, she ended up getting evicted, and now the girls and I have the house to ourselves. Its a great three bedroom with a huge yard, ...

22 January 2014, 07:03 PM
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Ages Eighteen to Twenty Four

I moved in with Brock in October of 2005, and after a month and a half of his constant begging and seduction, I finally gave in.. and on Thanksgiving night of 2005, we officially became Brock and Rainy. Brock proposed that December, and by February, I was pregnant with our first child. I had already become mom to Brock's two kids, Taylor and Austin, because their real mom was out tweakin her life away just as I had done. During my pregnancy, Brock and I strarted fighting pretty regularly. He ...

22 January 2014, 07:02 PM
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Ages Fifteen to Eighteen

At age fifteen, I fell in love for the first time. His name was Shaun.. he took my virginity, and introduced me to my second love, Marijuana. I was head over heels for this guy, and when I was 16, I moved in with him and his family. Once again, way up on a damn mountain ;) His family accepted me and supported me, and I am forever thankful to them. It was at age sixteen that I really began getting into sex. Only ever with Shaun, but it was amazing sex. We did all kinds of shit that I would nev...

22 January 2014, 06:44 PM
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Ages Eleven to Fifteen

In the middle of the fifth grade, I went to visit my grandparents and brother (Mike) in Chelan, WA like I did several times a year as a kid. I finally told my sister what was going on at home, and how I got my black eye. They never let me go home that weekend. My brother, who was 29 at the time, offered to take me in and raise me at that point. So, I moved to Chelan and started school at Morgan Owings Elementary. Mike and I lived in a condo first, then a teeny tiny little house by the lake, a...

22 January 2014, 06:10 PM
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Ages One to Eleven

I was born in Renton, WA January 18th, 1987. Concieved at an AA convention by my mom, Bobbie and my dad, Bruce. Mom and Dad separated at age four, divorced at age six, and Mom relapsed on crack cocaine. My sister and brother (both from different Dads) both moved out, and it was just Mom and I from Renton to Burien, Kent, Auburn. Man to man, apartment to apartment, school to school. From age six to eleven, Mom and I moved 18 times. She was cracked out the whole time. She was abusive and crazy....

22 January 2014, 05:50 PM
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I am..

..an open book, really. I have things that I don't tell anyone.. secrets and such. But I am not ashamed of the things I have done. I have regrets up the ying, and guilt.. but not shame. I am a human being who was brought up in a broken home, and people like me fuck shit up. A lot. But I just turned 27 last week, and I see things a lot differently these last few years than I ever have. Call it grown, or whatever. I don't hold my past against my mom, though it is her fault that I am the way I a...

22 January 2014, 05:32 PM
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This Time

I am doing it different. I am not hiding anything. I am really trying to keep myself an open book for him. I have been in too many relationships where one person is always hiding something from the other.. and that's not where I want to take this. I have no secret passwords (except this journal lol), I don't have to hide anything, and at the end of the day, it feels so good not to have to worry about what he may find. I am so tired of the fake shit, I want to be loved for being me, and in ord...

22 January 2014, 04:56 PM
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First of Many

Alright, I finally figured out this diary thing. Which s good, because I probably really need a place to vent these days. Not that anything is really wrong. Things are actually pretty right at this point in my life. My three girls are healthy, I have a house, a car.. a new boyfriend who really cares about me. Its times like these, though, that I have to watch myself.. because I am notorious for screwing up everything that goes well in my life. Positive things and people tend to make me uncomf...

22 January 2014, 05:27 AM
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