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I feel empty inside. I don't know what's missing :(. So cold and dark and dreary inside. :(. Can't even pretend to be fine. Too bad,I have no Idea for the reason. It seems I must figure it out, on my own. I feel like I must stand alone. I just don't know. just empty.

30 October 2012, 12:52 PM
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Just numbers

Honestly I don't care about grades. those don't measure anything. those do prove nothing. Those are merely numbers, But in my case good grades are necessary. Why? because I am a scholar -_-. I have to be to help my father. He's quiet old and blah blah....... (long and really private stuff). ugh. I hate it when Grades made me so nervous. Those just add the pressure. It shouldn't be that way.

29 October 2012, 12:07 PM
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Realizations

I am losing myself a bit whenever I didn't go to church. I was so glad I manage to go today. I had a perfect sunday. Had a lot of realizations today. I just found half of my self back. I was reminded to be humble and righteous for the second coming, also in my youth class I was reminded that no one could make me inferior without my consent. I am special, really special in my own way, I am a daughter of our Heavenly Father, I am royalty. We made life complicated therefore we could make it not....

28 October 2012, 11:58 AM
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Peter Pan (2003)

:'''> actually, this was my first time watching peter pan the movie. I've watched it in cartoons. I never thought this movie could give me this impact. :''''> I'm so glad and lucky to watch PJ Hogan’s version of Peter Pan for I think this was the best version though this was the only peter pan movie that I've watched. It's just so perfect. :'''> I understand why peter chose to stay the way he was. It's a matter of happiness.lessons about feelings and choices. Fantasy. hahah how happy thoughts...

27 October 2012, 06:20 PM
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Empty space

I have lost someone, I really loved. I was really young back then, I was in fourth grade when I lost her,keroberus, (a cat). (I think I was in 2nd grade when I have her.) Those years with her seem so short and too bad those memories with her are only preserved in my heart. no pictures neither videos. :'( I miss her right now. I just want to say goodbye, because back then I never did. I never thought of saying goodbye to her. I never thought of losing her. I was never ready. I hate myself fo...

26 October 2012, 08:01 PM
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BF

It's hard to love someone wholeheartedly when you already gave your whole heart to someone else long time ago. It has been quiet long since I recovered (somehow) from the heartbreak brought by the lost of my first bestfriend "keroberus" (a cat).It was so painful that I thought I would never stop crying. It left me a scar, that couldn't be removed. I loved her so much that I still missed and cried for her for some time. I've got new pets just to forget keroberus and It was so wrong. I shouldn'...

26 October 2012, 06:09 PM
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