Lain

Lain, from The Book of Deacon. <3

29 July 2014, 10:45 PM
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Damnit, Diary.com!

I'm excessively annoyed that none of my mobile entries synced to my account from my phone. This website has given me so many problems since day 1 which is why I haven't used it in so long. But in coming back I see there is not much changed. Still, I love the idea of Diary.com so I suppose I'll suffer through this. I had dream entries that were very important to me. I'm sad they are now lost.

23 July 2014, 07:27 PM
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My Thoughts on Love

Most people agree that to love someone for who they are on the inside is a truer love than loving someone for their status, wealth, etc...external things. Who they are on the outside and to the world. But I realized today that I need both. I AM deep. I AM shallow. I can't have a wealthy, unintelligent pretty boy that is petty and narrow minded, worried over trifling things. I'd hate him. But to be with someone who was wonderful and lovely on the inside, but lacking on the outside is al...

14 February 2013, 09:02 AM
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Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead

That's the title of the documentary I recently watched that got me to dive head-first into juicing. I searched for juicers and realized a good quality juicer costs an arm and a leg--even a minimal one was $150! I searched Craigslist for days but people were selling their juicers for more than I could afford. Finally, someone was selling a vintage Champion juicer for 65 dollars. I jumped on it right away and I'm so glad for my purchase! After much cleaning and sanitizing, I found it to wo...

21 September 2012, 05:36 AM
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Oftentimes, I find myself excessively annoyed with Alex and I get into these funks that I can't seem to get out of, where everything he does will be wrong and I can't see any good that comes out of him. I fail to recognize all the wonderful things about him while I focus on every single little nit-pickety thing I can find. I don't mean to, and I understand I'm being irrationally mean and bitchy, but I just can't help it. I don't want to be this person, but I don't know how to stop.

11 September 2012, 09:10 AM
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A Black-Winged Angel

Last night, as I drifted off to sleep, I entered the dream state and had possibly an OBE. I was still laying in my bed but I could see, and there in the corner of my room was a black winged angel staring at me. His face was stern and he just watched. I stared back at him, taking in his wings. I was surprised to see them, and they were black. He was definitely an angel. Suddenly, I hear my son begin gasping loudly as if he can't breathe, or having a terrible nightmare. It pulls me insta...

11 September 2012, 08:50 AM
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Not My Baby

After I dreamed about the white baby, I woke up to Draco fussing so I flipped him from one side of the bed to the other so that he could sleep on his other side. He calmed down as usual and fell back asleep, and so did I. This time I dreamed I had another baby. It was a continuation dream from the white baby dream because I knew in this dream that I had the other white baby back at home. This baby was mixed with black, and I knew the father was black although I don't know anything else ab...

05 September 2012, 07:03 PM
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Baby

I dreamed I had a baby. I didn't see the face or what it looked like, I just remember it was a white baby and I was very happy with him (fairly positive it was a boy). I don't remember anything else from that dream.

05 September 2012, 06:55 PM
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Another Doctor Who Dream

...Because there must be something all these dreams are trying to say, but I can't remember half of them! Luckily, I remember more from this dream. In this dream I'm in love with Doctor Who. He is wearing a white T-Shirt and jeans when I see him. I haven't seen him in a while and I am so happy he is here. There is some cinnamon in a jar and I tell him when I miss him I smell some cinnamon. He laughs and smells the jar of cinnamon. "So I smell like cinnamon, eh?" He asks. I say "yeah....

05 September 2012, 06:42 PM
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A Test

A pregnancy test, that is. I dreamed I saw a pregnancy test and it was mine. There were two lines so I knew I was pregnant. I was worried because I didn't want my mom to be upset I was pregnant again, and plus I didn't want to be pregnant at the current weight I'm at; I didn't want to balloon to an even heavier weight. Next I was walking through a tunnel to go and tell Alex. I was thinking to myself, "This is the little girl. She's coming." I wasn't sure I wanted a little girl.

05 September 2012, 06:37 PM
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Finally! A Family Day

Today the family was finally able to be all together so we wen't to Denny's to eat breakfast, and then went shopping in Hollywood. I bought Draco some cute monkey house-booties in lieu of being unable to find him slippers. Afterwards we went to Ross and Starbucks, all in the same shopping center so thankfully, we didn't have to bus it all day long. I just love family days, and Draco clearly loves it the most, which makes me the happiest mother in the world.

02 September 2012, 12:17 AM
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New Bag!

A great find shopping at Ross! I needed a new bag so bad, all my others are beyond torn up.

02 September 2012, 12:10 AM
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Faeries/Aluxes

So this morning I woke up very early; early enough that I thought perhaps it was 3 or 4 AM. I heard noise, and as I listened closely, I realized it was Draco's little musical Baby Einstein mirror. I wondered if perhaps that was what woke me up--I'm quite odd in that I sleep soundly yet wake up easily. How this is possible I don't know, but perhaps I am unconsciously selective about what wakes me up and what does not. Back to the story, I tried to think up why it would be playing. Then I ...

02 September 2012, 12:10 AM
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Demons {Aug 31st}

I don't remember much except 3 muscular demons standing over me holding a glass each of green goop, and apparently I had to drink it to have power over them. I was scared but I knew I had to stay strong and do exactly what I told them I would do, so I started drinking my glass, and then one by one they poured theirs down my throat and as gross as I thought it was, I gulped it down and kept going. The strongest demon was the last one to pour his drink down my throat. It went all over my fac...

01 September 2012, 10:28 PM
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The Green Man, {from Aug.30th}

I dreamed I was walking with someone wearing a robe or toga, I don't remember what I was speaking to them about but I believe it was an angel dressed as a man. suddenly I saw a "sign" and just new that the Green Man was here. I looked around and saw a stone carving of his face and knew my suspicions were confirmed. "It's the Green Man! The Green Man is here!" I shouted to my companion, and lo and behold, I saw the Green Man standing in the far corner of the courtyard looking at me. I fel...

01 September 2012, 10:28 PM
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I saw Jesus {from Aug 30th)

on the cross. In front of me were 3 archers with blue arrows, all pointed at him. He turned to look at them and I knew he was willing them to put their arrows down by believing they would and trusting he would not be harmed. They put their arrows down, then raised them up again. This happened three times. After three times he looked to me and said "I am the dirt," in a slow, deliberate manner. He then said it again, but in a language I didn't understand.

01 September 2012, 10:18 PM
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01 September 2012, 05:03 AM
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Could this baby have more beautiful eyes?

01 September 2012, 03:07 AM
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Adam and the Ants | Cool In The 80s!

If there is one look from the 80's I think we should bring back, it would be the fashions of the New Romantics. I mean seriously, just LOOK at how hot that is.

01 September 2012, 02:52 AM
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I really enjoyed this episode of Doctor Who about Madame de Pompadour!!

30 August 2012, 08:38 PM
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