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Falling for a Bestfriend

Ever fall for your bestfriend? I have. The kid who's supposed to be my bestfriend in college is stealing my heart. We have a really close and great friendship but I also feel this really close connection with him as something more than friends but it wasn't supposed to be this way.. This is going to be a long entry because I need to let this out.. This kid was supposed to be my bestfriend and that's it. I felt so close to him and when I felt the need to vent to someone I instantly thought of ...

28 November 2014, 05:18 AM
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Heads or tails?

I've been having the most complicated, confusing time of my life lately. Me and my boyfriend had broken up and I was positive (or so I thought) that we were done for good. We were broken up for 2 weeks and in that 2 weeks I started hooking up (not sex but other sexual things) with my best friend who lives very close to me in college. At first I thought he was just going to be my friends with benefits but I had started to gain feelings.. I assumed he felt that it was a friends with benefits so...

17 November 2014, 08:25 PM
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What do I Want?

I haven't written on this in an extremely long time and I really want to get back into the habit of writing again because it always felt good. I've been enjoying my first year of college for the most part since late August and we're quickly approaching the end of the first semester. Coming here I met this guy and we instantly hit it off and before you knew it, he was my boyfriend. Now let me tell you.. This is honestly the most amazing, nice, genuine, big hearted and caring guy I have EVER me...

05 November 2014, 03:12 AM
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Stupid/Intelligent Drunk

Okay so I thought of this very stupid yet very intelligent plan. (not really intelligent but in my head it is). So the guy I really like, we've been getting closer again and I just REALLY need to tell him how I feel so I figured if I got drunk and then told him that it'd make it a lot easier. When I'm drunk I don't give a fuck about what I'm saying and then if it doesn't turn out the way I want I can just play it off like it only happened because I was drunk. See what I mean when I say stupid...

13 June 2014, 03:39 AM
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Done With Highschool

So today was my last day of highschool and I'm super excited! I wasn't that sad to be honest. Don't get me wrong I'm gonna miss a lot of the teachers I've had but I wasn't really sad because 1. I'm going to see my friends all summer and 2. I don't think it's really hit me yet that today was the last day EVER. I thought I would cry but I only teared up a bit when my one friend started bawling her eyes out and saying she wishes I wouldn't leave and that she's gonna miss me. I'm a person where i...

13 June 2014, 03:27 AM
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Compliments

Don't you just love how amazing it feels when you receive a compliment? No matter what is is.. Nice eyes, I like your necklace, anything. I love compliments, giving them and receiving them. I like making someone else's day and I like having my day be made as well. Today, I wore this really nice outfit and I got lots of compliments. It was a white top with a low back and it was sort of like a halter top because the top wrapped around my neck. Then I had on these navy blue high waisted shorts w...

11 June 2014, 12:20 AM
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Being Used

I'm really starting to fucking hate this website because this is the third time I'm writing this entry and it won't save. I'm too lazy and tired to go into depth again so I'll skip to the main part of my complaint.. Do you ever feel like you're being used? Because that's how I'm feeling right about now. The guy I'm really into favorited all of my tweets so I mentioned him and then he started flirting with me and sending me winky faces for everyone to see. At first I was like YAY and then I re...

10 June 2014, 04:25 AM
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Room(mate) Selection

Got taken off of my shift today because there weren't enough people coming to the event which sucks because I NEED MONEY. Now I'm only working Friday which is annoying. Not sure why my boss is barely giving me any hours anymore. On the bright side.. I get to select my house, room and roommate in 2 days for college which is really exciting! I need to get on ASAP so I can get a good room. I'm excited because you get to see who's already in what room so I can kind of select my own roommate in a ...

10 June 2014, 01:29 AM
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Stress Levels Rising

I've never been so stressed out before and I feel like I'm going to crack. These next four days are the last four days of high school for me EVER.. So why the fuck am I so stressed out?! I don't understand why I have to take all these finals if I'm a senior like give me a fucking break. I already took an exam for AP english so why am I taking an english final? That's not even the main source of my stress.. The main source is my calculus final. I honestly have no clue about anything and it suc...

09 June 2014, 12:56 AM
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Summer Jam

Today was a super long day of standing but it was all worth it. I'm glad I wasn't tired when I woke up this morning.. It was probably because I tried weed for the first time lastnight (don't judge me) and got high and slept. It was alright, not gonna do it all the time like some of the potheads in my school but once in a while. But more importantly.. today I went to a super fun concert! It was summer jam and it had a bunch of good artists. AJR, Timeflies, Icona Pop, MKTO, Hot Chelle Rae, R5 a...

08 June 2014, 03:52 AM
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The Fault in Our Stars

So The Fault in Our Stars was a fantastic book and a pretty good movie. Even though I knew what was going to happen at the end, I still cried through the whole second half of the movie. Although the movie was very good and went along with the book well for the most part.. it still left out a couple parts that bothered me. First of all in the movie they never even mentioned the fault in our stars like they did in the book so if you just see the movie and not the book then you'll never understa...

06 June 2014, 05:06 AM
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"As Long As He's Happy"

Am I the only one who thinks that the saying "I just want him to be happy even if it's not with me" is complete BULLSHIT? I mean yeah I want my ex or whoever to be happy.. but do I want to see him happy with some other bitch?! Hell to the no! Today I had to see the guy who's been toying with my emotions for the past 8 months happy with another girl. I was awkwardly walking behind them with my friend and I had to watch them laugh together and see her put her arms around his waste and hug him t...

05 June 2014, 03:03 AM
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Only One Hurting

Is it bad that all I want to do is lay in bed, listen to sad music and cry? I don't know why I'm feeling like this and I hate it. Why am I sad when he's happy with his new bitch? I don't understand. I deserve to be happy with someone. I wish I didn't want him but I do and more than anything. Just thinking about him and what could've been hurts me so bad and it's taking everything I have to keep myself sane. I just wish he knew how I feel and maybe it would change things.. But, I'm going off t...

03 June 2014, 04:55 AM
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