She smiles through a thousand tears , struggles through millions of fears,She dreams of she wishes to be, hiding her insecurities right in front of me

Why?

Why me? Why do I deserve this pain,my life is not just a game, something you can just play with then when you get tired of it you kick it to the curb,I deserve better than this, Why can I forget about you,I have no clue..

I feel so depressed,weak,hopeless,and most of all scared.My father turn ed himself in for his wrong doings in January of 2013 I haven't seen him since.. It hurts to know he isn't going to be here for the Holidays. I just wish I could see the happy side to this situation but I just don't.