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I want to go back to the Labyrinth

School has started... two more years to go. The weekend before it started I re-watched the movie "Labyrinth" made in 1986. This was my ultimate childhood movie and I still am in love with it today. Maybe if someone was to watch it now not having experienced it when they were younger or when it came out then they wouldn't enjoy it as much. This movie was that movie that every person must have had, the movie that they re-watched as a child over and over and over again, knowing every line by hea...

28 August 2013, 07:26 PM
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MY FUCKING LIGHT HAS BURNT OUT.

Dear Nobody gives a fuck, SHIT. Just fucking shit. My mind goes through this endless cycle of just pure shit. I am scared. I am teryified. and my spelling is awful. I am ready to proceed towards a future filled with dissapointment with myself. Because this is simply what happens. Stupid brainless me convinses myself that maybe im not so stupid and brainless after all, "cmon! i can do this!". Then i strain myself and try super hard and smack my little head against the brick wall of failure ag...

18 August 2013, 06:38 PM
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I have a serious problem :/ I am like... emotionally unstable. Like.. i dont know, I geus that I get too easily torn down. It is absolutely fucking ridiculous. Like just the utmost tiny tiniest thing will literally shatter me inside. The smallest insult just makes me feel too terrible. And in these moments I actually want to no longer live, and when I look back or even in the moment I know how stupid it is. I've looked it up before too many things came up and I knew that they were too vague. ...

17 June 2013, 08:57 PM
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Fallen behind in life

Everything/everyone is developing. My close friends are well off with bright futures ahead of them with extremely respectable goals that they wish to pursue in their lives. Becoming doctors, lawyers, journalists and architects, and receiving top grades. Even when they get amazing grades that they surely should be proud of they are deceived and harsh on themselves. Yet here I sit. Lost. I care so much about my future and yet I have nothing ahead of me to pursue. I just feel so useless. Ahhww b...

11 June 2013, 08:38 PM
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Up and up we grow...

Getting older I think that each individual become a lot more aware of things that suround us. We notice things, perhaps they have always been there but we have never noticed them from the naivety, hiding behind our child perspective, but it is when this perspective dies that things happen. These 'things' vary, they could be the most grimmest of the sort which is often the case, and with this happening I think that we all reach a stage where these grim things we notice over powers the sight of...

31 March 2013, 07:26 PM
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Growing Up

So I am... I wouldn't like to say childish, but more like I don't want to grow up. The majority of people I see around are so very keen on growing up, wanting to be older, wanting to feel independent. Do not get me wrong, I relish the idea of independence... it's just I have an irritable time trying to place myself in a picture or any setting of independence and frankly it scares me. Thinking about childhood, I think that it is a magical time period of a persons life, a time frame which is si...

25 February 2013, 07:44 PM
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Change.

Something which I am well aware of about me is that I do not like change. I hate it. What my life is now is how it is and so far I have adapted to this way of life, why can't it just remain so? Sure I know as well that certain changes can bring good things. Around me I witness other peoples lives deteriorate as they grow up. I look back at what they used to be and wonder what happened? I don't even particularly know them closely and I know it is none of my business but I have been here and al...

01 January 2013, 04:26 PM
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I have learned two vital things over the past few days. 1) Never expect "a good day". Never wake up with an expectation or feeling that the day ahead of you will be good. Because no matter how you feel about this day, someone or something will take this from you leaving you feeling empty. Every single time I wake up feeling great, get ready in the most efficient way just feeling great, something has always happened before the middle of the day that would just shatter me. Have no high expectat...

13 December 2012, 04:04 PM
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The pain of these thoughts throb in my heart and head. It is moments like these that make me wish I was dead. The future isn't looking like a future at all... I look at this place, the fucked up world and feel so small. Wishing, hoping, believing, breathing is no longer enough. Since every wish, every hope, every belief and breath, is gone. What was once called "living" is now an ache forever dwelling on.

08 December 2012, 11:47 PM
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Great start of the day...

Feeling pretty shit right now. Everything was fine I got up showered made breakfast for myself bla bla bla. I was just talked to somebody who really means a lot to me (my best friend) and it made me feel like absolute shit. Now, this person does do this quite a lot and i am very used to because its not her intention and I love her very much. But today it was pretty harsh.. :( I feel like hibernating... (that would be pretty awesome)

17 November 2012, 08:35 AM
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It's hard to explain...

I dont know how to explain this feeling, it hits me now and again. Well its actually a mix between a thought and a feeling. Its a moment when everything around me melts away and a realization appears. It says; you are alive, you are an actual person, living, and you control yourself, your life is a real thing and what is around you including yourself is real. Whenever this hits me during the few seconds of this time, although the thought is telling me I do exist I feel like I am nothing (dur...

15 November 2012, 10:58 PM
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STRESS.

So heres whats going on... I have a lot of work to do, i don't wan to sound like a whinny annoying kid but it has literally come to the point that this has completely consumed me enclosing myself with thoughts.. For example, this Chemistry paper, what will this matter to me in a year or longer? or any other assignment? Then my mind wondered off to the future. Trying to place myself in the future is too difficult to think about. Honestly i don't have any academic strong points... for careers....

01 November 2012, 11:36 PM
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Hey there :)

Hey, well this is quite strange... theres not much to me when it comes to introducing myself, i never know what to say. Start off with some straight out facts; Im a teenage girl who is socially awkward, has a low self-esteem, not one to stand out of a crowd - well nothing nobody's heard about before hey? I am grateful for the friends that I have <3 I love to paint and music is always playing wether its coming from my ipod, laptop or head. I get stressed very easily and public/class presenta...

01 November 2012, 11:03 PM
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