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Changes

So much has happened lately. I know i rarely get on. I will try to more. Tom finally got out of jail. Currently he is on probation until September. He got a job and works hard. Proud of him for that. We got back together after a 3 day long ass talk. Not sure if it was the right thing to do. Time will tell. We still live apart. We live an hour and a half away from eachother. I am enjoying not living with anyone but my son at the moment. I take my GED in April. I am nervous but, ready to get it...

27 March 2015, 09:38 PM
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Halloween

I have decided that i am more happier with out being with someone. Actually preferring it that way now. Don't have to get my heart broke again or worry about if someone really loves me. If some one is meant to be with you he will find me.Until then i will stay in single land and enjoy it. Piss on love. Halloween was a blast for me and Brice. We dressed as zombies. Him and his aunt have a big thing for zombies. He was a little zombie and i played as a little girl zombie. Dressed the part to b...

02 November 2014, 02:54 PM
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Goodbye In My Eyes

I broke up with Ken yesterday. It was so god damn hard. Almost stopped myself from doing it but i knew it needed to be done. I have not been happy with him for a bit. He got to barely talking or texting me. Getting him to visit me was almost like pulling teeth. All he would ever do is talk about his problems and worry so much that whenever he would visit he'd show up with a sour look on his face. Made me feel like nothing. He wasn't there for me. In the end i was left loving someone who only ...

21 October 2014, 04:49 AM
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My Heart

Me and Kenneth talked about some things the other night on the phone. Things that needed to be addressed. I am not one to hold back anything if i think something needs to be said. I guess he did not realize how he was doing me. He said it made him feel bad. He's been trying to do better the past couple of days. It has been a week since we last saw each other. I am missing him so much. I feel lost and longing to be held in his arms. I did not mean to give my heart to another. Things did not go...

15 September 2014, 11:19 AM
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Nothing At All

My poor heart is tired. It is tired of being shattered, hit, and hurt. So tired of picking up the pieces and having to put them back together. I am tired of giving all i have to someone to get almost jack shit in return. Why do people lie and play silly games to win your heart knowing damn well they mean only nothing but harm? They only care for their heart. I send gm honey texts, I try calling and texting through out the day. I write them poetry. I express words of love. What else can one do...

13 September 2014, 05:09 AM
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Dwayne You Asshole

This is my ex Dwayne. I fell hard and fast for him after i moved to Grayson. Can't believe i dated his ugly ass. Things were going great. I thought they were. We even became engaged. Then, he dropped me from out of the blue. Had no reason why. Never told me. Days later i found out from some chick that he had been seeing her. Claimed they were together and she was having his baby. What the hell? Any ways, he tried adding me on FB yesterday. I came out and asked him what he wanted. Claimed he ...

07 September 2014, 02:48 AM
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Destiny

Lying beside you hand in hand, Neither knew that destiny had this planned. Underneath the stars two hearts intertwine. Only they knew i'd be yours and you'd be mine. Caressing close in the dark i can hear your heart beat. Love eludes this passion from where our two hearts meet. Never knew love could render this much bliss. Maybe it's magic or the feel of your kiss. I fell fast and i fell hard for you. Didn't know that life would offer to me someone like you. Needing you now more than i show. ...

04 September 2014, 06:13 PM
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My Soul

Ever seen the movies where two people find their once in a life time love? Where it truly seems epic and meant to be? I believe i found him. His name is Kenneth. He is 6'5 and has long black hair. He has the bluest eyes i have ever seen. He is also a biker in a group called Chrome Soldiers. I am madly in love with this man. I believe him to be my soul mate. Fore, we have everything in common. Even down to us both being blondes when we were children. I never thought i'd date a biker. I was wr...

04 September 2014, 12:58 AM
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Updates

Been a while since i was on here. I know. Life got to me. Me and Brice ended up moving in with Greg into a beautiful big house. The relationship did not work though! God damn idiot is now my stalker! I ended up moving counties away from home. I reside in upper KY now with Brice. We have a little dog named Gracie and a black cat named Ouija. As for Tommy, we do not get to see him much. I live an hour away from the jail. Can't afford gas to go there all the time. He seems to have lost some weig...

03 September 2014, 11:10 PM
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I broke Tom's heart so bad yesterday. I told him that i loved him but, was no longer in love with him. I told him that at the last visit at the jail i knew when he kissed me. Then, i told him about Greg. I told him about how i had fallen in love with Greg. He laughed at first thinking i had never spent time with Greg. He stopped laughing after i let him know that he had been at my house. He

27 December 2013, 12:57 AM
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Bama Busted

Looks like Jimmy ended up in jail. That really does not surprise me but, it does surprise me that he was out driving after 10 at night. Odd! Age: 39 Height: 5' 9" Weight: 200 Hair: BROWN Eye: BROWN Sex: MALE Race: CAUCASIAN Alias: Arrest Date:: 12/5/2013 10:51:00 PM Arresting Officer: DEARMOND Arresting Officer Badge #: 1506 Arresting Agency: MCSO Booked Date: 12/6/2013 Offense Date: 12/5/2013 CORLEY, JIMMY L Counts Description Type Fine Bond Bond Method 1 FAILURE OF NON-O...

18 December 2013, 09:26 PM
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Wonderious

Sitting here in the after hours of the night, I realize my heart's a mess that i can't make right. Is it love or lust you longed for? The answer was never revealed as you walked out my door. Will you come back to me to stay, Or did those feelings you said you felt go away? Remembering the touch of you so close to me, Lingers in my mind killing me softly. I thought i had found someone to hold, But i may have just found nothing but a heart ache with a heavy load. Did i give you my love in vain?...

13 December 2013, 11:41 AM
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Hit Or Miss?

Greg left out this morning. I did not want him to go. I guess you can tell by that statement that things went good between us. We had two fun filled days of movies, making out, sex, and whatever else. They went by too damn fast. Ug. I believe that i am falling for him.I know it is too soon but, i feel a strong chemistry between us. I could get lost in him. Tom just called. I gave me him a lecture about not calling us last weekend when he was suppose to. I guess i was mean to him on the phone....

12 December 2013, 07:08 PM
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Is There Life Out There?

Ever since Tom has been in jail some of his idiotic friends have crawled out of the wood works. Guess since he is in jail they think they can come fuck with me. NOT! Jimmy came by here about two weeks ago. He was asking questions about what happened to Tom. I asked him why he bothered to coming over when he hadn't been here since July. Claims cause of his wife. Whatever! Then of course, he made a move on me. I gave in like a dumbass. I guess i still have feelings for him. Stupid me! We made o...

10 December 2013, 08:20 AM
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And Away He Goes

I know it has been a while since i last made an entry. Things have been hectic here. Ug. Tom got found guilty and was sentenced to three years. He started his sentence November 6th. As of now, he has been in the jail for over a month. He can have contact visits. In the beginning he couldn't. We had to talk through a phone with a piece of glass between us. Times have been hard with out him here. Me and Brice miss him like crazy. My heart felt like it was ripped out when he had to go. It does g...

10 December 2013, 07:57 AM
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Jimmy

Here is a photo of Jimmy.

31 August 2013, 01:14 PM
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Heart Broken

They took him from me! Fucking assholes! He's now gone. All because of a fucking snitch! The cops came and arrested Tommy today. They stuck 3 charges on him with one being a felony. Thanks to the snitch Brice has lost his father and i have lost my bf for who knows how long. It killed me having to tell my son that daddy may not be back for a while. Then, have to watch as he starts crying and calling out daddy. So fucked up that he had to go through that. As for me, i am hanging on but, not so ...

17 August 2013, 02:24 PM
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Catching Up

Tony left out yesterday. He over heard me and Tommy talking about how i wanted him to leave so bad. So, some chick wired him some money and he left KY to go to IN to her house. I guess the ange i felt towards him from how he did me just boiled over. It turned to rage. I just snapped. I feel bad about how i did him in the end but, he got what he deserved. Atleast, that is what i keep telling myself. I am not sure. I took him off of my FB friends list. Been enjoying the wonderful silence since ...

28 July 2013, 04:15 AM
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Fixing To Pull My Hair Out

I am so stressed out today! Here i am with heart problems and having to deal with assholes. I do not need this shit! Tony has been an ignorant lazy asshole since he has been here. Tommy jumps up to defend his little fuck up of a friend everytime i say something about Tony. I am so fed up! Got really pissed off while ago. Earlier this morning Tony had me roll him some cigs. I did that. He goes and gets a pack of regular cigs while ago. I come outside to see he has thrown the ones i rolled for ...

21 July 2013, 06:54 PM
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Anger

Not in a good mood today. Dumbass Tony came down here today. Was so hoping he wouldn't. It is going to be a very long month! I guess if cock sucker gets on my nerves too bad Tommy can take me and Brice to mama's house. I have avoided being near him all morning. I have barely spoken to him. The thought of him being here disgusts me. I am so close to hating him. The anger i feel towards him burns me up. I wish i could slap him until my arms fall off.

18 July 2013, 06:54 PM
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