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How Could I?

How could I believe you when you told me that you loved me. I have you everything and you just tore my already broken heart into tiny pieces. My heart is at a point to where it can't be fixed, not glued or stapled together ever again. It's destroyed to beyond repair. I'm so sick of pretending to be okay, I can't do it anymore. I try to put on this happy smiley girl for you but how can I continue it when all you do is make me cry and feel like shit? Everything I do is so wrong, whether I stick...

25 May 2014, 06:27 AM
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Why me?

After everything I'm still sitting here alone while you're with her. You laugh and play with her like its nothing. I thought I was finally over it all but I guess I'm really not. How can you do this to me and not see it or even care? Yeah I know the answer to that. You don't care about anything unless it benefits you in a good way. If anything makes you look the slightest bad you turn it all around to make that person look like the fool. I'm so sick of crying and loving you. I can't handle th...

08 April 2014, 11:08 PM
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Who am I?

How can you know who I am when I don't even know who I am. I've changed myself so many times to make everyone else happy and to try and fit in, that I have no clue who I am! It's not fair that I can't figure out who I am or what I'm meant for. Why did God put me here? What's my purpose? How am I suppose to figure it out when I don't know who I am. I don't even remember what my personality was before this. You tell me this isn't who I am but how do you know? How do you know that this girl that...

18 March 2014, 06:21 PM
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The guy I thought I knew

You used to hold me so tight and nice. You were so sensitive and sweet, I loved it. Yeah, okay I know I hurt you but I still loved you. You were my first love, I'm going to always love you. I guess that doesn't matter now does it? Wow...you've gone from a complete sweetheart to a total jerk. You continue to tell me I know you better than anyone else when in reality I don't know you. I thought I knew you, but I was completely wrong. The guy I thought I knew wouldn't fight with me for no reason...

18 March 2014, 03:40 AM
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Is it really worth it?

Sometimes I feel like everything I do is never enough and that it's wrong. Does how I feel or what I do matter anymore? Is it worth all the hurt and damage I cause to the ones that I love? Would it matter if I just disappear? Sometimes I wonder if I just up and left would anyone even notice or even miss me...In all honesty I don't think anyone would...expect I guess one person...my best friend.

18 March 2014, 03:09 AM
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