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Just a playboy

Because you're a playboy 352 days of blind love got me insane, no brain working, just a heart beating for the sake of your existence, your parfume I can follow where ever you're at, your finders holding that damn cigarette, your calm tone...why I'm crazy in love with a playboy, you don't know what is love, you just know how to make girls moan your name loud then throw them like the cigarettes you step on. Boy...I love you more than anyone else would, I dare the whole universe to love you the ...

07 September 2016, 04:58 PM
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I fell again..

Ouch..I just fell again while trying to stand up. This pain is growing everyday, and I can't help it but drown in my fake imagination all over again. How I'm gonna stand this? You're not what I want..but it was like falling in a dark deep hole suddenly. I want it to stop, but in some ways I don't want to. I'm lost and confused, hurt and broken, wishing to die as soon as possible. I'm tired of pretending heartless, the reason is too obvious that I was so empty to hold on you without realizing....

10 March 2015, 07:10 PM
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Save me

-It’s like i’m stuck in the darkness, no ladder to climb or light to see through. My heart is aching like a knife just went half through. I open my eyes and see people around me, my mouth is opened and laughters are running out of it. We are too close I feel our skins touch from the outside; but somehow I feel miles away inside. A thread is well tied around my neck and feels like it’s getting pulled up that it kills me slowly. It’ getting harder to breathe and even harder to fight faithfully....

09 January 2015, 11:31 PM
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Can't stand up..

I'm overthinking of my destiny, of what have I done to myself. Why am I this depressed? Nothing got changed to end me up feeling this way...emptiness is slaying me alittle bit more everyday. How to describe this pain!! How to deal with it? I never wanted anyone in my life, why the hell I changed like this? I never asked for tips or felt lost and empty. Missing my razors that hurts happily and ends up beautiful red lines. But I'm forcefully walking on a straight road, trying to act like any o...

09 January 2015, 10:21 PM
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Where am I?

New page, scary life. I wasn't here one month ago. Will I ever belong to this place? Surrounded by devils. What's your point of hurting me? Can't I be myself please? We say everything has limits, but this is too much different. Who am I to stand it for to the rest of my life? _____________________________________-Aiden.

09 January 2015, 09:36 PM
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Oh shit

I left that place, telling myself I won't be back. I just...I just can't stop thinking about everyone there. I've been there for so long and it's not that easy to leave suddenly leaving behind my heart and soul. I grew up on an electronic site. I loved there and I got hurt, yet it's where I learned a lot of beautiful things and met with colorful people. Lastly, I wanna be back. _____________________________________________________-AiDen.

29 December 2014, 09:22 PM
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LOST.

You know you've been such an idiot when you've lost the love you love the most. Well, this is my case. I'm such an idiot, cuz all I had to do was take care of him, but now he's gone and I guess this is the best for both of us, but sometimes his memory crosses my mind and all I can do is regret everything I didn't do when I had the chance. ________________________________________-Unknown.

23 December 2014, 07:26 PM
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Just faded away.

Hopes and dreams went too far, as the imagination got wild. Everyday a fake story must be made, which brings pure true happiness. Now everything's over, leaving behind a hole of emptiness and awful feelings of this story. It was true in some ways, but mostly not. We could make it real, but now we're too late. It just...faded away. It's just like never happened. _________________________________________________-Aiden.

23 December 2014, 07:04 PM
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I can't even.

You, you...it's always you and only you. Why do you have to make it hard on me? Did I told you how much love can be hurtful? But now....you're just a wish. Can't touch it or hug it. All I can do is feel it and smile. ________________________________________-AiDen.

02 December 2014, 02:02 PM
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It worth it.

At the worse moment, I got your gaze on mine, you got my heart beats. How can some meaningless words create a whole love story when we don't even know each other? In some cases you got me forget about the scars that I have on my heart, the lost pieces have found their way back. And feelings do exist again. Love..yeah, this is love. It appears when you give up, and when you realize how fucked up this life can be. And yet, love is something we can never explain it with words, actions, or else. ...

11 October 2014, 08:40 PM
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Hope..

It was like a miracle...made my heart beat again...gave me that pain in my chest, which it's a sign of falling in love after all this time. The way you got your eyes on me, started that beautiful conversation with me, smiled at me, kept on looking at me. I can't be more than a normal person, but I wonder...wonder what made you choose me after all? How would it be like when I give you a chance? But I can't...this would hurt us both. But guess what! I'll be keeping it all inside, though it hurt...

04 October 2014, 08:41 PM
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Judge after you read this.

DD.. You might think that you can be the biggest problem in my life, like seriously? I honestly have like million shits to deal with, instead of your bullshits. I'll simply go for it.. I can't stop thinking about all my childhood friends that I lost in the war..most of them are dead, and all I can do is praying for the others to stay alive and healthy. I have to deal with my mother who actually ruined our image in front of all the people and simply left us for her benefits. I should be worri...

30 September 2014, 10:48 PM
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RP-World.

DD. -How can a silly fake world effect on me this much? Like I'm so done with those dramatic kids, those liars who hates liars, those who can never have friends, those who all they do is annoying you..etc -How would my life be like if I didn't join it? -How would my life be like if I didn't met with those amazing friends that I got from there? -Will I really leave it peacefully one day? -What about my friends in there, will they all leave me one day? -What I am to them? -Am I everything to ...

30 September 2014, 10:16 PM
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Do You Know?

Do You Know What It's Like To Have Barely Any Friends That Are There For You? Do You Know What It's Like To Have No One Understand You? Do You Know What It's Like To Have No One To Talk To? Do You Know What It's Like To Have To Hide Your Pain Everyday? Do You Know What It's Like To Not Want To Talk Anyone Anymore? Do You Know What It's Like To Feel Like Crying All The Time? Do You Know What It's Like To Feel Like You Are Doing Nothing Right? Do You Know What It's Like To Be Judged For Everyth...

30 September 2014, 10:15 PM
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