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Tear Stained Face

You look at me, but can't see me all you see is a tear stained face. Plastered on is a fake smile with a dimple for the bow. You strip me down and all you see is tears, my blood my brain and every thing in between. Crying is my weakness, I try to drown my demons in tears but they know how to swim.

24 February 2014, 02:24 AM
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Voices

These voices inside my head tell me I'm not worth, I'm ugly and worthless. I try to force them out, to ignore them. I tell my self it's not true, but it seems like their winning... They tell e that I will give up and no one would miss me. These voices in my head are trying to kill me...

31 December 2013, 01:20 AM
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Love

I guess I do fall in love to quickly. I met you today but had known about you for a while. You texted her saying that you thought I was cute and shy. It's probably all in my head. Who would ever love someone like me?

23 December 2013, 08:03 AM
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No..Alright

Fine I understand that I'm not attractive. I get it all. I'm weird and anti-social. I have a messed up family and I have virtually no friends. I don't dress like I m a slut and don't cake make up on my face I understand. I know I'm different and strange...I'm sorry

12 December 2013, 12:15 AM
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Crushes

They say that a crush last for four months and after that it's true love. I liked you for two an him for fifteen. I think I'm final over you and I thank god for that everyday. Because for those two months my heart went through hell. I'm sorry but now I'm going to leave and never come back. He may never look at me the way I look at him but for me I'll love him forever and always. He'll never judge me because I love cross references between Adventure Time and Zelda and fan girl when Doctor Who ...

29 November 2013, 02:45 AM
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Wrong Way

I take things the wrong way, interpret them into things that are wrong, stupid you may say. I don mean to but my mind does it to me and makes me suffer. I take little waves from you when I get off the bus, to maybe he like me. See, that's interpreted the wrong way...

18 November 2013, 01:46 AM
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Hurt

I'm still hurting on the inside and out. You may not see my pain or suffering, but it's sadly there, just like you. I wish that you never ended up on my bus in my school and in my town. It would be easier. I would still have a crush on Corey and I would still laugh like there was no tomorrow, But now I'm over him and laughing is as rare as Haley's Comet. Can you not see what you've done to me, how you've taken me and crushed me? Why would you play me like that? It's been two days and I'm stil...

11 November 2013, 03:52 AM
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Heartbreak

It hurts to have your heart broken. It feels like a ton of bricks just falling on you at once. You want to cry and scream but you keep calm and carry on. Today you decided to drop a ton of bricks on me. I heard something about you and your girlfriend, your new on. I asked Star what she said and it was true, you had one. And in that infinite moment, my heart broke, my stomach dropped, and a part of me died. What's the point of leading someone on? Is it for the joy of seeing them fall so hard a...

09 November 2013, 01:07 AM
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Religions

I have none, not one at all. People have damned me to hell because god isn't in my heart. But my argument is if he was really out there why is all this bad stuff happening??? Couldn't he stop it before it happens

06 November 2013, 01:04 AM
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Alone

I'm alone here, I want someone like you to keep me warm. I want you to tell me that you love me, I NEED you to keep me warm and never let me go. The strange part this is that I don't even know if you like me yet. But in my dreams you hold me tight and whisper gently in my ear that you love me, and you'll never let me go.

06 November 2013, 12:55 AM
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Dreams

I had a dream about you. It was rather interesting, we were standing there and you told me what you felt for me. I told you the same stuff back and it made you happy. They say dreams are like a glimpse into the future, was this the case?

05 November 2013, 02:51 AM
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Go on

Go on get out of my head. I dreamt of you this weekend... even in my sleep you make me blush. Friday we talked, you used so pretty cheesy pick up lines. Usually I hate cheesy pick up lines but for you, they work. We really talked... at one point you said you know you want this.... my face was pretty red like a blushing fire truck. I got off the bus and you stuck your head out the window and yelled goodbye and then I practically skipped home, you make me feel like I belong...with you.

04 November 2013, 03:24 AM
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HOW

OK so how do you follow people like seriously??????

04 November 2013, 02:29 AM
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You really do

Yes you really do like me. I found this out and screamed and shouted. We actually talked, you made me laugh and blush and made my head spin round and round. I almost cried from being overjoyed. I didn't say a thing, I think you could tell, but if you didn't I'm glad you told.

01 November 2013, 09:54 PM
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Somewhere else

It could be space or heaven or even wonderland, as long as it's far far away from here. Maybe London or Paris maybe even Mexico, just anywhere but here. Where we can live and kiss without being judged. A place where we can speak our feeling without the fear of being made fun of, will you come with me?

01 November 2013, 02:10 AM
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Stuffy Noses

Stuffy noses, hot warm chocolate, warn little kittens and late night movies. That is what winter is all about. Making snowman and building forts, snowball fights and snow angels. Sitting by the nice warm fire, putting up the Christmas tree, and never ending Christmas movies. Those are the many reasons I love Winter.

01 November 2013, 01:46 AM
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No mutal feelings

You like me but I don't like you. I'm sorry, but I like him. I've never had this problem, heard it's called fiend zoning, so am I friend zoning you? I like him, not you, your like my best guy friend, I'm sorry, but I like him..... not you. Do you understand my heart fell for him, not for you? I don't think you do. I'm sorry I talk about him all the time, but I fell head over heals for him, not you. Do I need a shirt that says, "Sorry no mutual feelings here."? Maybe I'll buy one.

31 October 2013, 10:25 PM
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Well do you?

Today your brother decided to tell you that I liked you. All I wanted to do was smother him. I then started to cry right then and there, he tried to cover it up by saying that anther girl liked you. You left me alone for most of the bus ride, then I started talking to Star, you looked at me, eyes so bright and said, are you the girl who likes me? My heart fell to pieces, it broke into millions, you didn't believe the cover up. I tried to hide the fact that I was in love with you but you saw r...

31 October 2013, 09:20 PM
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Tears

They're rolling down my face. Picking up momentum the closer they get to my chin. They give me headaches and make me want to jump out the window. They come everyday now, not every time I fall, every time something I don't like happens, they appear. Like waterfalls they flow endlessly with no end in sight.

31 October 2013, 09:04 PM
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Five Seconds Of Summer

Luke, Michel, Calum, and Ashton. You all saved my life. I was drowning, wanting to die, wishing to die. Every night I would wonder who would miss me if I died. I cut and I burned and even planned out my death. Then one day I heard your song. I went home and looked you up. I fell in love instantly. I know I'll never meet you but I want you to know you all saved me. You call your fans beautiful and make them feel like they have a place in this world. I know I'll never marry Mikey, he's to wonde...

31 October 2013, 12:50 AM
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