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Diary, Damn! I was crying hard that time. Do you know how much it hurts knowing that the person you like so much is actually dying and he is bidding goodbye to you? Damn every time I think about it, it makes me cry. I just cant accept it. Every words, every letter, I can feel it, the pain, that time all I can do is cry and cry and cry. I can't help but ask God why him? Why not me or other sinful persons. Of all the people why him. Why life is so unfair? Why is this happening. And I was guilt...

05 May 2014, 02:31 PM
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I'm sorry for being so stupid. For being jealous, for not thinking. I'm sorry for hurting her, I just thought if I send those hate messages to myself and to them will do something good. Will make you notice me and be a hero to save me but what happened? I'm so fucking stupid everything that I planned didn't worked this is so fucked up! I'm so fucked up! I hate myself now. How I wish I just want to die. I just can't take this. I didn't mean those words. I don't hate her. She's a beautiful pers...

03 May 2014, 05:24 PM
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I'm falling for you. Though it hurts to see you with her.

02 May 2014, 07:44 PM
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Exactly. I so fucking hate whatever I'm feeling right now.

25 April 2014, 05:58 PM
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Why does it hurt like this? Yes! I can definitely feel it! I don't know. Words aren't enough to tell the pain inside my chest. The hollow feeling whenever I think about you. The way how you wait for her. Are you really waiting or her to come back? Are you? Cause I don't know what else to do with myself, with my feelings for you. Sometimes I wish that I didn't met you. I wished that you didn't came out of your shell. All the walls that I built, they slowly crumble with one whisper that you ...

23 March 2014, 01:46 PM
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It was 2:57 in the morning but I was still listening to his covers. Damn. I didn't expected to find his real account. Guess my stalking skills are getting better and better. But hey! I can't contain how happy I am. All the pain just disappear. How fast my mood swings! I was holding my breath while listening to his voice and GAHD! He's really gifted. Feels like he's singing that song for me but yeah, I'm just imagining it.Another fantasy of mine. How I wish..Oh crap!

17 March 2014, 02:20 AM
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Consequences..

I wanted so much to cry but tears won't spill! Am I this numb to feel pain or is it I'm used to this pain? I know deep inside I'm hurt and so much wounded. I pity myself. I knew being attached to him is very dangerous and hell I still continue what I shouldn't have done. Now I'm facing this fucking consequences.

16 March 2014, 03:37 PM
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Just hearing your voice, playing the songs you used to sing reminds me all the pain and it's getting worse..

15 March 2014, 05:59 PM
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The moment when I wanted so much to cry but I know I can't cause all my tears just dried away. I never thought that my feelings for him will come back again. It never crossed my mind and I hate every fiber of myself for feeling this way. I just thought that I already fell out of love with him but damn! This hurts so damn much that all my emotions suddenly mixed up. I just can't explain what I feel. Numb? Hurt? I don't know. Just seeing him with her is like an arrow in my chest even though jus...

15 March 2014, 05:55 PM
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Regrets

Why is this happening? I hate this! I hate that I feel like shit and all I can do is feel it. I tried my best to ignore my thoughts but damn, I can't! I can't help but to feel so stupid! How I wish I could turn back time . When I really wanted to meet you, to know more bout you. Why is it destiny won't allow it? Is this how he plays his game? So many "what ifs" in my mind. All the possibilities but yeah, its all my imagination and I'm only giving myself expectations when I shouldn't expe...

15 March 2014, 02:54 PM
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Regrets

Why is this happening? I hate this! I hate that I feel like shit and all I can d is feel it. I tried my best to ignore my thoughts but damn, I can't! I can't help but to feel so stupid! How I wish I could turn back time . When I really wanted to meet you, to know more bout you. Why is it destiny won't allow it? I this how he plays his game? So many "what ifs" in my mind. All the possibilities bu yeah, its all my imagination and only giving myself expectations when I shouldn't expect coz ...

15 March 2014, 02:52 PM
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With them a while ago! Had so much fun. Though I know or I am just assuming? that "THEY" are there. Stalking and watching s or maybe "THEY" saw us. Oh well. All that matters we enjoyed the day but Alyssa wasn't there so.. yeah. It would be more fun of she's there!

09 March 2014, 01:19 PM
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MRT Guy

Feb. 14 2014, I was walking with my friend on our way home from our CET. We saw a guy standing nearby the stairs. While walking I was staring at him. Tall, chinito, fluffy hair (?) and he really looked like someone. He's exactly what my friend describes him except for the bond hair. We were looking for Red Ribbon to buy cakes. I secretly looked at him. Gosh he really is gorgeous and appealing. I was looking at him when he sensed that and looked at my way. Quickly, I removed my gaze at him. It...

09 March 2014, 06:19 AM
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The thought of..

09 March 2014, 05:32 AM
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Who are you?

You: hooy You: haha :) Stranger: hoy Stranger: tawa ka dyan You: ako pa ba? musta na Stranger: hahaha Stranger: eto bore Stranger: bored Stranger: ikaw? You: sakit sa ulo nung nag kakaraoke dito samin -.- Stranger: patigilin mo na sila Stranger: panget naman pala kumanta e haha You: boses palang alam na.may perya kasi ulit dito malapit samin Stranger: edi mahirap makatulog nyan Stranger: nakakabulabog You: true sobra may nag bibingo pa haha letche! Stranger: hahaha Stranger: f ka noh You: yiz...

06 March 2014, 03:12 PM
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Another day! Days passed so easily. I saw you again. Walking like you don't care at all. Bag in your shoulder in the middle of the crowd. Why is it every time there's a possibility that you can see me I'm not at my best? That I look so haggard. Yeah, the moment I saw you I feel so ugly. Saw you in the corner of my eyes. Saw you look at her. And for the nth time, I saw you look at her. You act like everything's normal when it's actually not. Is it or I am just assuming something? I'd rather no...

06 March 2014, 01:48 PM
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Ironically it feels (March 5,2014)

A while ago I was walking with my friends to buy something. I’m not really in the mood to do crazy things with my friends cause I know I will not see you today but I still tag along with them. Then I saw you. Holding a ball. I did my best to act normal. I stole a glance at you and saw you looking at her. You look so awed. It’s written all over your face. So instead of trying to get your attention I just bow my head and walked away from you. It wasn't easy to remove my gaze at you. I was look...

06 March 2014, 01:18 PM
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