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Advice

Sometimes when you write out your thoughts, or when you give advice to others, its ironic how that advice can be related to you but you don't even use it. Like saying for others to stay strong but when you can't even tell yourself that enough. Advice should be for everyone even for yourself. But applying to yourself is probably the most difficult. I wish I could.

01 April 2014, 02:46 AM
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I will win

It sucks when you realize that the life you were living becomes a life where you are thinking "What the hell is wrong with my life?" I've seen so many people suffer. And how people become their own enemies. And how people are so selfish that they don't truly realize how selfish they really are. It's sad. This life is sad. I am surrounded by people like this. People who are truly kind and nice in the inside but they are corrupted and do things that can not be forgiven or accepted. I don't kn...

22 March 2014, 06:42 PM
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Waiting

Outside I look fine but on the inside I'm crying. The sadness just won't disappear. I'm praying everyday, trying to give strength to my family and to myself. I'm hoping that we will all stay strong no matter what happens. But what more can I do? What more can I do to help? I don't want to cry. But I can't help it. I can't save anyone. I can't heal anyone's wounds. Now I'm just watching as the time passes me by. And I helplessly wait. And I'm still waiting for the results of what is to come...

19 March 2014, 11:42 PM
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Healing

When a loved one is hurt or in so much pain It hurts to know that there's nothing you can really do for them. You can't heal their pain You can't heal their illness You can only stand there and watch thinking 'Why can't I do anything?' Life is so precious that it can easily go away one day. People only live once. I'm scared for my loved ones. I'm scared that one day they'll disappear forever. And I'll regret that I didn't spend enough time with them. That I wasn't doing the best that I coul...

19 March 2014, 04:44 AM
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Moments

There are the moments when you wished it never happened And there are the moments you wished it would last forever. But every moment is a special one. One that can never be truly forgotten. Treasure and accept each and every moment in your life, Because you only live once. And every moment of your life counts.

14 March 2014, 03:38 AM
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Different

Have you ever felt different from everyone else? Like you're the odd one out? Like you see things differently than others? Have you ever felt like you don't belong somewhere? Have you ever felt like you are the most loneliest person in the world? Have you ever felt like no one really sees you for who you are? Do you wish you could just disappear and that you were never born?Have you ever felt invisible? Do you wish that there was something that made you special so that others could see you fo...

14 March 2014, 03:32 AM
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To Know

I wonder what people really think of me. I wonder how I appear in front of them. I wonder if they hate me. I wonder if they like me. I wonder if they just ignore me. I wish I could put myself in others' shoes to see what they really think. Because I want to know. I want to know if I am worth something to them or if I'm not. I want to know if the walls that I build around me are too high for me to reach others. I want to know if I can be worth something to other people. I want to know what I a...

13 March 2014, 04:38 AM
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Complicated

I just feel so confused. But I also feel like I know what I'm doing. I feel like I like you but I actually am not sure if i really do. I want to kill myself but I want to live. I think I know what I'm doing, but I don't know if I'm doing it right. I don't even know if what I am doing is right or wrong. Its all so complicated. I can't think of anyway I can let go of all these troubling thoughts in my head. I want them to go away but they stay. It's so unsettling. I don't want to let people i...

07 March 2014, 05:59 AM
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Want to Know

I tried to talk to you but you didn't say anything. And now I'm wondering if it was my fault all along. That it was my fault for ignoring you. For pretending I knew who you really were. Now I regret it. I regret not talking to you. I regret not getting to know you better. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry for ignoring you for so long. I want to know you better. I want to talk to you more. But I'm afraid you won't accept me. I'm afraid you won't really like me at all. Sometimes when I look ha...

07 March 2014, 05:49 AM
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A Place

Problems are the worst, especially family problems. Everyone has issues these days. And it seems like there isn't a single person in the world who would want to talk and listen to what you have to say. Maybe there is. Maybe there isn't. I don't know. Is there? If there were people wouldn't be crying in the inside. People wouldn't be in pain. People wouldn't have to suffer alone. This world is messed up. But it was never perfect in the first place. I just wish there was a place for people ...

06 March 2014, 02:41 AM
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Used

I have been used. I have been used to fill someone else's loneliness. I have been used for someone else's goals. I have been used to replace someone. I have not been seen as a person for who I really am. And those who do see me for me, I have no courage to be closer to them. Because I'm afraid they will use be too. I've been keeping the walls around me for so long. I've been used to distancing myself for too long. Now, I'm not sure what to do anymore. To open the doors or leave them shut....

05 March 2014, 01:21 AM
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Whys, whens, whats, and a who

Where will I go if I'm too pained to move on? Where can I find my own light if I don't know how to find it? Why do I see things so differently from others? When will I stop feeling so empty inside? Why am I here? What is going to happen to me? Where am I going to go? Why am I so afraid? Why can't I be stronger? Why can't I be someone else but me? Why do I always cause problems? Why am I no good at anything? Why can't I truly be happy? Why is it so hard to hold back tears? Why is it so hard to...

02 March 2014, 04:36 AM
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My Dream

Growing up, I realize that my life wasn't terrible, but it wasn't normal and that I wasn't terrible at most things, but I wasn't the best either. I love and hate myself just as I am beautiful yet ugly. All my life, I've dreamed of being something important. To be worth something not just to family and the world, but to myself. I want to express myself and my abilities that make me a person and share who I am to inspire. I want to be able to die with a legacy, something that people will re...

25 February 2014, 08:00 AM
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Pieces

Dawn breaks and the sky falls... to pieces it shatters to the ground.... As I picked up a piece of that sky, and looked up to fill the holes...I realized that it couldn't be fixed. The pieces were scattered and dispersed... And the sky could never be whole again, not without the other pieces... It was a sky that was unwhole, unfinished, empty, and broken. So I asked myself...when will these pieces ever be found to cover up the holes? ...But I already knew the answer. I just had to find them ...

09 February 2014, 01:03 AM
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Expectations

There are people in your life who expect you to be someone. Most of the time it's someone you're not. There are some you expect you to be beautiful and smart. Some people do this because they love you. Others do this because they simply do not like themselves and take it out on you. But everyone is beautiful, Even if we hate ourselves so much for every little part. Nobody is perfect. We weren't born to be. You are to be free to choose what you want. And you can work hard until the end. No ...

24 January 2014, 02:25 AM
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Time Forgets

We can never stop time even if we truly wanted to. Time can't forget, only we can. It is our choice to forget, to desire not to remember anymore. To forget our past mistakes, fears, sadness, and pain. Time will not wait for you. Time can never stop for you. But time can heal. And that can only happen if you choose for it to happen.

24 January 2014, 02:01 AM
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Loneliness

Sometimes, loneliness engulfs us to the point that we can't break free. It's scary what loneliness can do and what our fears can do to us. I am a lonely person yes. But I know that I'm one of thousands of people out there who say the same thing. But I think loneliness isn't necessarily a sin. Even though your days may be the worst, loneliest, saddest days of your life, you may be alone, but all of us are alone together. And that makes us connected. I want to believe in brighter days. I w...

07 January 2014, 08:20 AM
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Starting fresh

This year is another year to tally on how many years I have been alive. This year brings out new hopes and new dreams to catch. New loves to see and new paths to be opened. With every year comes a new beginning. It's just up to you whether you decide to start fresh. Happy New Years ;) Stay strong and live healthy. It's a new year.

06 January 2014, 07:48 AM
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A Fool

I'm a fool. I always seem to be fighting against myself, wanting to stay strong yet I can't seem to stand up straight enough. I'm hopeless. I'm invisible. I'm nothing. The feelings I want to pour out never seem to come out. How you truly feel...it's always bottled up inside. I hate feeling sorry for myself. I really am a fool.

19 December 2013, 07:59 AM
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Thankful

I'm thankful for the people special in my life. I want to treasure my special moments with them for the rest of my life. The people who care for me back and for the people who accept me for who I am, I want to give my all to them for the rest of my life. I don't need anything from them but their support and love. Just by accepting me for who I am is enough for me, giving me the strength to make it through the rugged days. Despite my flaws and my mistakes, my appearance and my personality,...

05 December 2013, 08:02 AM
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