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Supernova

While scientists are discovering more ways in which us humans are connected, I am discovering even more reasons why we weren't meant to be. Love is a powerful force, just like gravity. When you look at it from the distance, it may not seem alarming, but dare to get closer and it will pull you in and leave you orbiting the object of your affection in the middle of the dark, cold space. Just the two of you, alone in the Universe. But every star will eventually die; be it a dwarf, a pulsar or a...

19 May 2015, 09:40 PM
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I want to carry your heart

We all need this one special person to come along and steal the spotlight in our lives. If only for a moment, we need them here. Humans possess a rather fascinating ability to adapt to life's circumstances. We are used to “sucking it up” and carrying on. We are world's most social creatures, yet we are more isolated and alone now than ever before. But sometimes, just sometimes, we need that special someone to put their hand on our shoulder and take us home, say something kind. Plain things ...

15 May 2015, 09:34 PM
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And here I'm beginning to hate you

Sometimes I just with to hurt you, stab you deep inside your very heart. A heart that knows no love and no remorse. A heart of a man who thinks that everybody owes him; that the world should accept him with all his flaws and ugly scars. Fists constantly clutched, teeth bared and ready to bite. Why do you have to be like that? Why do you have to be like that with me? It doesn't hurt to be hurt by you anymore. Moreover, many thanks for that. You are actually making it easier for me to finall...

14 May 2015, 09:21 PM
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The cycle of life

I sometimes wish that we could step away from everything we ever knew and held dear, and start afresh. Things in our lives have this frustrating tendency to disappear, fall away and drift apart. So after we are, once again, left alone in the freezing cold of the night, I wish that we could just let go of everything we ever loved. So we could live and love again. And sometimes, a bit too many times, I think how crazy and weird it is to be lost in this endless cycle of life. We are so great, a...

05 May 2015, 01:20 PM
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Damn this heart.

We are drifting apart, faster than ever before. Dreams of a life together have slipped out through the open window and faded into the fog. I'm sitting here in the dark of the night, reading some counselling articles about ways to end a relationship with minimal damage. Pathetic, I know, but this is my first time seeking some sort of “professional advice”, and I guess I should be alarmed. I don't know what I am any longer. Selfish, miserable, confused? Or maybe the opposite? All I know is tha...

01 May 2015, 10:27 PM
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Colour my life blue.

I'm feeling gloriously empty. No motivation whatsoever. If only I could force myself to care more these days. Oh, the wonderful cycle of monochrome days. One month til summer. Surviving on occasional books and dreams about the ocean.

01 May 2015, 04:41 PM
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Underneath the sufrace

Whenever you start having these thoughts that you are broken beyond repair and nothing can heal you, please don't. There is always something out there much worse than that. Life is never too cruel even though it does get cruel enough. So dry your eyes, love, don't dwell too long on your misery. Don't feast on it or savor it, but instead, try to look beyond it. These moments on Earth that we miss because of our hopeless states are priceless. It is hard to hang on to the faint rays of light wh...

27 April 2015, 08:44 PM
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Underneath these starry skies I'm lost

It is not going to happen by magic. You cannot simply wake up one day and suddenly get all the colours back into your world. Just like everything we ever do, life itself requires a lot of hard work. It feels scary sometimes to realize that happiness is in your hands, and there is no great mastermind or higher power behind it. It sounds frightening to be free this way – free to build from scratch and burn to the ground. I've always been too careful a planner but I can't say that it's always wise.

24 April 2015, 11:01 PM
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Stirring up old memories.

What would it feel like to be reunited with your first crush again? Nostalgic, I suppose. It's been years since the last time we saw each other and had a proper conversation. Social media can only give you a glimpse of a life that has been happening somewhere on the other side of the world. You see those glossy pictures and excited tweets, but you also know better than anyone else that there is often an immense loneliness hidden behind those sparks and smiles. After all, that has always been ...

20 April 2015, 11:51 PM
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Goodbye

All the memories I ever called mine are yours to keep. I promise I won't plague your dreams or haunt you at night. Lay your head down and safely drift off to sleep. Your tomorrows await and your stars are ever so bright.

14 March 2015, 04:46 PM
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Funny

It's funny how our mind works. Funny how the pain dulls away. Slowly fading, moving further away until, eventually, you don't seem to notice anymore. From the scientific point of view it's all clear: in order to survive we must switch on our defence mechanisms and let our mind do the scrubbing, peeling and repainting. It's funny how it's so natural for us to forget, to cope this way. It's funny how I wish I could cry but instead, I'm sitting here staring at the wall. Loss is a curious thing.

12 March 2015, 10:37 PM
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Sometimes You Get That Feeling When...

When your mind has a taste of knowledge, ordinary life is not acceptable anymore. Suddenly you get this crazy feeling of wanderlust, start craving adventure. You want to touch the relics of the past and have a go at shaping your own future. For the first time, watching TV and going to bed simply won’t do. You need to be out there in the open, breathing, seeing, f e e l i n g. I guess it is the first step towards something new. Perhaps, it will turn into something grand and incredible. Or ...

12 March 2015, 03:03 PM
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Out of Love

No, you don't. You don't, you don't, you don't understand what's going on inside my head now! There's been a switch, a malfunction, a change. My old thoughts and ideas were abducted and replaced by new ones that were so alien to me before. But not anymore. Coming close to 24 years of age, I've understood that time is, indeed, ticking. It's flying, always in a rush as if it's constantly late. It sure as hell wouldn't wait for me. Just like I shouldn't wait for you any longer. Slowly, but sur...

11 March 2015, 07:51 PM
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