Birthday

It’s my birthday tomorrow. I really don’t want to have a birthday. Why can’t anyone see how unhappy I am? It feels like I’m bleeding on the inside. I don’t want to live anymore. I’m tired of fake smiling and acting like everything is okay, cause it’s not. I don’t want this life. I don’t want to be surrounded by people who make me feel worthless anymore. I can’t do this anymore. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow.

11 May 2014, 07:41 PM
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22 January 2014, 08:06 AM
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Aaarggggh!!!

Ever feel your blood boil to the point where you are ready to physically assault someone? Well, call it being in a bitchy mood, call it PMS or call it rude, I honestly don’t care, until you feel my frustration and hate you don’t know a damn thing! I feel like a caged animal!!! My parents don’t give a shit about me, all they want is the world to think I’m their perfect little daughter! Well fuck that! I’m not! And I don’t want to fucking be! I’m tired of them always ruling my life, saying when...

21 January 2014, 05:00 PM
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First 10 pounds gone...

I’m on a definite high. I’ve lost my first 10 pounds! =D I know from this point on it’s going to get harder and harder to lose the weight but I’m more determined than ever. I have quite a journey ahead of me to lose the next 40 but for once I don’t mind it, I look forward to it, because I’m doing this for ME and no one else.

17 January 2014, 06:14 AM
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15 January 2014, 01:38 PM
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13 January 2014, 05:42 PM
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If only it was that easy...

10 January 2014, 12:21 PM
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10 January 2014, 12:20 PM
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10 January 2014, 12:16 PM
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10 January 2014, 12:15 PM
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Disappointed in myself is probably the best way to describe how I’m feeling. I feel like I’ve let myself down in so many ways. I’m the reason I’m in such a depressive state. The reason I don’t want to leave my room, nevermind my house. I know the cause for my lack of a social life and the main thing holding me back from living my life, but up to now I’ve been in denial. I’ve been hiding from the F-word. I’ve been telling myself it’s really not that bad, but it is, I am… FAT. That’s what I am...

09 January 2014, 06:47 PM
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22 December 2013, 09:10 AM
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22 December 2013, 09:06 AM
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22 December 2013, 09:05 AM
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We all have issues, some more than others but most days I don’t know why I exist. Have you ever felt completely useless? Felt like you’re just a blotch on this earth with no clear purpose or goal in your life? Well that’s how I feel most days. I’ve been stuck in a rut for most of my life, trying to live up to the expectations set for me by others. Expectations that I’ve never felt would make me happy so I’d always just give up on meeting them. I’m not sure if I’m depressed or just scared to ...

22 December 2013, 08:58 AM
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