Who Am I?

I feel so lost i don't know who i am anymore. I don't know if i ever really did know who i was. I feel like i haven't grown up at all or that i haven't learned anything from life. I just feel so lost, i have no idea what i want to do with my life at all. I'm in a major that I'm not sure i even want to be in anymore. Im dating someone that doesn't respect me or treat me like i deserve to be treated. I spend most nights alone because i have no friends because I'm afraid to get out there and mak...

01 November 2016, 05:34 AM
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Falling for you

I can't believe i fell for someone that doesn't even care about me. i believed everything he told me. Last time we talked we were okay and then all of the sudden he just started ignoring me and idk what happened or what i did its like he won't return my texts or calls and idk what to do because all i want is to be with him even if it is just for one last time. i just feel so alone, broken, and lost now. I just want to talk to him one last time at least so i can get closure at least. i feel so...

26 March 2015, 09:46 PM
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i feel like all i write about on here is how lonely or quiet i am or about my guy troubles..i guess its just sad that i cant even remember the last time i was really really happy. where i didnt have to fake a smile when inside i was really dying...where i just smiled and i really meant the smile...where i didnt have a million things running thru my head.

20 April 2013, 10:39 PM
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Well looks like ill be spending another night alone...i should probably stop feeling sorry for myself and just get out there, but its just so hard for me because of how quiet i am. ugh! whatever. theres only 3 more weeks left of school and i think i can handle being by myself till it gets out

20 April 2013, 10:24 PM
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One day to live

so ive been thinking a lot about this...what if i had only one more day to live, what would i do?...i still dont know the answer to that question...ill get back to youu

17 April 2013, 02:44 AM
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i want something or someone to just numb the pain of my loneliness

10 April 2013, 12:04 AM
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and the hardest part is i dont have anyone i can talk to about any of the things i am going through. it really does suck having no one really there for you

10 April 2013, 12:04 AM
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im starting to actually really miss him and it really does suck! i just want to stop thinking about him and stop missing him but for some reason i just can't. and theres nothing i can do about the way i feel. he wants nothing to do with me anymore. i probably havent even crossed his mind since he completely cut me out of his life. and i understand that i took him for granted but he also lead me on for so long knowing very well nothing was ever going to happen with us. and i never even really ...

09 April 2013, 11:42 PM
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if anyone i knew ever saw any of these i would probably die!

09 April 2013, 04:31 AM
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well i just had spring break this past week...and it was a rough week...i got my heart broken for the very first time. he hurt me like no one ever has. all i wanted to do was lay in bed and cry all day. i just honestly didnt know what to do or how to feel...i couldnt stop crying... i have never felt that way before. it was just so hard and its still so hard...its like every little thing reminds me of him every song...every picture...just everything and i cant take it because im trying so hard...

27 March 2013, 02:31 AM
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i was talking to this guy and i stopped it because i used to hang out with his friends and he said he wouldnt tell them that weve been talking so i told him that we cant talk anymore if he cant tell them. so i ended it, but now im starting to second guess myself and im starting to think it was a mistake to stop talking to him. and im starting to think that maybe i have feelings for him because im starting to miss talking to him. but idk if its the fact that i like him or if im just lonely and...

14 March 2013, 08:25 AM
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im in love with you, and you want nothing to do with me. thats why its been so hard for me to get over you. i miss you like crazy cuz im totally, completely, head over heels in love with you.

28 February 2013, 12:22 AM
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Too Quiet

I hate the way i am, its not because of the way i look or my weight or anything like that. its because of how quiet i am, i cant stand it. and people have asked me, "then why dont you change?" but it really isnt that easy for me to just talk all the time idk why it just isnt easy for me. ive always been ok with being quiet because i have always had friends and i never felt alone or lonely, but this year starting college, its been a lot harder for me because i have no friends i spend most of m...

28 February 2013, 12:19 AM
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why wasn't i ever good enough for you?

28 October 2012, 02:32 AM
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Closure

i need closure from my ex. but I'm never gonna get it, which sucks. its just making it harder and harder for me to get over him cuz he won't even talk to me he just completely ignores me so I'm never gonna get the closure i need. its just making it so hard. but i just have to be strong pick up the pieces and move the fuck on, no matter how hard it is.

28 October 2012, 02:11 AM
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sick of trying, tired of crying

im tired of always being alone and lonely and crying, i just wish i had someone to talk to but i don't. I'm so sick and tired of thinking about these two guys every night, i miss them so much and they didn't even give me a chance to choose between they both just cut me out of their life, its like i don't exist to them anymore, and i am so sick and tired of always thinking about them and how much i fucked up with them, every night, i just wanna go out and have a good time and forget about ever...

27 October 2012, 06:47 AM
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FATE

Can we make a mistake and miss our fate?

22 October 2012, 09:36 AM
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lonely

im tired of feeling alone and like i don't have anyone. the people i thought were my friends always leave me out, never invite me anywhere anymore. I'm tired of spending my nights alone without anyone here with me. i just wish i had someone here for me. the person i thought was my "best friend" seems to only are about herself and about guys more than anything else. she decided to start liking the one guy i really ever liked and she's lied to my face everyday for over a year about it. its like...

22 October 2012, 09:23 AM
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