San Francisco.

I wonder if theres anyone in this city that hates living here. Because I hate being here and I thought that no thought can be unique because everyone thinks the same thoughts at one point or another. People. There are too many people, in and at out of this room up and down the halls. I wake up and look out the window there are toomanypeople. And San Francisco can have their Indian Summer and I will have the space between these four walls and by the time the walls sink the sun will have set. A...

29 July 2012, 07:22 PM
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Rm #419 Bed A

I met him the first time i stepped into this place. I met her just a few minutes later. She was wrapping him up in gauze, mummifying him, emotionally. And as she started to walk away she looked him over as if she were setting her eyes on him for the last time... I spent the morning talking to a man who wouldnt talk back. When his wife walked in the weight of the air in this room changed. She came to sit beside him as she ate her breakfast. And i thought, how nice of them to be able to have th...

29 July 2012, 12:56 AM
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Pulling inward.

A familiar place keeps calling me back. I feel it real early in the mornings. and real late at night... Its full of doubt and vulnerability. My whole life this place, this feeling, has made me fear death. It forced my deep insides to remain child like. Like when the church down the street carried in caskets. Arriving in long black monsters. You pull the curtains back just for a peek, then look the other way cause youve seen enough. And even now, this same place has you scared. Shaking even. I...

28 July 2012, 06:15 PM
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Regret is like bricks

That place is past. Its somewhere I feel I should be but i tug towards it and the thread loosens. Afraid to pull any harder, that i might tare it apart completely, my hands let go. Hoping that the seams will mend on their own. Behind me i can see it, something sacred and lost like an ancient ruin undersea. Crushing, the weight of it reminds me, fills my lungs like water. And i pull myself back, for a broader view, scanning the big picture searching for bits and peices of us, short of breath, ...

28 July 2012, 07:57 AM
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New Blog/Diary

I Have been trying to figure a more simple way of blogging. And when I say simple, I mean for me. If you have come here through the link I posted on my official blog and thoughts pages, you are aware of the comments, hate followers and such that I have generated over the years. Im in the process of figuring a lot of my life out right now and my writing is a huge part of this procedure. So bare with me as I put my life together. Those of you that have been on this ride with me for so many year...

28 July 2012, 03:14 AM
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