Emotional Hiatus

Ever since what happened between Deon and I, haven't felt like doing much of anything. It's summer, I should be outside enjoying this warm California weather or going out with my friends. Instead I am at home, in my dark room, laying in bed with my small dog. I keep trying to occupy my mind with things. I finished two books and I've binge watched many of my shows on Netflix. No matter what I do I can't seem to keep myself entertained for long and I go back to thinking about him. Even as I act...

28 June 2014, 08:14 AM
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Excuses

Nothing good lasts forever. Deon and I had been talking for months now. If the perfect guy existed, Deon was him. Deon is funny, kind, and understanding. Anything you could ever want in a boyfriend he had. Other than the fact that we live across the country, whatever weird relationship we had was going great. We both agreed that the distance was an issue, but we both decided to ignore it temporarily. The only other issue HE had was that he is Christian. The good kind too, not the homophobic c...

28 June 2014, 12:50 AM
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Walk Out, to Walk Back In

Have you ever been in friendship or relationship that you thought would withstand the test of time? Unfortunately not every friendship can endure the problems that life throws at us. Eventually, some friendships and relationships turn toxic and you have to rid yourself of it. Breaking off ties with someone who is special to you is never easy. You have to ask yourself: Will our friendship recover from this, or will this forever affect us? I believe in second chances; after all, no one is perfe...

20 June 2014, 03:29 AM
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Virgin

I've always felt like an outcast in most aspects of my life. I've never been kissed, never had a boyfriend, and I never smoked. I have always been behind most of my peers when it comes to certain experiences. So as one can probably assume, I've never had sex. Although I've always felt unattractive, I always thought I would somehow find my love in high school and we would awkwardly lose our virginities in his car or while his parents were away for a weekend. It never happened. I don't think I'...

19 June 2014, 08:09 AM
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Deon

In early 2014 I was browsing along this dear old website called Tumblr. Somehow I stumbled across a blog and I reblogged a few posts from this person. Long story short, he followed me and I followed him. After months of following one another, he eventually messages me and asks if we can talk somewhere outside of Tumblr. Now let me make this clear, I NEVER befriend people from the internet. However, something told me to go with it and give this guy my snapchat username (I wasn't ready to give ...

19 June 2014, 07:48 AM
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