Vigorously upbeat Flashing panicky and Overtly audacious He fidgets Alone in a room To a tepid water faucet Strenuously standing With his hands out under Running luke warm water All along the dresser and nightstand Lay a-strew empty beer bottles Disheveled and impure Lay out old pictures on the floor And in a suit case sitting open on the bed His bare feet stood On the bathroom floor In a pool of blood And he shaves his face And cuts the butt of his chin off Dripping down his neck an...
It’s that way again, biting my lip again, falling on things, lousy feelings, feeling no pleasure, heading for no where, stopping at dead ends, ends that turn me around, around to focus on nothing, focussing on nothing, my eyes use to see everything, now they see blindness, black space with no color, biting my lip raw, so raw it numbs its self, bleeding out my mouth, out where I speak to people, people who can’t hear me, I use to yell, now I can’t hear myself, biting my lip, the fatty tissue, ...
The hole in my heart Swells shut I succumb to Familiar faces Staring All there are Are prohibit signs Stopping me from Seeing through your eyes And behind me nearing Are footsteps Calling me Casandra I'm in about to run Toward the wailing wall To end this I'm not the same And it was only yesterday Split in half Who is who So I can see through The end It's just a look Around the corner
An unforgettable performance
Set aside cold and waxed The stage stares out A restive glance Awaiting performance Of dancing ballerinas Tip toeing effortlessly Around in circles As the orchestra Plummets it's drums And the violins hum Until intermission People smoking and drinking in the ballroom Until the lights flicker warning Of a new scene Dark lit and snowing In the skies of heaven Giving a sense of mourning A perfect beginning To an unforgettable story
Yes, I am alive
I am ancient and decaying Arrestingly conveying Word after word of Ink staining authenticity That swim so neatly through me It breathes out depths of a Lost long enduring silence Of reassuring compliance that Meditates and morphs color Into golden rich liquid elixir That then cools into nectar Of rich valued honey and Plentiful aroma That flood so heavily out The holes and surfaces Turning my ancient carcass Back into life Unwrapping un un-telling story That quietly will surface Through wh...
listen to the cello
When you kiss me I close my eyes and wait For music to start I can't help but have a desire To play along side the orchestra With you at the lead Playing cello and Hitting the cymbals Sparking an ignition To a fire that went out Inside of me long ago We lay across the sheet of the bed In a motel bedroom The liquor store sign flashing Through the window curtains And we turn up the music On the alarm clock radio And with each enticing kiss And every stroke of your hand When it goes up and d...
The pressure is on, the noises are gone, the suspension is off and dying for anchor. Fussy filthy jealousy scanter ‘cross the highways and interstates, hot engine breath, grinding rotors, not less pass the get away, a treasury place, a hole in the ground, cold enough to freeze a living body dead. During investigation, the cement sidewalk cracks were yet the only lead. The treasure, yes. My insides shake, and I can’t take in food or water. The hair on top my head is thinning, I be...
I became pregnant but miscarried
too many networks
Oh yeah I forgot about this, I could write here no one sees this, anyway, fuck. Should I start using this thing again, no probably abandon it, too many networks.
'She' An Excerpt from my Novel
She tore the hems from with out of her skin. Daunting and restless single key voices came from each open wound. Neither this nor that makes any sense. A curving sharp edge of the knife in her hand cuts the end of the thread. Wayward theatrics of bodily fluids- spore out conclusions of a worn out woman as she lies on the floor and stops moving. She's done nothing. Nothing but help herself from dying. And the party just sees this girl on the floor. Bloodied in pain. They don't know she is resti...
She raised the bell past her face and rang it loud and mighty, the festered amount of galloping hungry men violently shrug into the mess hall and trample the ringing bell woman.
It's the beginning of the morning sun rise and all the bugs went to hide. It's breakfast for birds and cats and foot steps.
Spread out the seeds and spread your knees. Spread out the sea shells on the table while your little brother washes up the sand off his feet. Listen to the large ones.
Sometimes it's hard when no one wants to see you go. You see this spek in their eye, or shiver in their chin, or they get pouty mouth, and their eyes droop with their lips.
A piece of blank paper goes in front of you And the lawn mower turns on And the dog starts barking And your friend comes over with some speed And it’s time for some conversation And disaster We will not run away You and I I embrace Youv’e been hunting my face I see it in your eyes Last nite was nice But you did not come over High as a kite We unite You Sleep tight Good nite
Dramatic space Reverb Reverb Violent Thunder Acrylic Thunder Ambient Droning Stuck Under Weather My Dad Was Angry At Me And I Cowered Like I Always Do In Distant Space Dramatic Void
Hardly trying to pick up the subject detecting silence inquired Almost mathematical Situation Gambling Process Organizations Hypothesis Graph paper lists And pencil scratches With numbers and lines And cursive Strung through pages Of just one subject And in the end Never a Conclusion Re-written Scribbles Over and Over And over and over Just trembling Silently sustained Coded prisms Articulant persistant -of A growing dream
It’s about to start The suffocation of pointlessness She dwells Her Family she want to stomp on And she crashes The monster, she answers “You are Unstable to meet standards” Holiday disaster Quarantine my mind Shut off the spine, muscles, and, nervous system Rustling around, swirl motion, picking up pieces of shrapnel The bomb exploded The Man Let it Drift away mrs. Take away your children
She went flying out to sea And remorse came out her mouth Why she disappearing Lack of holding on And we torment thee A glimmer we see Lost out to sea Flying underneath Drowning
Everyone is on two Fucking Hands And Two Fucking Knees Barking Like Squirrels Cackling their cheeks I’m Bound to surface into a Nightmare Raise shine light down onto me From Where the Balcony they breed from Where the Only light comes from The Noise Cackling echo spread across the forrest dead I run I Frown Squirrel People Beat me down I’m On My Hands and Knees Cackling