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That's how much I love you!!!

20 February 2015, 01:01 PM
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As time goes on and we're apart, I think of how things could have been. What we could have said or done to work things through. I would have been more understanding and not so judgmental, more loving and not so hurtful. I would have told you I loved and cherished you more often. That there can never or will ever be another person who I admire like you or who has reached the depths of my heart like you have. I would have told you that I'm so very proud of how far you've come and the things you...

18 February 2015, 05:30 PM
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Yes I was a fucked up girl few months ago, Yes I was selfish, Yes I didn't give no fucks. Yes I had friends that was no good for me. But now that I have my baby girl I have realized that I had to change and leave behind all those bad people and hobbies. Okay I get it people might think I'm the same one I used to be, but I'm not!!! I have changed for good. For the best of me and my baby girl. I left all those bad people I used to hang out with but I won't dined it I still love. I will show eve...

18 February 2015, 05:24 PM
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I have to be honesty with everyone. I can't lie! Yes I know that he walked away from us, He left me by myself facing all this by myself and cased many problem in my family. I hate him for that But My love for him bets that. I have tried what ever it took to forget him. I want for the good of my family and my baby girl. But I can't. It's so hard too forget about him. I just want my family and my baby girl to be happy and proud of me, no matter if I have to give up on my happiness. I have cause...

18 February 2015, 05:24 PM
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My Unborn child <3

I write this letter to my unborn child from the depths of my soul. You've entered my womb and made my life complete and whole. I never thought I would be chosen for such an awesome task. It is a greater blessing than what I ever could ask. I can almost imagine you in my mind. Beautiful, Happy, Bouncing, flashing a smile so kind. Feeling you flutter is a sensation like no other. It does wonders for the joy of this soon-to-be-mother! You create a glow in me I never knew I would see. It is true...

05 June 2014, 04:30 PM
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In life we do things. some we wish we had never done. Some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads. But they all make us who we are. And in the end they shape every detail about us if we were to reverse any of them we wouldn't be the person we are. so just live, make mistakes. have wonderful memories. but never ever second guess who you are. where you have been, and most importantly where it is you're going.

03 June 2014, 05:56 PM
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faking everything

Home Alone. You break down, letting out everything, Crying as loud as you can. Your family comes home, And here you go. Fake smile, fake laugh, Pretend everything is ok. They don't suspect a thing. They don't suspect their child is broken and falling apart.

03 June 2014, 02:32 PM
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Welcome!!

Welcome to our society, where the teenagers are depressed, and the students are stressed, where people will give you hate, on what you wear and what's your weight, where there's only sex, no hugs, and there is no candy, just drugs, where we cut for an escape, and the parents best and rape, where laws forbid people being gay, and everything is weary and gray, so i hope you enjoy you visit with society, just try not to get depression and anxiety.

03 June 2014, 02:25 PM
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How did i Got THAT messed up?

At 11 i was fine, at twelve i had a big fight which made me hate everyone. at 13 i was totally depressed. at fourteen my world was kinda better and i had fun. at 15 i am a wreak. i hunted myself and i couldn't stay in school for more then 30 minutes because i couldn't focus on nothing but in how i distorted everyone and everything around me.

03 June 2014, 02:18 PM
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Nobody knows the real me. Nobody knows how many times I've cried in my room when nobody was watching. Nobody knows how many times I've lost hope, how many times I've been let down. Nobody knows how many times I've felt like the sake of others. Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad, how horrible they truly are. Nobody. Knows. Me.

03 June 2014, 02:11 PM
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Depression, Cutting, Suicidal,

Don't hold strong opinions about things you don't understand.My time has come, and so I'm gone. To a better place, far beyond. I love you all as you can see. But it's better now, because I'm free.Sometimes you need to run away just to see who will follow you.It's hard to answer the question "what's wrong" when nothings right.I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.Maybe one day it will be ok again. That's all I want. I don't care what it takes. I ...

02 June 2014, 02:19 PM
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fucked up

I’m just a fucked up girl living in a fucked up life in a fucked up world. Welcome to where being me is- *Never Enough*- Just because her eyes don’t tear doesn’t mean her heart doesn’t cry. And just because she comes off strong doesn’t mean there’s nothing wrong. You don’t understand me and never will. So don’t start that shit ‘bout knowin’ how I feel. My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I’m hoping things will look up, and right when they do, there’s always something to fuc...

02 June 2014, 02:19 PM
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A Broken Mirror, A Bleeding Fist A silver Blade Against A Wrist Tears Falling Down To Lips Unkissed Ignore Her And She Won't Exist She's Not The Kind You'll Come To Miss

02 June 2014, 02:14 PM
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Depression is when your engine isn't powering up. It might take a few pushes, a oil change, or you may have to take yourself to a loving engineer to fix you right up. If all does not work, getting a new engine isn't always a bad idea. It is a fresh new start on your continuing journey.

02 June 2014, 02:14 PM
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self harm

She cuts herself. Never too deep, never enough to die. But enough to feel the pain. Enough to feel the scream inside. The lines I wear around my wrist are there to prove that I exist. a broken mirror a bleeding fist a silver blade against a wrist tears falling down to lips unkissed she's not the kind you'll come to miss Have you ever felt the need to slit your wrist, let all feelings of guilt and depression bleed out, then sew yourself up to be happy again? That's the problem with cutti...

02 June 2014, 02:13 PM
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"When will people understand that words can cut as sharply as any blade, and that those cuts leave scars upon our souls." I'll show you mine if you show me yours first Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse Real cutters don’t cut for attention or for the pain, real cutters cut for the satisfaction of being in control something. "Rumors are vicious, talk is cheap, words are malicious, secrets you should keep. Gossip is fake, and I'll make the deepest cut, so learn from the past...

02 June 2014, 02:13 PM
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The hardest thing a 15 year old ever could do is have a child. Yes first was with the help of her family but I missed it up for doing what i did. Now I have to fix all the mistakes I have made in all my life time for my child; because i wouldn't want my child one day to do all the bad things I have done.

02 June 2014, 02:07 PM
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love ones

When everyone is giving up on you, don't let that get to you...show them that you don't need them in order to succeed in life. yes you meet need a friend or two but the really people that are with you everyday is the one's that are your true friends. don't let them down. It will hurt them!! trust me, I have done it all my life. It's not a good feeling because the day you really want to change for good, it will be to late for them to believe anything you say or do. learn to love the ones that ...

02 June 2014, 01:59 PM
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I Will Wait For You

It was not hard for me to fall in love with you. You are so easy to love. The hardest part is being away from you, but I know that the best part is when we will be together again. I'm longing for that moment. God knows how much I miss you. We may be apart, but my love for you stays stronger and sweeter. When I feel alone, I close my eyes and I can feel your arms wrap around me, your tender kisses and sweet whispers of "I love you". My Love, all I ever need is you and all I want is to hold yo...

09 March 2014, 01:04 AM
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I Miss You

I miss you so much it hurts, my love I miss you with every fiber of my being I miss you like there is no tomorrow, my dove I miss you fervently, it's all my loving. I miss you with my entire heart I wish we were no longer apart. My heart beats only for you, faster and faster My legs are shaking just thinking about you My eyes are watery, tears flowing larger and larger My whole being is trembling for you. My arms are craving to hold you once more My soul is withering away deep from its core....

09 March 2014, 01:01 AM
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