sad … now holding the pillow sad now my tears roll down my face sad no one is holding me sad to not know I'm enough sad is he even coming home sad am I going to find myself once again alone sad …...
I'm the type of person who walks around in her house and still bumps into the walls. While expecting them to move. I think to myself ... What are the expectations that we have in life? Just like that , me and my Jamaican coffee cup not filled with coffee but ice cream :) Just how I like it, whip cream on top lol Well anyways, I'm thinking to myself. I'm here alone, while the person that I love is on his way to Miami. How exactly am I suppose to feel? I'm okay.. Just in time for my sadness I r...
Is being single ... the new trend ?
So, I'm laying down watching Sex and the city. Thinking to myself.. I reek of desperation for a relationship. I finally thought to myself how it makes sense. Everything makes sense... Theirs the occasional guys that approach me because of my looks … or Should I truly say the guys that love to look at my assets and wonder how I'll be in bed... Then they slowly become disappointed when they find out that I'm not easy... They think to themselves .. maybe I can crack the code.. But once they ge...
What's next ... A constant mind battle ... within myself
I want to fall in love, I want to let go of all things … I want to be enough … I understand that its hard because I just keep thinking to myself that someone is going to come and rescue me from this never ending cycle... where are the good guys? Are their any left ugh or are they all taken? It sucks to feel like no one understand … I love so hard and get hurt all the time... I'm tired of getting hurt and I'm ready to tell people like can u show me a preview of what I'm signing up for? Like ma...
I Feel everything Too deep !
I feel sadness .. too deep I feel happiness.. too deep I feel love ... too deep I feel anger... too deep I get into things … too deep I feel emotions … too deep Simple? … that's not me I fall … into deep
Picture: Connecticut Let Go and go with the flow.... I tell myself I can't let go I won't let go But I hear a whisper and it's telling me let go and remove all attachments... Look you've found yourself all alone ….so let go From all the ropes Stop letting him string you along like your a yarn of rope so let go and go with the flow… But I can't let go I can't help but say no! When I look at you and you look back at me But I can't see myself in your eyes anymore What does this mean? ...
It was to good too be true
I knew it was too good to be true... everything was going good between us but what can I say u still never happy , nothing is ever good enough for you ... u want to keep talking to other girls and keep being single smh , your full of bs I swear idk why I thought this time would actually be different .. and now im here feelings stupid again but what can I do apparently stay mad nd just wait as the pain go away
True beauty is when you smile Its when you give a helping hand Its being able to forgive and learn from your mistakes Its letting go of all those horrible thoughts Because your AMAZING the way you are just the way you smile and sing and dance don't change because your BEAUTIFUL
He's there , My loving GOD
when you feel alone just close your eyes... he's there he's see's that your amazing ... He knows how beautiful you are from inside and the outside and even if you feel incomplete , he can make you feel whole.. He loves you and he will never leave your side <3 .... just have trust in him
So i know that i shouldn't miss him but i still do... i always end up feeling like its my fault. when i know it isn't but what can i say the heart always wants what it can't have... and even tho. i want to listen to my heart and write to him , i know its best that i don't... soo i'll rather keep these feelings to myself because i know that It isn't worth expressing how i feel .... knowing, it won't make a difference
I ask myself why ???
So i was thinking why do we care soo much about what other people think about us .... we shouldn't but yet we still care ? I wonder how its so easy to point out the flaws we have and have a hard time just picking out one positive thing we have.... i wonder why society makes us feel so bad about ourselves ... why do we care about whats in or not? why ? We're all different unique from one another and being perfect is over rated .. i always find beauty in imperfect things