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YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

29 April 2014, 12:32 AM
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body image

the struggle to be thin, to feel beautiful and just be happy with how you look is so hard. it's so incredibly hard to look in the mirror and not find a flaw or something you aren't happy with. whether it's how flabby you think your stomach is, how fat you think your cheeks are, how you think your butt is too big, how you'll take your hands and squeeze the fat on your thighs to make them see like they're smaller. it's so hard to feel like you're pretty enough and skinny enough when society tel...

27 April 2014, 11:17 PM
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well then

well that's it. i've experienced this over and over again, but yet i keep doing it over and over again. you would think if i learned my lesson once i wouldn't have to again. but no. i know i can't talk to her about my problems or things that really piss me off because it always turns into a ridiculous lecture about how i need to be the better person, handle things maturely blah blah blah. the thing is i know, and i DO handle it maturely. when someone pisses me offf i turn the other cheek, i i...

14 April 2014, 11:25 PM
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summer

SUMMER PLEASE COME FASTER! i'm so looking towards summer, the late nights, the campfires, swimming, my tan, the smell of green grass and sand between my toes, i could go on. I swear just thinking about how there is still 3 months between summer and now is making me depressed. JUST WEATHER PLEASE GET NICE AND WARM ALREADY. oh and how about we play skip the next 3 months of school. yeah, that sounds like a great plan.

05 April 2014, 09:16 PM
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WHY

why do things have to be so difficult? why can't we just know what we want and not spend days, weeks, or even months wondering if we made the right choice? i'm so sick of living in the past, wishing that things turned out differently. Because I don't know if I would do anything different. It seems that no matter what you do, there is always someone criticizing you. There is always something there for you to be upset or worried about. I would kill for just a moment of there to be absolute peac...

27 March 2014, 10:50 PM
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I can't even come up with a title for this

Where the heck is spring?! This time last year I would be saying "where the heck is summer?!", but it's sort of impossible to say that right now since it is still freaking snowing!!

27 March 2014, 10:32 PM
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school

i really should be studying right now but i can't. my mind is always elsewhere than where it should be. when i need to focus the most is when i focus the least. maybe it's because i am very tired. school makes me sleep deprived. i can't go on much longer doing homework till 12 or even later at night and getting up at 6 in the morning. it's either school or sleep - too bad i don't have a choice. zzzz

19 March 2014, 02:50 AM
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shining sun

the sun is shining and the birds are singing because it is a new day

09 March 2014, 03:55 PM
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no good

i feel like I'm not worth much at times. i let people walk all over me, and treat me in ways no one deserves to be treated. i tell myself i'm no good because guys don't love a fat girl. but i don't just feel like I'm no good because of how people treat me or how i think other people view me. i feel like I'm no good because i don't believe i deserve certain things because of all the mistakes i make and continue to make. i hope to be a better person- i mean i try to be, but i always do somethin...

09 March 2014, 03:45 AM
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Lost touch

I've lost touch of who I am and I'm really trying hard to focus and find who that is now.

09 March 2014, 03:03 AM
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so sick of

I'm so sick of many things. i'm sick of not knowing why certain things happen because i'm not buying the saying "everything happens for a reason". I'm sick of how hard and shitty things can be, but then so easy for other people. I'm sick of not being able to explain myself, not being able to get people to understand me. i'm sick of trying so hard but then having everything just blow up in your face. i'm sick of giving out so many second chances, and people the benefit of the doubt when they j...

09 March 2014, 12:50 AM
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Dear Boys,

Be thankful you are not a girl. period. being a girl is THE HARDEST thing to do. It may look easy or whatever- but it is not. first of all not only do you have to empress guys, you have to impress girls! like for pets sake they aren't your freaking boyfriend but you still have to impress them other wise it's like committing a constant social suicide. not only is it impressing girls by the clothes you wear- it's your complete appearance. how you talk, the things you have- oh and DONT EVER thin...

07 March 2014, 01:07 AM
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WHY

I've been asking myself this question a lot lately. There is so many things we can question, but one that has been on my mind a lot lately has to do with an issue that has been embedded within our society for generations. WEIGHT. I can not stress enough how much this concept bothers me. So my question is WHY does weight matter? WHY does is have to make or break someone? WHY is it so important? Yes, I understand with regards to health- but a girl should not feel like she's not beautiful becaus...

01 March 2014, 12:25 AM
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today

Hate to be blunt, but I hate school and all the people there.. okay most people there and most days, but it is a very big most. So pretty much everyone except for a select few... and it depends on the day and how i'm feeling. anyways, I never know what to do when it comes to anything. One moment i'll be thinking one thing, and then the next moment something will happen and make me see things completely differently. for instance i decided i'm going to focus on sciences and math, and then i rea...

26 February 2014, 01:45 AM
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I wish

I wish I could just travel all over the world, drop everything and just go. I want to see all the exquisite things the world has to offer, I want to taste foreign foods, see amazing heights, sights that take my breath away. I want to see so many places and try so new many things. I want to face my fears and do things that may even terrify me. I feel so unsettled just thinking about how I just want to go. I want to live every day like it's my last, and live with no regrets. I want to do crazy ...

24 February 2014, 03:28 AM
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not in love

It seems that everyone is in a relationship these days, or on the verge of being in one. Not me. I don't know if I'll ever meet "the one", I don't even know if I'll meet "one".

23 February 2014, 11:04 PM
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little thoughts

I always have a million thoughts on my mind. It seems when I'm not worrying about one thing, I'm worrying about another. I think the main reason I thought to keep a diary would be to sort out all my thoughts. Write down the million little things I think about, even make clear of the big things. I've come to a point in my life where I'm suppose to be getting an idea what I want to do with my life. But I have no idea. I'm so worried that one day I'm going to end up with a job I hate. Picking co...

23 February 2014, 10:21 PM
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honesty

I’ve always wanted to have the courage to share my thoughts, say what I’m really feeling, without worrying what people think. I could say that I don’t care what people think of me, but that would be a lie. Everyone cares what people think of them, it’s just a matter of how they react to it. Will I change myself just because someone doesn’t like something about me? no. But that doesn’t mean I won’t second guess about what I say, what I post, or what I do, because I’m worried people might think...

23 February 2014, 10:00 PM
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