Today was a better day...

Today was a better day...I went and saw a few people from my old job. And I took care of some bs that I've been putting off because I've been too tired to do it between being mommy and working. I have a ton to do tomorrow so hopefully I can get it done, then maybe I will be able to actually relax and enjoy my weekend before I have to go back to work on Monday.

21 March 2014, 04:27 AM
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Mental regression

So when I was younger I suffered from several mental issues that I required mess for. I eventually learned coping strategies and was able to come off my meds and be successful. I stopped therapy for about fifteen years. I have always suffered from depression as well as a few other things but I have been managing fine until about a year ago, maybe a little less. I've started noticing things that I did previously before I got help. I put on a smile and fake happiness when I know that is the e...

19 March 2014, 12:48 AM
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My mission

So I'm on a mission this week. I'm not working this week so I'm going to have some time to get a few things done but I am also going to have a little bit of time where I am completely alone...no job to worry about and my son will be at school. I've been talking with my psychologist and I need to find some things that make me happy, things I can do when I don't have my son that are just for me. I've never lived on my own without a child. I went from living in a dorm to being married to being...

17 March 2014, 03:36 AM
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My man

I love him. We've been together for several years now. I'd like things to become more than what they are though. But part of me feels guilty for wanting that. Here's the thing... He's amazing to my son. He treats him as though he is his own. I could never ask for more in regards to that. Honestly, when I left my ex husband I never thought I'd find anyone that would treat my son the way I thought he deserved to be treated. But my man does. It's amazing. He treats me better than any other m...

17 March 2014, 03:27 AM
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Keep ya head up

With everything that's been going on lately, 2Pac's Keep Ya Head Up is my go to song to try and get my mind right. I've been through hell and back and I guess I'm just hoping that things are going to be different this time.

13 March 2014, 12:20 PM
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Maybe this will help

I'm so sad and I just can't make it right. I try to sleep, and I can't shut my mind up. When I want to stay up I pass out from sheer mental exhaustion. Or I cry myself to sleep. It's horrible. I love so much about my life and I've come such a long way mentally over the years that it just feels horrible falling apart all of a sudden. I know part of it is stress and mental exhaustion from teaching about 250 kids a day and then coming home to raise my son on my own. But I also know part of it i...

13 March 2014, 02:57 AM
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