Dear Diary

I decided to let them what they want to say or do and I will live my life by my own.I will shut everything up.I will take away them.I don't hope and have faith with something impossible.

29 March 2015, 02:47 PM
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Dear Diary

Maybe I just have to accept the reality that they hate me.The reality that I have to look pathetic and get embarrassed by them every time.The reality that I'm their enemy that they have to take down desperately.The reality that person so dark and ugly.Everything is just a lie and unreal.

29 March 2015, 02:43 PM
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Dear Diary

After this week....everything will start again.My school life will actually.Hahaha...actually it is so awkward but I have to hide it.Everything is so awkward but I won't look back anymore.Everything is like a mess.But I do everything I can do for myself.

29 March 2015, 02:34 PM
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Dear Diary

Even how past was cruel and sad.Definitely there was good moments there.I don't want to remember it before.But maybe I need a closure to myself.I need to face myself.Not the bad times, but good times.Since I got refresh and not tired.I'll do something.I don't know either, but I just do my best and that's all.Everything is for freedom.For myself."A wish is a dream your heart makes"

14 March 2015, 02:37 PM
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Dear Diary

I hope I can be like before.I can't open her heart and make her free to express herself.I can't even too.I hope I can protect her this year.Not totally but with minimum damage.I hope while I'm doing that,everything will work.

11 March 2015, 02:24 PM
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Dear Diary

I feel lonely.My mom always mad.I can't smile and be happy with this environment. I'm always depressed and so stressed.Everyday is so unhappy.How can I smile?I can't be happy.She is trying to choose my life again.It's always like...I dream then despair and got broken by them.Me and my sister is not happy.Everyday we got scolded.Then she will expect us to be happy when we go out.She will expect us that we love her.I don't know.I feel everyone around her will got bad.Get worse and worse.She is...

11 March 2015, 02:20 PM
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Dear Diary

This is my last year to be free.I want to be free!To do what I want once again.Help me come trough this by writing you!This time,let's start again.This time,by not facing myself.By doing this for myself.

08 March 2015, 02:38 PM
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DEAR DIARY It starts with FREEDOM

I remember how I start my DIARY.How much I was seeking for it.I'm even counting how long I will stay to this house.How much I'm suffocated.How much I'm running away.To start a new me.My very own new chapter and life.I don't know when I started trying to face those fears and pains.Get started to be MYSELF.Got serious with everything.I SUPPOSED to be ESCAPING.How come?I choose to got HURT?

08 March 2015, 02:26 PM
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Loving Yourself

I know that someone can understands me and someone can't.I'm so loved and I know it myself.I can't love myself.I lose myself and everything because of that.I will not try to love myself.I want that someday,that day will come.In my opinion,I myself or someone who can't love theirselves is empty.No matter what everyone does.Simple thing...I don't or they don't care.I or they can't feel it at all.That is my problem that everyone else dealing.But maybe when I don't dissed myself and think gross...

04 March 2015, 02:58 PM
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My sister's graduation

Tomorrow is her big day.I'm so glad that we can be together again.I was so lonely without her.I used to be with her going to school and everything.I am so busy with my work and study.I can't even really pay attention to her.She grew up and she is taller than me.Her face is so cute.My best friend ever.Someone I think I can stay forever not just because she is my sister.She was special for me before.Maybe its not that much now.But I do love her even we can't understand each other now.But she i...

04 March 2015, 02:38 PM
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Have Courage

I have to pass my entrance exam for College and that's it.I can leave everything behind after that.Just little more...pain to endure.Trials to overcome.Don't fear and do the best that I can do.For INAY and someone I really love.This is my way to thank them for all the love,care and understanding.I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

01 March 2015, 10:05 AM
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Life is an endless DRAMA

It contains love,happiness,sadness,madness,scariness etc.The thing is it seems difficult but simple.It's all up to ourselves if you want to survive,stop or fight maybe?My name Vera means FAITH and I don't have it.Funny that even I had faith before nothing has happened.Exactly NOTHING.If I don't know or do something,I will just lose everything without doing ANYTHING.But even I did ANYTHING it was simply USELESS.

24 February 2015, 03:27 PM
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Dear Diary

Maybe everyone is like me that tired to be judged and compared.But the only difference is I overcome every trial of my life alone and they are not.Instead of finding their own mistakes, they find my mistakes.But I think because of them,I am so motivated.At the same time I'm stressed and tired emotionally.

24 February 2015, 03:10 PM
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At the End

I smile like nothing has happened.At the end I loosen my guard and something really bad happens.Maybe the next time I'm not alive.But even I die, I feel I just had enough time and memories.Maybe it was almost a nightmare.Maybe I am always frightened to trust and live the full of myself.But it was great the way it was. I can't open my heart and love myself.At the end it was how I enjoyed it and live it.I want to be the best of myself.There is no limit to be PERFECT,because no one is PERFECT.Th...

24 February 2015, 02:53 PM
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I am cursed

I feel my bad luck is still continuing.Yesterday I met a pervert.He touches me and I can't even speak.I don't want to believe in black magic or something but,since I dump that guy I'm ruined.From my friends,teachers and maybe my family is next.I call police and until 2am they asked me the same thing all over again.From9pm to 2am!8am I woke up and asked everything today.Am I so cruel or something?I don't like them and that's all.I'm a loner now and I'm not that concern.But teachers are.I'm sca...

24 February 2015, 06:59 AM
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SWEET

Isn't it SWEET?Everything is annoyed and think that without an effort you have everything.JEALOUSY is the reason why everyone takes me down.This makes you famous and motivates you to PROVE YOURSELF.But actually I'm so tired to all of these drama thing.I almost spent my life fighting with something.Exhausted and END UP losing MYSELF.It's happening AGAIN.Now I don't have anything but good grades.Why they aren't SATISFIED at all.They won this GAME thing anyways.I'm so over and why everyone conti...

21 February 2015, 04:24 PM
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Dear Diary

This is weird, but I want to thank my DIARY.Without this, I'm NOTHING.I realize that if I want to feel the LOVE.I should LOVE MYSELF first.Everything ENDS.I can't LOVE.I hate being LOVED and CARED!!!It's so ANNOYING!!!I hate MYSELF and EVERYTHING else. I'm so messed up.I did break everything?NO!!!They BROKE and TOOK ME DOWN!!!I don't want to listen them and hear anything about me.I LOVE myself.I BELIEVE myself.Whatever happens,this will be the LAST YEAR.ONE YEAR and everything will END.I HOPE...

21 February 2015, 03:59 PM
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Everything Has an ENDING

Suddenly I realize that whatever happens now will end. I'm so PROUD that I came too far now.I finally stand up by myself.

21 February 2015, 03:37 PM
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I want to be an INSPIRATION

I'm so inspired because of this INTERNET thing!!!Maybe I just gave up and suicide.Because of ANIME,MODELS,BEAUTY TIPS or something that made me FORGET all the PAINS.I want to be next one who INSPIRES and give STRENGTH to others.It is really WONDERFUL.To live MEANINGFULLY.I want to believe it's not about the happy ending.It's about the story and things you had DONE!!!I want to believe once again,that nothing is over while I'm LIVING.I want to believe that I'm the world,I'm the one who is makin...

19 February 2015, 01:44 PM
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END means START

I really need a break.But tomorrow is my last EXAM!!!I don't want to lose to my HATERS!!!But I know I just want to prove my self with them.It's not that I'm telling I'm better than them.I just want to prove that I don't deserve their criticizing words.But deep inside I know I'm HATED all because of my grades.WHY?I did my best to have it.What is WRONG with that?SUDDENLY I realized I'm wasting too much TIME.2 years!!!Thinking them!?Two years I was an idiot.It's not simple to move one.But I want...

19 February 2015, 01:23 PM
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