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I just wanted to be LOCATED

Well my fake friends and I get along together and try to be like before.It was IMPOSSIBLE after-all.At the first place,I can't have it.I found it by having high grades.Doing all efforts to my studies.They are the one who REFUSES me.I did everything to catch up with them.But they always rejected me of having different thoughts.They always talk in bisaya and not in tagalog.They brain washed everyone.I have to give-up with everyone around me.This is my LAST YEAR being a senior high school stude...

19 February 2015, 01:09 PM
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I'm living to live my life

I'm living to live my life

30 January 2015, 01:44 PM
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I never meant to fall in love.

Everything that falls got broken-Taylor Swift❤️❤️❤️ I suddenly thought that I was so obsessed with my fake friends.

09 January 2015, 04:35 PM
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Because of my HERO❤️❤️❤️SMILE-Avril Lavigne

I literally love you so much.The reason why I SMILE.❤️❤️❤️

09 January 2015, 04:31 PM
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Accepted finally!!!

Sometimes it is difficult.Is it fine to be like a MESS ?!!!Well it is not actually but I have to choose it.Oh!I forgot to update....How my life mess again...before Christmas my science teacher made me such a pathetic SCENE.Well that teacher telling us about makeup.(That day was the first day I wore it at school)After the class I suddenly asked if I'm fine.That time almost everyday and everyone tells me that question.(I suddenly freak out because they won't really accept my answer "yes")I wor...

09 January 2015, 04:19 PM
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What distance made me realize

I just realized that my ex-friends are used to be like that.At first, being alone is not totally a great idea.Maybe they will stop talking about me.But, it's totally OPPOSITE!!!EACH DAY of school was always all about my story.All my classmates and also some persons that bothered.I run away from everyone as much as I can.But suddenly I got tired and face them.But my Japanese friends that are so WHATEVER are there to interrupt me.To don't get along with them again.I suddenly got SICK of seeing ...

09 January 2015, 03:17 PM
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Live like TOMORROW doesn't EXIST -CHANDELIER

Nevertheless,I feel the pain.Every people overcome every trials of life.I'm such a LUCKY GIRL after all.I can eat clean foods,I won't starve(depends when I don't have appetite),I'm a working student so we don't have financial problems without that shit,I can take a bath(yeah,maybe it's a common sense for us),I can buy what I want(Yeah,I know it really....),not suffering with an ill(just a stomach pain because of stress),shelter(even it's just an apartment,it's normal here in Japan.lol),etc.I ...

26 December 2014, 05:29 PM
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The most REGRETTABLE thing!!!

Yeah,maybe I did wrong things sometimes.But MOST REGRETTABLE thing for me now,is the fact that I did NICE things with WRONG PERSONS!!!The moment I realize I was too martyr to HURT MYSELF with such a NONSENSE PERSONS.Actually I was SORRY to them because all I know is "I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH FRIEND or PERSON!!!" But now....I've had ENOUGH PAIN!!!I was so PATHETIC that moment....because I noticed I'm such an IDIOT!!!Then suddenly,I stopped to be a TRYING HARD.HATRED not to me.....TO THEM.Hatred tha...

26 December 2014, 05:17 PM
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Definitely 2015 is a challenge for me!!!

All I know is I don't want to run away anymore.I want to thank those people who made me cry.I want to thank them for all the pains.I realize everything clearly.I remember everything when I was child.Good and bad things.I can't understand this world.I don't even try to.I escape and escape,till I wanted to just die and escape from everything.Nevertheless I feel the pain.It will be hard but I think it worths and means a lot.

26 December 2014, 12:34 PM
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I had a Merry Christmas!!!❤️❤️❤️

Maybe Christmas was the most happiest day of 2014 for me!!!Everything was perfect!!!I can't express that very especial feelings. After all it wasn't that bad and I wish that I end this year with nothing.

26 December 2014, 11:40 AM
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For the first time I decide to be myself

For the first time.I'm changing.I experienced so many things.I'm used to be the person who got scared and always choose to hurt my own rather than others.Really,too much pain can change a person.But I won't let that pain change my smile anymore.I do care of myself now.I love myself right now.I will love it always.It's not that I won't love others, but I rather love myself from now on.I overcome something again by facing all my trials.Maybe I can be mean from now on.Maybe because of others.But...

06 December 2014, 02:46 PM
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I used to be like this

I'm the girl that always have two friends.And for the very first time I stop myself to hurt myself by not being with them.Lately,I have noticed that the boy that always follow us when we go to the station is my stalker.For the first time,I really got him actually.I forgot the trash box in our classroom.I need that because I'm the one who will throw that yesterday Friday.Then I saw him.I'm ready to go home and he actually really waiting for me.As far as he don't follow me further I won't tell ...

06 December 2014, 02:37 PM
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Everything will be alright

I don't know what I should.Then, I decided to do nothing.Because even I do a step.It's totally useless.Because everyone in class has a kind of jealousy towards me.It's not just simply I have higher grades.It's because I'm so desperate to be cute.It's not for them.It's toOtally with someone else.Even I know he's so busy and serious with his study.I want to be the best of myself.It's not just because him,it's also for myself.I don't want to be underestimated again with that fake ex-friends.Tota...

30 November 2014, 02:55 PM
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I lost everything

I know that this will occur definitely.I just made things faster and clear.I'm at the point of choosing if I will remain alone or forget about everything.Everything that they did to me.I'm an idiot if I do that.I know that I am like that for a long time.I don't know if they are important for me.If they are,I should stay with them.If they are not,I should let them go.I doubted.It means they are.Because if they are not,I won't think of going back with them.

18 November 2014, 02:25 PM
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Let go things that makes me sad!!!

03 November 2014, 01:02 PM
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Be strong!!!

03 November 2014, 01:01 PM
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Lesson learned

03 November 2014, 01:00 PM
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Starting work tomorrow

I have so harsh schedule.I woke,eat breakfast,take shower,just a little study and finally go to work.After work(4pm)I go to school.10pm I will got home.I don't know if my work is hard.Wish that it's simple.However it's too busy.But I have to do it.I have no choice.Factory can easily hire than a shop near here.It's almost a month since I started to find.Maybe because I'm a foreigner.I hate Japanese that thinks I'm different.They judge me like I'm bad without even trying to know.They are unfair...

21 October 2014, 03:41 PM
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Expressing myself

I feel I'm a child that taken away everything since the very first time by mom.My right to express myself was denied by mom.This is maybe my center since then.I completely control my emotions when my mom is there or I'm in school.In other words I can't feel anything.All I know is I'm in school because of her.I'm really bind with her,huh?Well she's my beginning?At any rate I really came from her.She is a brainwasher and my bad luck.All my situation right now is made by her.Occurred because of ...

20 October 2014, 06:32 PM
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Thinking positive

Well I know and accept that I'm so negative thinker.I know that it will take a lot of time to change my beliefs and thoughts about myself.At least I'm trying to now.I don't be such a fool or an idiot about somebody else anymore.I'm so honest that I accept everyone's opinion.I accept and think all over again about what they say.I almost denying my opinions all my life.Maybe this is one of the reason why I wanted to be free.But I know too that it is not possible by just simply avoiding it.I sho...

20 October 2014, 05:57 PM
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