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14 October 2014, 02:46 PM
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Mental Illness??

What is that?Maybe like me,some of us don't know they are.Well in my case,I got emotional and emotionless.Maybe I'm fighting with it right now by facing it.Facing my fears,love from someone(actually this makes me piss),sadness,my past(trauma),truth,and people that surrounds me.I'm a survivor of sexual abusement.I survived it by escaping from everything.Everything that surrounds me.I can't accept the truth so all this time I escaped from it.And one day I decided to die.But I stop myself and go...

11 October 2014, 06:20 PM
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Dear Diary

I have 2 bisaya friends.I've been with them because teachers and their guardians tells me to guide them and they are not used to study here in Japan.All this time,I mean one and half year,I wasted my time with them.I know but I can't leave them because I felt some kind of responsibility with them.I was too kind and unselfish.We argue with that guy.The guy that confessed his feelings.I dump him and I told it to my friends.Even though,they wanted me to talk with him.They told me that there is n...

11 October 2014, 05:34 PM
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Being myself

Most of time I wasn't being me for this past 4 years.I was really looking forward going Philippines then,but I didn't have fun than I expected.I don't know what to feel that time.I'm so sad.Everything got ruined and not happens as scheduled.I was a mess that time.I really miss the point of going there.Everyone was on my way.Everyone was my enemy that time.I don't hope that someone will understands me now.Even to someone I told my secret don't understands me.Everyone wants to change me.Then I'...

04 October 2014, 09:32 PM
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Dear Diary

In these few years,I knew that I have phycological problems.I started talking to myself after a while I sexually abused.I have severe emotional depression.I feel empty and down.The opposites happens too.I feel so emotional but I can't tell or say anything about my feelings.Maybe through this diary I can be true to myself.It's not easy to change yourself.Everyone tells me to "CHANGE!!!"But I want to ask them if they can change theirselves that easy.I'm tired of crying.I'm tired of drama.If I l...

03 October 2014, 05:06 PM
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Dear Diary

My admirer didn't stop!!!He turns out like a stalker!!!Staring my face in the train!!!DISGUSTING!!!I'm so hopeless!!!Why my life is so messed up by someone!!!Can't I just live peacefully???!!!I CAN't STOP SHAKING!!!I'm so SCARED!!!I don't even what to go school!It's so awkward that I want wrap my hands around his neck!!!BUT TOUCHING HIM IS MORE DISGUSTING!!!"YUCK!!!"I was hurt when my friend told me to talk with him!!!It's totally IMPOSSIBLE!!!I can't even see his face.I'm so out of my place....

01 October 2014, 04:35 PM
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Dear Diary

I won't talk about my dreams.I feel that if I tell it,it won't happen...but I'm fine with that.I'm fine that there's a part of me that living in the past.The best thing that ever happened to my life.My first true love.

26 September 2014, 04:32 PM
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Dear Diary

So I really don't know if I won't face him...but I really can't.There's a part of me that tells to avoid him.I'm not ready?...Maybe I just don't want to care anymore.I shouldn't be affected anymore because it's over.I know he is persistent so maybe I just don't want to do anything with him.I should eat next week.I have to go back to my own normal life.I wish that I can eat next week even I'll see him.

26 September 2014, 04:29 PM
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Dear Diary

Finally He stopped bothering me?!!!After I reject him...I really can't love him!!!So many things is bothering me and I can't love him.After I turn him down,he was persistently asking me to be his friend.I agreed with that,but I don't know why he is keeping telling me that if my feelings change or something like that!So I snap and had fight with him.I told him to don't say some drama or emotional thing again.So I warned him that time!!!But he replied it with emotional thing so I blocked him.Th...

25 September 2014, 04:43 PM
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Dear Diary

I decided to don't think about what other says.Today was horrible.Someone told me to die and don't want to even see my face.I neither too!Well everything gets complicated so I will throw some unnecessary emotions like not to listen or accept what other's say.I will more concentrate on my study and everything that benefits.Not with something useless and nonsense.But at the same time I'm thankful to that someone hurts me.I became stronger now.I don't really care now my school life.I only care n...

22 September 2014, 04:28 PM
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Well I think every event is just a tragedy for me.My mom celebrates her birthday today because everyone is busy on Wednesday.She can't enjoy it without her special persons.And I have a terrible makeup.I look like around 40 or 50.With fake long lashes that makes me look like a witch.I think I'm better without anything.Maybe I'm just having a bad luck all these years.

06 September 2014, 06:44 PM
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Dear Diary

Well I think every event is just a tragedy for me.My mom celebrates her birthday today because everyone is busy on Wednesday.I have a terrible makeup.I look like around 40 or 50.With fake long lashes that makes me look like a witch.I think I'm more better without anything.Maybe I'm just unlucky all these years.

06 September 2014, 06:41 PM
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Dear Diary

I wrote my dad a message on fb,and after that day he blocked me!Well honestly I blame him of what is happening to me.I'm not saying that I'm right of what did I do.I thought he will get mad instead of feeling sorry because he is a cold hearted.Even he is the wrong one he gets mad to us.Being guilty and childish always.Well actually before this I blame him once and he replied me that it was JUST.....that.(It is not something terrible to sexually harass you.)At the same time I feel that he is t...

06 September 2014, 05:35 PM
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Dear Diary

Maybe my life was full of regrets.Maybe someone thinks that I shouldn't exist.But I am here.I will live my way.I stopped thinking so much.'Cause I know that my life just going on whatever it is.I remember I was child.I'd never wonder what it ought to be.Just going on with flow of everything.I shouldn't be worry of something that not yet happens.Maybe my life sucks and full of fear now.Being sexually harassed wouldn't change at all.But maybe I can change myself from being alone and to feel eve...

24 August 2014, 11:06 AM
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Dear Diary

Well my cursed birthday over.As usual it was full of tragedy and drama.I miss Japan even it is so boring.I hate someone who bothers me a lot.I know that even I'm at Japan my life is full drama because of arguing with mom.

21 August 2014, 01:28 PM
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Dear Diary

My birth-day is near.I'm not happy at all.August 18Monday.We are going to celebrate it tomorrow.I'm so sad even my dad didn't bother us.He didn't come to Philippines and I have to celebrate that,and be happy because no one ruined my vacation.But I'm really stressed of my life.I guess I should act happy tomorrow,because mom will get mad at me if I look sad.No one will care or help me.Honestly,I'm tired.Physically and emotionally.I want to cry...,but I can't.Because I'm sleeping with my mom now...

15 August 2014, 03:22 PM
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Dear Diary

I block him.I told him not to tell any more,but he did so I blocked him.I decided to be hated by him.That is the only way to not make him hope and hurt more.I had to end this fast.There is two possibility.He will hate me so much.Well it can't be helped and I wish that so.Even I hurt too.One more thing is maybe he wouldn't go school any more.My conscience don't make me fall sleep if it could happen.It's my responsibility!I made his life ruined.I know how cruel I am if that happens.But if I get...

20 July 2014, 04:12 AM
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Dear Diary

Summer vacation has started today.On July 22 I'm going back Philippines and I'm so busy with my homework.I made my life get trouble.I made someone like me not intentionally.I told him about my secret.He told me that he loves me,no matter what I am.But I tell him that I don't love him.We said goodbye yesterday.But he told me to remain as my friend.I accepted it.He is telling me he wants to help me change.My heart's scar open again.My chest's pain,fear and despair regain again.I feel that he is...

19 July 2014, 03:50 PM
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Never meant to fall in love.

27 June 2014, 03:57 PM
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Test near again

Not a problem at all.It makes me forget the problem maybe I will met my father."My father"it kinda hurts me.I don't really want to hear even"father".Test is difficult,but to see him is more difficult.If I could only change my family name.I don't even want to hear my family name when calling me.It sucks.While I'm studying,the feeling I'm the center of my life changed to the world is center of my life,but changing again.I feel more free when I don't care about others.I am the center of my life....

21 June 2014, 06:15 PM
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